Thought Made Issues

It’s the Conditioned Mind that takes everything that happens and makes it an issue. You can break free of this hold that the mind has over you when it’s seen you aren’t the mind because you are not your thoughts.

It’s impossible to have an issue with anything in your life that isn’t created by your own mind. This doesn’t mean everything that happens will be the way that it’s wanted, it just means that regardless of what happens it’s your mind that makes it an issue and it comes from within yourself. Lots of things happen throughout the day and each time depending on the way one is conditioned, there’s a choice to make it an issue or not. Everyone has the ability to either make something an issue or not, but to not make up issues takes a certain amount of discipline. What discipline does is it slows down the thought process that runs continuously. This slowing down is the beginning of truth being revealed; without it the necessary quietness that allows this will not happen.

If all you do is think then all there will be are thoughts. This will not allow you to watch the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind unfold, and if this nonsense isn’t seen your mind will never slow down and there won’t be any space created between your thoughts. Life will be thought based (unconsciousness) and the result of this will make it seem as though there’s always some kind of issue. When life slows down, one can see how it’s the Conditioned Mind that takes everything that happens and puts it in a category of being an issue or not, this is when one can break free of the hold the mind has over you and you’ll be able to see that you are not the mind because you are not your thoughts. When this is realized the next step in the evolution process which is learning to just be has begun.

Conditioned Mind Activity

Beyond the conditioned mind activity there’s nothing but silence. This is difficult to see because life isn’t about anything that you think it is. In fact it’s everything you think it isn’t, but it’s not seen because of trying to figure it out…

Thoughts go round and round and where they stop nobody knows. This is a perfect example of the conditioned mind activity that’s in place for most people. One thought after another, no space, no quietness, just the noise of the world manifesting as thought. If you could just sit back in a silence where the noise arises, there’s a chance to truly see what Jesus and Buddha spoke of. You can travel all around the world and make up any story that you want, but it’s only a story conjured up to provide pleasure and store it as a pleasurable memory. Beyond this no story is needed, no pleasure is needed, in fact nothing is needed because this is where true life exist.

Think about it, your entire life is a story until one day you no longer exist and your story ends. Every story is taken with you as if they never occurred. You thought they were needed so you could make sense of your life, but really every story means absolutely nothing because they are all created by the conditioned mind activity of the senses. Buddha talked about this delusion, Jesus spoke of not being of this world. What do you think they were talking about? If you remain entrapped to the conditioned mind activity, you will remain in your suffering. Even those who think they understand this don’t because it’s not something to understand. Beyond the conditioned mind activity where there’s silence, there’s the possibility of truly seeing what life is about. Why there’s difficulty in seeing this is because life isn’t about anything that you think it is. In fact it’s about everything you think it isn’t, but this isn’t seen because of trying to figure it out with a mind that’s conditioned…

Adult Pacifiers

Not wanting the arisen moment different goes a long way in providing a person with a foundation that results in the maturity of not needing to reach for a disguised pacifier in whatever form it takes on.

Seeking self satisfaction is a sign of immaturity; it’s the I want it now mind. Seeking self satisfaction is directly linked to one’s level of maturity and if you don’t think this is so, what’s the difference in what is reached for now as opposed to the pacifier or bottle that was used as an infant? Only the object has changed, the same reaching is in effect. Stop and see the baby in place who doesn’t like what’s being written here. So your feelings may be hurt, or you may say "who does this guy think he is" but I say who cares, if this article allows you to see the truth needed to stop reaching and grow up that’s all that matters. A telltale sign that immaturity is in place is by how you have to reach for things. Try not reaching, see how long that last. The reaching takes on many many forms and unless the mind is very settled, immaturity and reaching which go hand and hand, will probably remain for the rest of your life.

Acting in a mature manner will only occur when seeking self satisfaction ceases. Judging is immature, jealousy also is. Greed, hate, and wanting life different (delusion) is immature. Relying on anything outside yourself is immature; it’s no different than reaching for a pacifier to provide comfort. Matter of fact anything that’s reached for that’s not essential to live life is a sign of immaturity because it all falls under the same category as a pacifier. You will mature when nothing in life needs to be different and this is even if some of the things you do aren’t totally mature; accept yourself warts and all. Not wanting the arisen moment different goes a long way in providing a foundation that results in the maturity of not needing to reach for a disguised pacifier in whatever form it takes on. Investigate this for yourself, or not, but understand the pacifier used as an infant has only changed its form…

Beyond the Familiar

Although the familiar may be firmly in place and it may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, but if beyond the familiar isn’t investigated, you will be stuck in the familiar of what you don’t know.

When a caterpillar turns into a butterfly it’s because it is growing. If the caterpillar doesn’t break out of the familiar surroundings of its cocoon, growth will not occur. It’s the same with us, just substitute the caterpillar with our ideas about things. Life is a natural process of learning and growing, but the base of one’s growth is dependent on the what the new is that’s replacing the familiar. For years I drove an old car in constant need of repair just to keep it up and running, and isn’t this how many live their life, constantly making adjustments and repairs just to keep it running; not many truly live. It wasn’t until I purchased a new car that it was realized just how broken down the old car was. This goes with the saying “you don’t know what you don’t know.” This is also what happened to me when I finally let go of the familiar mind patterns I had in place. I started to realize just how out of sorts my familiar thinking was, I began to break out of my cocoon.

