It was a lack of understanding of my conditioning that led me to remain blind to it, and what I was blind to was my own mind that was conditioned to self serve. The issue with this type of conditioning is it causes one’s own destruction because the destructiveness is blindly disguised as pleasure; this pleasure is pursued by many to their death. It was blindly pursued by me in this way and I was at it’s mercy. It said to use drugs, alcohol, gambling, lying, cheating, stealing and so on. This is how the blindness of the Conditioned Mind is developed except for some who are fortunate enough to see this at a young age.
The way I was conditioned wasn’t the fault of anyone in particular, it happened indirectly by the inner and outer influences of my life which molded me to behave in the ways my conditioning developed and blindly led me. Not because this is how I wanted to be, but by not understanding this it was the way I had to be. You cannot behave in any other way except in the way you have been conditioned. Change the conditioning and change your entire existence or not and remain the same. The value of knowing my own mind is in the understanding there was no where else to turn; not to God, support groups, therapy, self help books, positive thinking, or anything else, but inward. What I learned is when the Conditioned Mind is understood, you are no longer blind. Its control slowly dissipates as you develop discipline, the mind actually slows down. Once this slowing occurs, the possibilities are endless because there is no longer distractions that keep you blind to the conditioning. With this solid understanding of what you’re truly up against, you are able to develop the discipline so your conditioned blinders fall away…
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