No True Lack

There’s never lack that isn’t created so there’s never a true need to reach outside yourself for anything. Until this is seen you will continue to create your own lack and thus your own suffering…


Every time someone goes to a program designed for a specific issue because they believe they are this or that, it creates lack. Same when a person goes to see a therapist or they reach for another self help book. If any other type of outside help is sought, this is because of the applied label of having a certain problem. When this is done all one is doing is reinforcing the attachment to that label and hence they’re keeping themselves attached to a labeled lack that exist only because they themselves have applied it. Read this very carefully because why this label is being applied will be the difference in breaking free from your suffering or remaining entrapped to it. A program or therapy does have value if they’re used at certain times in the one’s life, but if they’re being held onto because of lack, they lose their value as the lack morphs into attachment and hence suffering.


Not many will see exactly what I’m talking about here, but I’m writing it because it’s what I experienced after many years of trying to fill a self created lack with things from the outside. I have found the very things that I was using to fill this lack is what kept me in bondage; regardless of what was being used. Why I created this lack is what I needed to find out because it didn’t truly exist and since it didn’t truly exist, why was it there? To me if something from the outside is needed to live life, something isn’t right. If I can’t just be with myself without relying on something outside of me, I have to ask myself why this is so. There is never a lack that isn’t created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from outside yourself. Until this is seen, you will continue to create your own lack and thus your own suffering…

Trapped By Thinking

When there’s a need to reach for something because of a mind agitation you are trapped by your thinking. Until this is seen, you will remain trapped by thinking satisfaction is in the next thing reached for…

You will never find the satisfaction you are seeking if you’re trapped by the thinking of finding satisfaction. Being satisfied is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way our minds are conditioned, we get trapped in our thinking that satisfaction is something on the outside; this being trapped makes the satisfaction you are seeking impossible to grasp. Being trapped is the reason you are constantly reaching for satisfaction and until this is seen you will remain trapped to thinking satisfaction is in the next thing reached for. Alcohol, gambling, sex, drugs, social status, programs, religion, god, therapy, self help books, and on and on, this reaching is proof you’re trapped. I can’t stress this enough as this trapped by your thinking has to be seen if you are to experience true satisfaction in your life.

It’s impossible to think your way to being satisfied. What does have to happen if you are to experience satisfaction is there has to be an understanding of why you’re not satisfied; that you’re not satisfied is only because of the inability to simply be. When the need to reach for something arises being trapped by your thinking begins; this is a vicious habit that’s difficult to break. Satisfaction isn’t something attained or achieved so it’s in doing less that it arises. To many people get trapped in trying to find satisfaction, but since satisfaction is something already within you, thinking you’re going to find it needs to be let go of; this is not easy. I don’t write to help anyone find satisfaction, I write so being trapped by your thinking can be seen for what it is; the cause of why your aren’t satisfied…

Seduction of the Flesh

The important thing to understand about the seduction of the flesh is the less you are attached to “I” the less you will be seduced because without “I” there’s no one to seduce…


The seduction of the flesh is so enticing because it actually feels good and this is why the draw is so powerful. There’s only issue with this because of the impermanent nature of the flesh. It simply will not last, it has no staying power so something else will be needed almost immediately following the attainment of whatever is used. Think about it, with all the material possessions that have been attained throughout your life regardless of what it was, it does not bring the contentment now that it brought at that time, and most times even if the same exact seduction is physically repeated, it’s usually not as enjoyable as the first experience. I used so many things as I was seduced by the flesh seeking conditioning, but it was never lasting, the seduction of the next needed thing always arose.
This went on all the time, satisfying the flesh with one thing after another and never being satisfied.


I’ve come to understand this seduction of the flesh as the main reason people begin using and become addicted to alcohol, drugs, gambling, sex, money, tobacco products and an array of other things. If satisfying the flesh wasn’t sought, nothing would be reached for so there would never be an addiction or an issue, but unfortunately the seduction of the flesh has its way with people. It’s deeply ingrained in the subconscious and has been in place since our existence began. I know this seduction is what was controlling me for forty nine years and it was directly associated with “I”. Without “I” no one is there to be seduced. Even with this understanding pleasing the flesh doesn’t just disappear, but it does subside somewhat. To me the most important thing to understand about this is, the less one is attached to “I” the less one will be seduced and it’s because without “I” there’s no one who needs to satisfy the flesh…