Although learning is a natural process of life, learning to grow spiritually is not automatic. It does seem to take some effort even if it’s only the willingness to head in that direction. There are many intellects in the world who don’t have a clue as to what it means to live spiritually in the space of growth; they never break out of their cocoon, they stay stuck in the familiar. The mind loves the familiar and will always try to convince you it’s better to stay in that space then to go to the space of the unfamiliar. It may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, but if this isn’t investigated what you don’t know will be the only thing that is known. And because nothing new is being allowed in, you will remain in your cocoon and new growth will not occur.

A Trusting Heart

There’s the limited you with all the made up concepts and beliefs or there’s the bigger picture, the one where there’s guidance and freedom because there’s trust in the Universe with all your heart.

When the mind is settled one’s guidance comes from the Universe instead of the reliance on one’s own limited concepts and beliefs. There’s a deep trust that arises from the stillness when the mind is settled. It’s in stillness that all life arises from so when one’s mind settles in this stillness, the eternal trust of the Universe is there to still the mind agitations which are the cause of all distrust. When the mind is still it allows for one to live from a heart of love instead of the carnal mind. This connects one with the goodness of life, one’s own internal goodness, and the goodness of all beings. This connection is already there, the only reason this isn’t known is because of the mind agitations that block trust from the stillness of our heart from being known.

When there isn’t trust all kinds of nonsense follows. When it’s learned to discipline the untrusting mind and our agitations slowly subside, what we are naturally left with is a deep trust provided by the Universe. This trust is what’s there beyond the noise of a Conditioned Mind, beyond one’s made up concepts and beliefs. When the mind settles and one is in the space of stillness, there’s trust because in the stillness it’s understood who you truly are. Trust in the Universe with all your heart and allow the mind to settle so you’re not relying on its made up concepts and beliefs to live life. Within this trust life can be lived as intended, as the trusting beautiful being of love that you truly are.

Distracted By Your Distractions

There’s so much delusion in our society because most people have distractions that distract them from their distractions and this keeps the distracted energy of the squirrel cage mind in place.

There’s seeing and there’s the one who sees. With the one who sees there’s attachment to self, in the seeing alone is where there’s liberation. Even if one says there’s no one who sees, it comes from the self. I don’t profess to understand what life is all about, mostly because it doesn’t matter, but I do have a reasonable understanding of why and what happens to me. It’s mostly because the distractions that distract one from their distractions aren’t prevalent in my life, this allows openness. My manifestation is no different than anyone else’s, the mind distractions in place are, this is the difference in being the one who sees, or just seeing. The one who sees always has the attachment of seer associated with it and this is the reason why one suffers. There’s no attachment just seeing and because nothing is needed to see there’s no association to the one who sees (self) so there’s no suffering; there can’t be because there’s no one there to suffer.

I know it may seem like this is a play on words, but it isn’t. If there’s awareness of the differences between who sees and just seeing, an understanding that can’t really be explained will arise. It happens on its own, it can’t be forced or attained from a book, although if one is ready “Bam” it happens. I mentioned not being distracted, to me that’s how one becomes ready to just seeing. I don’t make anything happen to me directly, but without the daily distractions of the world, it opens one to free flowing energy. This is where insight and wisdom come from. Intelligence isn’t wisdom, anyone can read a book and memorize what someone else’s ideas are. Wisdom arises from ones own stillness and when one has distractions in place, it leaves little room for anything but the energy of the distractions. There’s so much delusion in our society because most people have distractions that distract them from their distractions and this keeps the distracted energy of the squirrel cage mind in place.

Pleasure Reaching

The thought of reaching for God is no different than the thought of reaching for Heroin, and although these produce different outer results, the attachment to pleasure results in the same bondage…

The attachment to a thought about what’s occurring determines the energy you will live by and this is because attachment is tied into your emotions; which is what gives your emotions life. It’s never truly about what’s occurring, it’s always the attachment to what’s occurring that determines what one will do next. Using the example of food shows how prevalent this is. Food is needed to live, but how about dessert, see how the attachment to dessert makes the emotion of joy and delight arise. Nothing inherently has any substance to it so if we didn’t have attachment to pleasure, our eating habits would be very different. This would be because the thought of pleasure wouldn’t arise and the attachment to dessert being needed wouldn’t occur. Without attached pleasure we would eat when we were hungry, not to say that we don’t now, but I know in my case, food and especially dessert is mostly used for the sake of satisfying a pleasure. I don’t eat food that I don’t like and I definitely only eat dessert to satisfy an attached pleasure. The attachments we have determines how strong their grip is.

Look at some of the most glaring labeled addictions in our society and see why many don’t break free from their hold. The pleasure attachments to something destructive being reached for as a coping mechanism are obvious, but what’s not understood is the less glaring one’s have the same bondage as the one’s that wreck havoc and even kill. One uses programs to break free from the attachment to something, only to substitute it for another attachment in the form of a program; although the outer results are different the same bondage to attachment remains in place. Until this is understood, the attachment to whatever the Conditioned Mind deems pleasurable will keep you in bondage to whatever it is that’s being reached for…

Imaginary Answers

Because of the way a person becomes conditioned, life is seen as if there are answers that fit into certain spots, and because of this we are constantly adding imaginary answers where we think they will make life better…

The issue with having to constantly arrange life as if there were certain answers that make it better is it’s all imaginary, and even if there’s some semblance of contentment with these answers, almost immediately the mind looks for another answer. Life is continuous, it’s broken up into segments (imaginary answers) by a mind that’s in a constant state of agitation. If this wasn’t true, one would see life as complete and wouldn’t constantly need to arrange it to their liking. It isn’t because of anything right or wrong that makes one see things in this way, it’s because the mind has been trained to do instead of be so it can only do what it’s trained to do; it needs answers and imaginary ones will fit just fine.

