When life is based on lies that manifest as beliefs, it is those beliefs that keep you attached to the lies. And if discipline isn’t developed to expose these lies, they will be the base of your existence…
I’ve learned to use meditation as a way to develop discipline. The question is why was being undisciplined so natural and how come being discipline isn’t? I don’t have an answer, it’s just a question. After sitting periodically, my mind began to settle and I saw real results in how my view of life was becoming different; this wasn’t a doing on my part. I understood why this was occurring and the reason it continues to occur today, discipline has been developed that wasn’t previously there. This is available to anyone who has a willingness to look inward.
My life was based on lies that I believed and those beliefs kept me attached to the lies. These were the tools that were developed to live my life, there came a time when I knew I had to find different tools and my so called quest began. Everything I read pointed inward so I knew where my answers were, I just didn’t know how they were going to manifest. I did know I had to find some way to allow my self-centered mind to settle or my suffering was going to continue.
I began sitting, and as my mind settled I was becoming more aware of the believed lies that arose. This is what was causing me to reach outside myself for satisfaction. Reaching for something was the means used to satisfy these believed lies. There is value in discipline, develop none and you will have none and the undisciplined tools will remain in place along with being controlled by your believed lies. This is what has been occurring in my life the last fifteen years; developed discipline means the believed lies become less and less and as there is less of them there is more discipline to not give in to them. I never had the discipline to not give in to them so I just did what was there. Today what’s there is different so it has manifested as life being different. It‘s by no means a doing on my part, but there is a willingness to develop the discipline to allow this difference to take place because without it the believed lies of an undisciplined mind remain in control…
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