Spiritual Nonsense

Sit to develop discipline and watch your thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that you will see all the spiritual nonsense holding you in bondage…


With the emergence of the internet there’s so much more information available on spirituality than in the past that it really needs to be investigated before you consider what to use to assist in your development. Here is the definition of Nonsense: Spoken or written words that have no meaning or make no sense. To see if the information you are using to develop the direction or path you are on is beneficial, there can’t be anything associated with it that forms attachment. Methods, programs, religion, God, guru’s, life coaches, teachers, or any other form of nonsense that is used to keep you attached, just keeps you entrapped to the very thing you are trying to break free of. Just as there’s a lot of “fake news” out there today, there’s also a lot of fake information on spirituality. Bondage is not something that’s truly understood by many people so most of the information out there keeps you in bondage in some way. Those telling you to buy their book, pay for retreats run by paid speakers, or follow a program (instant bondage) are clever to a fault, with the fault being you are kept in bondage by following them.


The only thing you need to do is look inward so one millisecond of space is created between your thoughts. Once this occurs and there’s awareness of it, more and more space will slowly expand; it takes nothing but awareness to create this space. The nonsense out there that someone’s program, book, method or whatever, has your answer will keep you in bondage to the very thing you trying to break from. I know people defend their so called guru or people they follow adamantly, but it’s only because there’s no awareness of the bondage they’re in. Sit often and just watch your thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that you will see all the so called spiritual nonsense holding you in bondage…

The Void of Loneliness

When the mind settles the need to reach for something lessens. In the process the void of loneliness disappears and it’s simply because an “I” story of a void isn’t being created…

The void of loneliness appears to get wider as one ages, but it doesn’t really, what happens is there are just less distractions so “I” takes more of a hold. The natural process of life seems to be to stay busy trying to figure things out and regardless of what exactly the figuring out manifest as it certainly creates lots of distractions. There are periods in between the busyness where a person has some idle time and probably feels the void of loneliness, but it doesn’t usually last very long because the busyness of trying to figure out life returns. This busyness last most of one’s life, but there does come a time that the natural process of being busy lessens. At this stage many people experience a loneliness that hasn’t been noticed before and it will either be addressed by looking inward or by getting busy again trying to figure out how to fill the void.

Eventually the busyness will end for whatever reason, but unfortunately for most people without the busyness the void of loneliness rears its ugly head. Many elderly people struggle to fill this seemingly void, but it’s difficult because there just isn’t a lot going on. Kids are grown, retirement, house paid off, more time behind you than what’s left, and the list goes on. I was this way for many years using distraction after distraction. There were very brief periods of not needing to reach, but these periods were far a few in between. That is until twelve years ago when I hit an emotional bottom. I began sitting and looking inward which allowed me to see the distractions of my “I” needing to attach to a story. As I sat my mind settled and thus the “I” needing to reach for something lessened. In the process the void of loneliness disappeared and it was simply because an “I” story of a void wasn’t being created…

Internal Dialogue

The internal dialogue that keeps you from your peace has nothing to do with the external. The dialogue is a creation of your own mind and it’s what the Conditioned Mind uses to make you believe you‘re not at peace…

There are simple things you can do to minimize the intenal dialogue that causes you to sabotage your own existence, but it has to be understood the mind creating the dialogue can’t fix itself. You will have to find out why your own mind is telling you the internal dialogue is needed to cope with life; a life that is controlled by the conditioning that creates this internal dialogue. Your own mind creates every dialogue you have by choosing to attach to thoughts that allow the dialogues to arise; this unconscious conditioning is why there’s this dialogue. The Conditioned Mind develops this as you do things that are destructive to your own well being. I don’t know why this mind set is developed, but I do know it’s insane because your own mind does this.

I know now it was my own mind that created internal dialogues which arose from within myself. Because of the shift that occurred twelve years ago, there is now awareness so this dialogue doesn’t have to be created anymore. I sit only to develop discipline needed for the mind to settle. If there isn’t discipline, the conditioning won’t be understood nor will the internal dialogue that arises so you will be led around blindly. Life is neutral, it does nothing to you, it’s your own mind that does it all. Why you live in an agitated place as opposed to a place of peace will never change until the internal dialogue subsides. All I ever wanted was to be at peace, but there was none because there wasn’t any awareness it was my own mind that created the initer all dialogue which told me I wasn’t at peace…

Life: A Celebration

Universal Love is the base of existence. Life manifest as a Universal celebration in our human form; love is our true nature. To awaken to this is to see life as a celebration of love each and every day…


There’s no reason to wait for a certain time to celebrate life. This may seem like a cliché, but every day is truly a celebration because being alive is a gift manifested from Universal Love and we are the gift; the present of the Universe to the world. If you don’t think this is so it isn’t because of life, it’s because of the conditioning you are viewing life from. What you are probably saying is if the Universe is of love what about all the unpleasant things that occur or the pure evil of some things that are experienced, but all of the things that happen, good, bad, or indifferent are not produced by the Universe, they are a direct result from the behavior of the human will.