The Conditioned Mind sees imaginary answers in just about everything. Sweets, drugs, alcohol, gambling, success, porn, the shortest line in the supermarket, God, religion, programs, diets, degrees, to do list, and so on, all this imagining is strictly done to put another made up answer in place; this makes one think life will be perfect with this answer. Let’s say everyday you get a new answer, that would mean I made up roughly 22,000 imaginary answers, 365 x 60, all for the sole purpose to constantly have life the way I think it should be (imaginary). After all nobody purposely gets in the longest line at the supermarket, even if you did nothing would really change except for maybe not having to constantly arrange life to make it complete with imaginary answers.

Thought Addiction

Notice how many of your thoughts are repeated and you just may be able to settle in a place where your thoughts aren’t in control. You may also realize the repeated thoughts don’t really provide much of a benefit.

As long as you’re alive you will have thoughts, actually thoughts occur even if you aren’t alive they’re just not yours. So your thoughts aren’t really about what happens as much as how much one attaches to the thought of what happens. This is where one’s conditioning steps in and determines the relation to what thoughts come next. Thoughts can be based in love, or they can based in hate, but for most they teeter between the two. Very few go to the extreme of either one of these thoughts, so the results for most are just constantly switching between the two. When thoughts do hit an extreme level, the results are contingent on how much one is conditioned to constantly have the same thoughts; these thoughts manifest as the emotions that take you for a ride. If you have love as the main influence in your life, obviously you will have thoughts of love more than a person who had hate as their influence. This all arises from the individual so if you truly notice the base of your thoughts, you may be able to alter your attachments. Besides relying on divine intervention which will probably not occur, it will take practice to allow the mind to settle so the base of one’s thoughts are noticed.

The true addictions in our society is to our thoughts and when “I” is the main subject, it makes existence very irrational. Now multiply that by billions of people and hence you have the world we live in; billions of people having constant thoughts about “I” strictly for their own satisfaction. There’s no one to blame for this, it just arises from the thoughts within each of us. It’s our constant thought stream that causes extreme emotional twist and everything else in between. Sit with the intention of developing the ability to notice how much your thoughts are stuck on “I” and you just may be able to settle in a place where the mind quiets and allows you to realize life really isn’t about you, “I” just thinks it is.

Monkey Mind Distractions

The present moment is naturally free flowing when there’s no resistance trying to make it different than what it is. Circular energy of the monkey mind stops the flow because it’s based in trying to manipulate what is.

Being mindful of what’s actually happening at the precise moment it arises minimizes the circular energy of the monkey mind that is used as distraction to make life the way you think it should be. Mindfulness stops this circular energy by allowing the freedom of the way it is, this then becomes the beautiful accepted view of the way it should be. After all wanting the present moment different is where all the monkey mind distractions arise from. When one is simply mindful of what arises as it arises, there isn’t a need for a story so one’s selfish nature doesn’t come into play. As this occurs the love of one’s heart naturally becomes the default operating energy of their life.

Our selfishness become a created prison because it doesn’t allow for the natural flow of life’s energy; we become embedded in the circular energy of the monkey mind. It’s the Conditioned Mind that cuts off the energy flow as it becomes the energy of a lower vibration. Why this circular energy causes issue is because it bombards the present moment with an unnatural energy flow which doesn’t allow continuity. The present moment is naturally free flowing because there’s no resistance of needing anything different than what’s there. Circular energy stops the flow because it’s based in trying to manipulate what’s there’s so what’s there is resisted to the point where the natural flow of present moment energy is cut off. The only thing needed for liberation is the awareness of being aware, there’s no monkey mind circular energy here, there’s just the present moment energy of what actually arises.

No True Void

There is never a void that isn’t created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of yourself. Until this is seen one continues to create their own void and thus their own suffering…

Every time someone goes to a program designed for a specific issue because they believe they are this or that, it creates a void. Same when a person goes to see a therapist, or they reach for another self help book, or if any other type of outside help is sought, this is because of the applied label of having a certain problem. When this is done all one is doing is reinforcing the attachment to that label and hence they’re keeping themselves attached to a labeled void that exist only because they themselves have applied it. Read this very carefully because why this label is being applied will be the difference in breaking free from your suffering or remaining entrapped to it. Some of the things mentioned do have value if they're used at certain times in one’s life, but if they’re being held onto as an end to a means, they lose their value as the needing morphs into attachment and hence suffering.

Not many will see exactly what I’m talking about here, but I’m writing it because it’s what I experienced after many years of trying to fill a self created void with things from the outside. I have found the very things that I was using to fill this void is what kept me in bondage; regardless of what was being used. Why I created this void is what I needed to find out because it didn’t truly exist and since it didn’t truly exist, why was it there? To me if something from the outside is needed to live life, something isn’t right. If I can’t just be with myself without the reliance on something outside of me, I have to ask myself why this is so. There is never a void that isn’t created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of oneself and until this is seen, one will continue to create their own void and thus their own suffering…

Deep-Seated Habit Patterns

As long as the deep-seated habit patterns are in control, they will be the energy of your life. This energy arises from deeply rooted conditioning and doesn’t allow you to see what’s truly going on.

Often how things appear to you aren’t how they actually are. If you want to see what’s truly going on, getting beyond the deep-seated habit patterns will have to happen. If two people are looking at the same thing there are usually two different opinions of what is seen, but there’s also what’s beyond the deep-seated formed opinions and that is truth. There’s two sides to every disagreement and than there’s the truth. To stop being led around by your habits, you will need to stop labeling what arises. Stopping the labeling process allows the deep-seated habit patterns to slow to a point where space opens up. It’s imperative for this space to open if the habit patterns that have been formed over the years are to lessen.

Our habits are so misunderstood and this will be known because of the way you react to what arises. I look at my own reactions to see this and in the process I can see it in others; this isn’t a judgement, it’s factual. Understand your own deep-seated habit patterns and you will understand those of others; this is because we are all of the same energy. Creation is simply creation and if you’re fortunate enough to see this, your energy begins to transform in a direction that allows liberation. If this isn’t seen, the deep-seated habit patterns remain as the controlling energy of your life. This energy arises from within and takes on many forms, but the bottom line is the deep-seated habit patterns in place simply don’t allow you to see what’s truly going on.

Empty Space

Thousands of hours of time and money are spent on trying to fill a space that doesn’t need filling. The nature of the space is emptiness and it will always be there. It’s not your enemy; in realizing its emptiness one is filled.


Thousands of dollars are spent to go on vacation and at the time it seems to be a great idea, and in a way it is because when you’re there everything seems perfect, but the first thing to understand is wherever you go there you are which could be scary. The second thing is because of the Conditioned Mind, not only is the fantasy better than the reality, but before you know you are back home. This is not to say don’t go on vacation, but the stark reality is you can always be on vacation if your mind finds your place of peace. I’m talking from experience here because for forty nine years my life was exactly how I wanted it and yet I had to always reach for something to fill a space I didn’t understand. This space equates to always needing to be on vacation (reaching for something), but I didn’t understand the part of wherever I went there I was.


My own mind seemed to be an enemy not an ally and I had no idea this was occurring. Basically to my Conditioned Mind, I always needed to be planning a vacation because life was never good enough in the moment I was in; regardless of how it was there was always a void. Here’s the real irony in this, I was trying to fill a space of emptiness that is still there today, but what I have come to understand is it doesn’t need filling; in its emptiness is my fulfillment. The issue with most people is they’re trying to fill this space that doesn’t need filling because the nature of it is emptiness. That’s what a space is, empty so regardless of what’s used to fill it, it never gets filled, it can’t because it doesn’t need filling. Today I understand this space is not my enemy nor does it need filling and although there are times when I do go on vacation, it’s not because I’m trying to escape. Everyday I’m alive is perfect as it is and it’s the space of emptiness that provides this.

A Father's Energy

The Father that Jesus turned to provided support so he wouldn’t succumb to the world; this energy is available today in the same capacity. Not as a belief, but as real support to simply anchor you in the present moment so life doesn’t become a created burden.
As I look back at my life when my father was alive, he was considered the rock of our family. It was heart breaking that he died at such a young age; he was 62; to put it in perspective I’m going to be 60 in August. Our family has grown so much since then and life has gone on without him, but although he is not here physically, the energy of love that he gave our family is just as present today as it was back then. True love never dissipates, it sustains itself and deepens, the nature of its energy doesn’t allow it to wane.

Today one of my roles on this stage called life is that of a father, and as my children are now 24 and 22, I gather I am looked upon as a rock, or maybe a pebble lol, but I am there to support them in my role regardless. I look at my role the way the stories describe that Jesus looked to his father, not in the physical sense, but in the sense of energy; simply for support. As the father was there for Jesus, the father is also there for me in the same capacity, as I am there for my children. Turning to the father simply puts one in the only place that exist, the present moment; this is why turning to the father works, it anchors you in the present, which is the only place where one can truly love.

Understanding Yourself

Intelligence doesn’t make you wise. Wisdom is something that occurs naturally as one learns to understand their own mind. With this understanding, wisdom arises and goes beyond the intelligence of thought.


One day it was revealed to me that my own mind was at the core of all my issues and this was never going to be different if there wasn’t an understanding of this. I had to understand why I had to always be doing something before I could be still and before stillness was experienced in my life I had to understand why there wasn’t any. Stillness isn’t something that can be attained nor can one acquire it, all that’s needed is to be aware of why you’re not still. Once this occurs than a starting point can be established and the minds natural expansion begins, but for that to occur this needs to be understood.


Until you truly understand yourself, not much will ever be different in your life. This won’t be because you don’t want it to be, it will be because in order for things to be different, it has to be understood why they are as they are. Waking up is not something that one makes happen, it’s something that occurs, and how you will know that it has occurred is by the awareness you have that your mind was based to self serve and now it’s based in stillness. Very simple to see this once it occurs, very difficult to see it if it doesn’t. The key to one’s continued expansion is to know the true nature of your own mind.

Experiencing I Am

So much of our life is spent trying to be what we already are, and the only reason this is done is because the need to be something else is so strong that it blocks one from experiencing I Am.