Love is our true nature, it’s our gift. Life’s celebration is an every day occurrence and one day the celebration will cease, but the trace energy of our true nature of love will still be. This is the way it is because this is the way the Universe is, and since we are a gift of the Universe our true nature is always of love. When a gift is given to someone in the spirit of love, no matter what happens after the gift is given, it will never take away that it was given in love. No matter how hardened you become by your conditioning, love will always be your true nature. Know this truth and you will make every day the celebration of life as it was intended to be.


May every day be a celebration, not only with your immediate family, but with the entire human family that shares this planet. Every day is a celebration because of the love given by the Universe; without its love the world would not be. So whatever the holiday of choice is, may it be life that you celebrate and may it be happy, joyous, and free…Namaste

Self Created Agitations

The mind agitations that keep you from your peace have nothing to do with life. They‘re a creation of your own mind and that’s what creates the agitations which make you believe you are not at peace…


There are practical ways to minimize the mind agitations that cause you to sabotage your own existence, but it has to be understood the mind creating the agitations cannot quiet itself. You will have to find out why your own mind is telling you the agitations are needed to cope with life; a life that is controlled by the conditioning that creates these mind agitations. Your own mind creates every agitation you have by choosing to attach to thoughts that allow the agitations to arise; this unconscious conditioning is why you get agitated. The Conditioned Mind develops this as you do things that are destructive to your own well being. Why this agitated mind set is developed I’m not sure, but I do know it can be described only as insane because one’s own mind does this.


I know now it was my own mind that created agitations which arose from within myself. Because of the shift that occurred some years ago, there is now awareness so agitations don’t have to be created anymore. I sit for the purpose to develop discipline which allows the mind to settle. If there isn’t discipline, the conditioning won’t be understood nor will the agitations that arise so you will be led around like a puppet on a string. Life does nothing to you, it’s your own mind that does it all. Why you live in an agitated place as opposed to a place of peace will never change until the conditioning that makes it so changes. All I ever wanted was to be at peace, but I wasn’t aware it was my own mind that created the mind agitations which made me believe I wasn’t at peace…

The Lie of Reaching

Reaching for anything becomes your prison, but the thing reached for is only the sentence, the prison is the lie the Conditioned Mind creates that tells you what you reach for is needed to make life better…

The reality of our internal and external world is impermanence and because of this when there is reaching there has to be suffering. Suffering is directly related to what you reach for and how tight the hold. This is a natural phenomenon of life, but since the nature of impermanence can’t be changed, the only way for the suffering not to occur is to learn how not to reach for things. You can still enjoy all that life has to offer, but if true liberation is to be experienced reaching will have to fall away. I say fall away because many reach to not reach and thus stay attached to the their suffering. Letting go isn’t really a doing, it’s why many remain entrapped to the bondage of self. If true liberation is to be experienced, there will have to be awareness of the conditioned ideas, concepts, and beliefs that are in control. Few have this willingness because of the conditioning in place to stop this reaching, hence the need to reach for something constantly rears its ugly head causing suffering.

You reach because the conditioning in place tells lies. This lie is exposed when the reaching stops; that’s how truth is revealed. It’s not a truth that can be explained because the moment you reach for an idea, concept, or belief, a lie is formed; this is why in stillness truth is revealed. All that I know today and it’s not much, has been revealed to me in stillness. To truly stop reaching it has to be seen reaching is a lie. If this isn’t seen the reaching continues along with its associated suffering. This moment needs no idea, concept, or belief to be, if you can see this, reaching naturally lessens because the Now exist free of any lie and without the lie there is simply no need to reach…

One Source Energy

Energy has always been, out of it humanity began and although the energy manifest as different forms, we’re all from the same source so our differences are only on the surface…

The value of quietness is priceless because it allows you to be aware of what’s truly going on in life. Here’s a story to show what can happen. It’s a story about a pumpkin patch where everyday the pumpkins fight with each other. The gardener who takes care of them would keep the peace as best as he could, but to no avail the moment he left the bickering would commence. One day the fighting was really out of control and the gardener suggested meditation to the pumpkins. Although the pumpkins were reluctant, they did it. The fighting finally subsided as the pumpkins settled down and became still.