I talk to many people, but I don’t have anyone else’s answers, I do know how to write an article that poses questions so one can look within to find their own answers. That’s all one can do is point others to look within. My entire life was spent adding to be something other than what I was. I’m not really sure what that was, but I spent an awful lot of time adding things. I was always altering my current state, doing things that solidified this need to alter. It took me many years to find out I Am already what I always wanted to be. It was a shift that allowed me to stop trying to be something else. No more chasing or searching and all because I Am was realized; this is the place of true freedom, at least for me. So much time was unconsciously spent chasing what I already am, but it wasn’t seen because the need to be something else was blocking it from being noticed.

The perfect example of this is a dog chasing its tail. The dog chasing its tail doesn’t realize its own tail is being chased. I wonder what would happen if he caught it, lol? I’m sure it would hurt, but would it hurt as much as constantly chasing something you are never going to catch? Always on the move, but not really getting anywhere. If the dog did catch it’s own tail, it would probably hurt, but at least it would realize what it was doing and it would probably stop doing it. In a way this is what happens when one awakens, you stop trying to be something else so chasing your own tail stops. With most people there’s some pain associated with this stopping, but this is what makes one realize it’s their own tail that’s being chased. When this realization occurs the chasing stops, what then arises is I Am and it’s in the I Am that it’s realized you already are all that you can and will ever be.

Doing is Our Undoing

Do whatever you think you need to do, but understand any doing is actually an undoing because it keeps the mind in a state of agitation, and as long as one needs to do, the created undoing remains in place…

It would be more beneficial if you learned to do less in your life because any doing is actually an undoing; it’s only when the mind settles that this undoing subsided. This is how it is with a mind that needs to do, doing is an agitation and the more that needs to be done, the cloudier the mind becomes; it’s very difficult to see clearly when one is caught in doing. A doing can be identified as any activity that you think is needed to make you complete; you see when the mind is settled there’s simply nothing to do. When the mind becomes agitated it has to do, and it becomes clouded as all kinds of stories are created about what’s needed to make you complete. Reading another book may be done, another 12 step meeting, another person to help, losing another pound, more money, and on an on. So many things are used when the mind becomes agitated and the truth is none of them are truly needed because you are as complete as you will ever be right now. In the clarity of a settled mind is our completeness.

Agitated stories are created and they keep the mind clouded because of the conditioning in place. Clarity will never last as long as one thinks there is something needed to do that will make you complete. Doing keeps the mind from settling so the more one needs to do the less clear things are. Do whatever you think you need to do, but understand there will never be clarity until there’s no need to do anything. Be the light, be the instrument to spread love, be whatever you want, but this doing is actually an undoing because it keeps the mind in a state of agitation. And as long as the mind is agitated and clouded by doing, your created undoing will remain in place and you will always have to do simply because you won’t know how not to.

Mind Captivity

Being dependent on anything but life’s essentials creates a bondage that one becomes captive to…this captivity is of the mind and blocks love’s guided energy…so you may be alive…but you never truly live…

A substance or object can seem like it holds you in captivity, but it’s your own mind that puts you in the place of needing to reach for something. Without the mind telling you something is needed, dependency on anything would be non existent. The subtleness of this captivity is mind boggling. Take an alarm clock as an example, as soon as the alarm rings if the snooze button is hit, instantly you are captive because the mind wants the moment to be in different. This is the way being captive works and if there isn’t awareness of this, it’s off to the races of being controlled by a Conditioned Mind that’s dependent on wanting things the way that it wants them.

This dependency and captivity takes on many forms: drugs, alcohol, and gambling usage, talking about others, eating habits, pouting or sulking, social status, being miserly (cheap), trying to control situations and people, judging, lust, greed, envy, self righteousness, false pride, and the list goes on, but what all these have in common is they’re the external solutions used by the Conditioned Mind to fix an internal problem of lack. Until something is done to allow the mind to settle, this lack will probably be there until the last day of your life in this form. If this happens life will never truly be experienced in the way that it could be. Some dependencies may not seem as devastating as others, but whatever is used it doesn’t allow love to be your guided energy. Life can’t be experienced from the captivity of your own mind and because of this, life will never be truly lived. Only love’s guided energy allows you to truly live and it’s only a binding dependency that holds you in captivity to your own mind and blocks this from occurring.

Universal Heart

In stillness all of life arises, and all of life is from the heart, but it’s not the energy of one heart, it’s the energy of the Universal heart, so find your inner stillness and you’ll find your Universal heart.

What does it mean to live from the heart? My take on this is living from the heart is a real place, and not only is it real it’s also the only place that a person will ever find true inner contentment. To experience this contentment the mind will have to settle to the point where you can see the differences between living from the heart and living from the mind. Both exist, it’s just that most people are conditioned to live from the mind; our thoughts make up our entire world. They form our belief systems and because they are strictly from the mind, thoughts become the base of our existence. I was discussing stillness the other day with someone and his response was, “I have to think, who am I without thinking.” This is humanity’s dilemma, we have been programmed to believe that we have to think and we are our thoughts; these thoughts control most people. This type of living is from the mind and unfortunately the heart gets locked out when existence is strictly from the mind.

When you can see through this mind chatter, you will start to experience what it means to live from your heart, but this isn’t a thought, it is purely a place of stillness. The experience of living from the heart can’t really be explained, it can only be experienced. It’s like trying to define love, any word used doesn’t really do it justice. It gets watered down trying to use words to describe it. Find your place of stillness and you will find your heart. It’s there, but you have to be completely willing to look inward if you are to experience it; a little stillness will not cut it. Only complete stillness will allow for the heart to overcome the mind. Develop discipline and maybe one day your heart will open to a world that goes beyond anything the mind can conjure up. In stillness all of life arises, and all of life is from the heart, but it’s not the energy of one heart, it’s the energy of the Universe. We are just a manifestation of the Universal Heart and it will only be in stillness that we will understand this from our own heart and experience living our life from here.

Uniqueness of the Moment

The uniqueness of each moment is a phenomenon unto itself. It just doesn’t seem this way because one doesn’t truly experience the moment, they just experience the noise between their ears.

Just be aware of what arise from the silence and how it just as quickly returns to the silence. Don’t label it as anything, just watch it arise and dissipate. Don’t attach to it, just watch, whatever arises now it’s there and then it sinks into the incoming moment. The same thing with a sensation, watch it arise, be with it and watch how it returns from whence it came. Imagine you are on the beach, just sitting watching the waves arising from the silence, breaking on the shore and then it’s gone, over and over. Occasionally a seagull will appear or people will pass by. The lifeguards blowing their whistles sitting at their stations, watching what arises and returns to the silence. A helicopter comes into view and disappears. These occurrences are stored in our subconscious and are given labels, breaking wave, seagull, people , helicopter, lifeguard and so on, but they all arise from the silence of the uniqueness known as the moment. Everything arises from here.

These are what becomes our memories; the moment when something arises will never happen again. Because we label everything it seems as though history repeats itself, but it doesn’t really, it only seems that way because of the attachment and label given to something; once a moment passes it’s gone forever. Why our behaviors are repeated over and over is because of attachment, but the uniqueness of the moment is a phenomenon unto itself. It just doesn’t seem this way because one doesn’t truly experience the moment, they just experience the noise of what’s going on between their ears.

Truth Sets You Free

Truth is never made up…it’s not something that can be held onto…it’s only known when it’s realized there’s nothing to know…as a matter of fact it’s in the not knowing that truth sets you free…

When truth arises it’s clear and here’s why: When I began to look into a different way to live my life, at the core of this looking was an urge. I didn’t know much about anything, but I did know something had to change. I did understand one thing, that my own mind was the cause as to why I was suffering so I set out to find out why this was and if it was possible to stop doing this. As this process of self inquiry proceeded, my view was slowly becoming different and as this happened my life became less and less about me. It didn’t become about anyone else, it just wasn’t all about fulfilling my wants and desires anymore; when this happens qualities associated with love naturally arise. This doesn’t mean everything goes the way that it’s wanted, it’s does mean it doesn’t matter how it goes because if it’s not all about me then there’s no story of wanting and needing things a certain way and without a story there’s no suffering.

Truth is difficult because it’s interpreted differently by everyone, but I have found truth in the space of what is; not what is itself, but in the space of what is. What is is given many labels depending on what’s occurring at the time. It can be horrible, beautiful, or neutral, the label doesn’t change what’s actually occurring. Being in the space of what’s occurring now changes it and that’s because without a label there’s only space. In this space there’s no story and without a story truth is revealed. It’s not a made up truth, it’s the truth of just being with what’s here right now and not needing to add a label or story to it. In this space is where one finds truth, but it has nothing to do with you or anyone else and this is when you will clearly see that truth sets you free…

Check In

Check what is said or what’s written before attaching onto the story “I” thinks it needs. Do it with everything heard or read and in this space of checking you will find not only freedom, but also truth…

So much is perceived as being true, it’s just because it has been in place and reinforced for so long, but that alone doesn’t make it true. It matters little who says what, it has to be checked if truth is to be revealed. There was a response by someone yesterday who said true to something written, I asked if it was checked before it was decided that it was true. I’m not even sure what he said true to, but it still needs to be checked if truth is to be revealed. See how the attachment to “I” is at the core of all beliefs which are just created stories that keep you in bondage; it will take much quietness to see this. All I’m saying is check what’s been written or said before holding onto it, even this.

The Conditioned Mind is so subtle so at times someone will write something that is seen differently, to me there is an obligation to at least share what’s been revealed to me. It doesn’t usually go over so well, but I know not to take it personal because of the fact “I” doesn’t like it when it’s told to look at itself. This is because it just may be discovered “I” isn’t needed, but the conditioning in place disguised as “I” will have to defend itself. I responded to something about forgiveness, to me the word forgiveness itself creates bondage. Everyone has a right to see things as they are conditioned, I just know in the present moment there’s just what’s there; nothing more. Anything added is a story and a story whether its given a title of forgiveness, grief, love, hate, or whatever, is an attachment to “I” that keeps one in bondage. This is my view and it has freed me from creating stories, but not many see this because not many check to see beyond “I”.

Life Merges into Itself

Life is continuous until the day that it’s not. It’s broken up into fragments because of the attachment to self. Without this attachment, life simply unfolds as it merges into itself.