As this quietness took hold, one of the pumpkins noticed there was something on top of his head. As this was investigated it was noticed that it went to the pumpkin that it was just fighting with. As these two discussed this and investigated this further, it was discovered that all the pumpkins in this patch were connected. It was also understood that this meant they were all from the same source energy. The awareness of this which arose from the quietness of meditating, showed them their bond. No longer did the pumpkins fight, matter of fact they become one of the best producing pumpkin patches of their time. Just substitute the pumpkins with people and it really isn’t that far fetched. Our connection to life isn’t seen because of all the noise going on and unfortunately it will continue until people notice as the pumpkins did that we’re all connected and created from the same source energy…

Inner Discord

All inner discord arises from your inner questions. Without discipline the mind that’s full of questions won’t have any answers provided so you will look outside for answers that are within you…

All inner discord is ego based because it comes from the Conditioned Mind. If you have inner discord with what’s written here, that arises from within you, the words don’t cause it. It doesn’t matter if you agree with it or not, just understand if there’s discord that it comes from within you not from what’s written. How we love to blame things from the outside for our own self created discord, but the only reason this is so is because of the lack of understanding of your own mind.

Nothing causes discord unless it’s allowed. If you can change something go ahead and do it, but if it’s being changed just because you don’t like it, it needs to be looked at why there’s discord to begin with because even if the thing is changed, you will just move on to the next thing that will cause you to become agitated and discorded once again.

Everything that I have come to understand over the last twelve years has arisen from within myself. It has been through the practice of discipline that real answers have arisen directly from my own inner questions. I can’t have anyone else’s answers because the one who questions is the one who has the answers. I do not have your answers because I do not have your questions. Everyone has their own questions to answer. Truth is the same for all beings, but how we come to its understanding is from the questions within ourselves. When you sit in stillness, revealed are answers to your questions, this is when the inner discord with yourself and the world will be no more…

Unchecked Thoughts

Why it’s important to notice your thoughts is because even if what you do comes from a labeled place of love, the bondage this produces is that of an unchecked thought…


If you can’t watch your own thoughts to decipher if they’re truly beneficial, hold on because you’ll be taken on an emotional ride. It’s not that life does anything directly to you, but thoughts arise and this determines the degree of their control. Noticing your unchecked thoughts is essential if you’re not to be controlled by them. Thoughts are a natural part of life, they will arise. As far as I know there’s no way of controlling the thoughts that do arise, but I have found that noticing them allows for a split second of space that can be used to decipher whether or not they’re beneficial; careful though as attachment causes suffering no matter how it’s labeled.


The Conditioned Mind is deviously cunning and unless there’s some awareness of how you are controlled by your thoughts, they will control you as if you were a puppet on a string. So cunning is this control that even if you are doing things that are labeled as loving, if this isn’t watched it will control you; bondage is bondage regardless of what label is applied to your thoughts. This is why the Conditioned Mind is deviously cunning because of the way it uses whatever it can to remain in control. This is also why it’s so important to notice your thoughts because even if what you do comes from a label of something for the betterment of humanity, the bondage this produces is that of an unchecked thought which controls you like all unchecked thoughts…

Connected by Love

The energy that connects and brings humanity together is from love. When you’re in this space others will be attracted to you because it’s the one and only place where there’s unity simply because there’s love…


It’s very important to be connected to love so people know there’s a place they can turn to. I know many people read my articles and it’s expected they will be there, I don’t mind this because of what has been revealed to me; I’m grateful for this. Everyone needs a place where they know they can go to retreat from the unconscious world. It does matter where you go for this, if you go to a place that’s used as a distraction it may feel good, but it won’t be. If you get lost in something menial, the day will go by simply because time waits for no one, but if you’re spending the same day in a state of awareness, you will become connected to love and people will turn to you.