The real issue one has with what happens in life is not with what actually happens, issues arise because of how there’s attachment to a self to that breaks life up into fragments. As long as one exist in their current form every moment of every day is simply life merging into itself. It becomes fragmented once it’s labeled by an attached self. This transformation of life from one continuous occurrence to fragments happens because of a self that labels it separately. If the self didn’t label life it would still occur, it just wouldn’t be separated into fragments. It would be one continuous occurrence without a self attaching to it and giving it the transforming energy it needs to become fragmented.

The self doesn’t cause issues, the attachment to it does. Life occurs regardless of the self, but what attachment does is it makes life personal. Life is neutral until it’s attached to, then it becomes dualistic. This will have to be investigated to see it. Until you know your self and how it’s at the root of separating life into fragments, there will never be freedom because there will always be attachment. Life occurs even when an individual’s existence is no more, it’s actually not partial to an individual existence, it’s only the attachment to self that makes it seem like it is. Everything that happens is viewed as separate because of attachment, but without this attachment life simply merges into itself as it becomes continuous and is simply allowed to unfold.

Wanting Energy

When your not looking to derive pleasure from an arisen want, the want loses its distracting grip, and without being controlled by want you’re able to be with what’s actually in front of you.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with wanting in the sense where it’s good or bad, but because of wantings nature, the mind gets pulled into whatever want arises and you lose touch with what’s in front of you. Wanting can be draining because of the energy it needs. It’s one of the reasons why after certain wanting runs its course, there’s some guilt and remorse that follows. Giving into wanting takes a lot of energy, it’s an energy that can’t sustain itself, it needs constant reinforcement because the self that wants is never fulfilled. Love on the other hand is just the opposite, it needs nothing to sustain itself. It’s neither draining nor does it need reinforcement because it arises from stillness, as everything does. Think about it, everything arises from the energy of stillness and eventually that’s where it returns.

Fulfilling a want is very satisfying or it wouldn’t be so enticing, but because of the nature of want being fulfilled doesn’t last and more energy needs to be spent when more wanting arises. These wants usually occur one right after the other, some are glaring and some are subtle, so it’s difficult to really notice all the wants. The glaring ones seem to have more of an affect on life than the subtle ones, but make no mistake, wanting energy is all the same and it’s only there so “I” can be satisfied. I have found by not attaching to results it really helps in not being overcome by wants, as is the case with my writings. I write and that’s the end of it, it’s what’s in front of me so it’s what I do. When I’m not looking to derive pleasure from an arisen want, the want loses its control and without being controlled by it, I’m able to actually simply do what’s in front of me.

Space of Presence

If the noise in the head controls your life, it won’t stop because you have a belief in some power outside of you. Beliefs hinder the mind’s settling because they create a distraction to the space of presence…

If the noise in your head is controlling your life, it doesn’t really matter what’s going on as it’s going to be difficult to be in a place of peace. It’s such a noisy world and what makes it like this is most people are looking for an answer out there when the answer is within. What this head noise actually is and how it’s created is by not being aware you already have your answers; with a mind that’s conditioned to want answers you constantly have to look for them, hence the noise. This is how the agitation of a Conditioned Mind is formed and how it blocks awareness to the space of presence. If you knew you had the answers, the need to look for them would be non existent and so would the noise.

When you understand this, the noise will lessen and the space of presence will be experienced. If this isn’t understood, the noise will never stop; this is why it’s so important to understand this now. Why wait to be at peace later when you can be at peace right now. It’s not like the noise is needed to live life, it’s only there because you’re unconscious of it. Everyone has the ability to consciously do things that allow the removal of the noise in the head. It’s just not going to happen believing in something outside of you, but isn’t it beautiful that your peace is in your own hands and it’s totally up to you how much peace is brought into your life. A belief in some unforeseen power won’t make this happen, it’s up to you to do what’s necessary to stop the noise. As you practice the nose subsides and what’s left is the space of presence. If you’re waiting for anything else it’ll be for a very long time, actually it will probably not happen in this lifetime.

The Bottom Line

If you are to get to the bottom line of who you truly are, you will have to study the Conditioned Mind and becoming willing to sit so the process of peeling away your layers of conditioning begins.

Nothing will ever change as long as you continue to blame others and look outside yourself for answers. If you can’t get beyond all the conditioning that’s in place, getting to the bottom line of existence which requires nothing but being in its space will be just about impossible; this is only because the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow it. Using the well known onion analogy: every onion has a base, but unless the onion is peeled it’s base will never be exposed. It will always be there as its a natural part of every onion, but without actually peeling the onion the base will remain hidden. The natural process of an onion is to cover its base, this is also the way human nature has evolved and because of this very few people ever get to the bottom line of existence.

Underneath all the conditioning is the bottom line of existence, there’s no blame and there’s no looking for answers anywhere but within this space. When one’s conditioning is peeled away one layer at a time, our base gets more exposed and one’s true nature takes hold, but if there isn’t awareness of this, nothing will change because it can’t. It’s like a force field is around the base and without awareness it seems as though it’s impenetrable, but take heed because it’s not impenetrable, it’s just going to take the studying of the Conditioned Mind and the willingness to begin the process of peeling away the layers of conditioning so you can get to the bottom line of who you truly are.

Object Perspective

If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, the object perspective will have less control as your mind agitations also quiet. Without these agitations the need to reach for an object never arises…

If you’re always seeing life strictly from the objects the eyes see, those objects will be judged accordingly and what’s truly going on to form those judgments will not be noticed. Although with object minded attachments life still goes on, it’s very limiting to the degree of being purely superficial; this is said because it’s how I lived for forty nine years and it caused my life to be a constant struggle. The constant struggle was self created and controlled by the object perspective, although this wasn’t understood at the time. An object perspective is one where there is constant reaching and the reaching is caused by arisen mind agitations which aren’t seen. This is why someone will reach for anything without giving it much thought regardless if it’s beneficial or not. It’s in that moment regardless if it’s a benefit or not that the Conditioned Mind will dictate it is beneficial, but this is a big fat lie.

The object perspective will only be noticed when the busy mind stops its incessant busyness. One will have to be able to be present for the busyness to subside; you will not see the essence of the forest if the mind is busy being focused on the trees. This object perspective is strictly mind based. The reason it’s not conducive to one’s well being and it’s unstable is because there are so many objects to see, one right after another. This is why the big fat lie is in the forefront of most lives and stillness takes a back seat. If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, less and less the object perspective will be in control because the mind agitations will subside. It will be at this point that the need to reach for an object will be no more and it will probably be the first time in your life that this has happened.

The Spark of Anger

No emotion arises on its own. Many things provide the spark for an emotion, but it’s always “I” energy that is at the core. No matter what happens an emotion can’t arise independent of ”I”.

No emotion arises on its own. There has to be a spark (attachment to “I”) for the emotion to arise. Many things provide the spark for this emotional attachment to take hold, but it’s always “I” energy that is at the core of any emotion. Take a look at the emotion of anger, it doesn’t exist on its own. No matter what happens, anger will never arise independent of ”I”. You cannot be angry without the attachment of “I” so in this case “I” provides the spark for anger to rear its ugly head. The thing about this is conditions have to be a certain way that allows anger, without the conditions being a certain way, anger would never arise; it couldn’t.

Using the example of a forest fire, it too needs conditions to be a certain way for it to ignite; it needs air, heat, and fuel. A forest fire just can’t happen without one of these elements. It needs a spark first of all plus it needs the other two elements in order for the spark to ignite. The same spark wouldn’t even be an issue if it just rained so a forest fire is contingent on conditions being a certain way in order for there to be a fire. This is no difference with emotions, in this case anger. Something happens and the spark of anger is ignited by “I”. If there wasn’t an attachment to “I” prior to something happening, the spark would fizzle out. It would be as if it was raining in the forest; you never hear of forest fires in the rain forest and that’s because conditions simply don’t allow it. Anger is being used here, but this is the way it is with any emotion. Without certain conditions being met there may be a spark, but if “I” isn’t the energy in play, the emotion simply will never arise.

Emotional Attachment

Emotional attachment is contingent on how much one is conditioned to think about themselves and it’s this constant thinking of “I” that doesn’t really provide much of a benefit.

The true addiction of our society is to our thinking and when you are the main subject of that thinking, it makes one’s existence selfishly irrational. Now multiply that by billions of people and hence you have the insane world that we live in; billions of people constantly thinking about themselves strictly for personal gain and self satisfaction. There’s no one to blame for this even though it arises from within each individual, it’s more so a result of the way humanity has evolved. From the mass murderer, to people pleasers, and those simply stuck on themselves, it’s the thinking mind that causes extreme emotional attachments and everything else in between. Sit often with the discernment of developing the ability to notice how much you think about yourself and you just may be able to settle in a place where your emotional attachments aren’t in control.

When emotional attachment hits an extreme level, the results are detrimental to one’s stability. This attachment is contingent on how much one is conditioned to think about themselves and it’s this constant thinking of “I” that manifest as emotional attachment. If you had love as the main influence in your life growing up, obviously you would love more than a person who had hate as their influence. Everything arises from inside of the individual so if you truly noticed the base of your actions, you may be able to alter those actions, maybe. Besides hoping and relying on divine intervention which will probably not occur, it will take awareness to allow the mind to settle so this attachment is noticed. You may even come to realize that life really isn’t about you, you just think it is.

Focused on Love

When your focus is aligned with love, there’s a deep seeded love for all beings, not because it’s wanted, but because this is simply the way love rolls when one’s focus is aligned with love.

Having clear and precise focus on love is worth more than all the books combined on what it means to be spiritual, and why this is so is because your clarified focus is yours and the content of any book is someone else’s. Someone else’s idea of you will never be you no matter if their way is copied exactly. This is why many remain in the struggle because they’re focused on trying to be someone else’s idea of who they should be. You can use books, methods, programs and whatnot as a tool, but the focus of why you do what you do will need to be reflected upon to see if your focused results are aligned with love. Not your story of love, but the love that arises not from effort, but from the focus of your inner alignment. This is where effort is useless if it’s not focused on being aligned with love; only being focused on love will suffice.

There are as many spiritual books out there as there are people, but everyone who reads a book and practices doesn’t necessarily wake up. Why do you think this is so? It’s because the focus isn’t of the necessary energy that allows the alignment to a loving heart. Love focus needs to be seen if there is to be harmony with all beings. This doesn’t mean a person won’t harm or unpleasant things won’t happen to you, but it’s less likely you will put yourself in those type of situations with being focused on a loving heart. In the space of stillness one learns to focus on love and in the process are aligned with love. When this occurs one will love all beings, not because you want to, but because this is the way love rolls when your focus is aligned with love.