Don’t be concerned with what others say, just be connected to what you know as love and let no one take that away. Being connected to love in a world that is mostly not will allow others to also be connected in love, which is needed for any transformation to occur. The love that draws you to someone is the love that becomes a part of humanity. Life is an open experience and if you’re not learning from it, you most likely have your mind made up already what you think it’s about. When you truly see these made up stories aren’t needed they fall away. This falling away allows love to arise and when you’re in this space others will also be attracted to it as it’s the one place where humanity connects and it’s simply because of love…

Space of What Is

If your beliefs aren’t questioned they‘ll control you even though they don’t truly provide the pleasure they’re being created for. They can’t because the nature of a belief is attachment and attachment is the root of suffering…

At the center of every belief there’s an appointed authority that makes it so. This appointed authority manifest from an inner structure that is created so we can live in a pleasurable way. We believe in everything we have in place because it’s decided (even though it was probably done unconsciously) that beliefs make life better. There’s no other reason to form a belief except for the purpose it will provide pleasure in some way. Look into this very carefully to see how this manifest in your life. God, money, material possessions, love, programs, spirituality, social status, enlightenment, and so on, are all formed to provide a fictitious pleasure based in a belief. If this isn’t questioned the belief will continue its control even though it doesn’t truly provide the pleasure that it’s being created for. It can’t because the nature of any belief is attachment and attachment to anything is suffering.

Many call beliefs faith, but to me they’re basically just a made up story. I haven’t found one iota of usefulness in having faith or believing in something that would truly benefit my life. I live in the space of what is and since there isn’t anything that needs to be different than the way it is right now there’s no benefit in attaching to a belief. True liberation is in the space of not needing anything other than what it is. It doesn’t take any effort or story to be liberated. The reason why so many don’t become liberated is they try to create it by forming a belief about it; if I do this or that, liberation will follow. People worry more about getting to heaven than the here and now and because of this life passes you by while you are here on earth. It doesn’t take a belief to see this, but it will take a mind that’s settled not to make it into one…

An Honest Gauge

The way the mind becomes conditioned, its default state is mostly delusional. An honest gauge of the mind is being with the peace of right now with the world exactly as it is and not needing anything different…

Do whatever it is you think you need to do to get the results you think are needed, but be honest and see what’s guiding you. If you’re to get an honest gauge as to what’s really going on in your life, there will have to be awareness of the delusions that are in control. There are reasons why a person constantly struggles with being at peace and as subtle as this can be, it’s not something most people are honest about. Because of the way the mind becomes conditioned, its normal state is mostly delusional. From the time a person starts their day the delusions begin. Something happens that you want different and although it’s not thought about that you’re not at peace, the bottom line is you’re not.

Constantly needing life different is caused by the mind being delusional which keeps you from honest awareness. Better the world if that’s the direction you think you need to go in, just understand maybe the world doesn’t need to be better. If you’re not truly at peace in the moment without needing it to be different, that’s what honestly needs to be looked at. Nothing else matters regardless of what you’re doing because it’s only a made up story that keeps the mind in a delusional state. Many people are so busy that they don’t honestly see their own mind. Until the beauty of the moment is seen and you can just be with that, peace will not be because you will be too busy stuck in your delusions. To me an honest gauge of a settled mind is if there is peace right now with the world exactly as it is without having a delusion thought that needs it to be different…

Unconsciously Controlled

Thoughts are natural, but they don’t have to control you. If there isn’t awareness of your thoughts they will unconsciously be attached to and will lead you to unconsciously be controlled by them…


If there isn’t awareness of your own thoughts, there won’t be anyway of knowing how much control they have over you. Without this awareness you’ll be taken on an unconscious ride. Not that life does anything directly to anyone, but thoughts arise and they determine what your ride will be like. Awareness of your thoughts is essential if they’re not to control you. Thoughts are a natural part of life, they will arise. To me there’s no way of controlling them initially, but I have found that awareness of them allows for some space that can be used to determine whether or not to allow the thought to control you; it’s the unconscious attachment to a thought that causes suffering, not the thought itself.


The Conditioned Mind is diabolical and unless there’s some awareness of how controlling thoughts actually are, they will control you unconsciously as if you were a dog on a leash. So subtle is this that even if you are doing things that are labeled as loving, if these thoughts aren’t consciously watched they will eventually control you; remember control is control regardless of what name is applied to the thought. This is why the Conditioned Mind is diabolical because of its subtleness in using whatever it can to remain in control. Thoughts will arise, but they don’t have to control you. If there isn’t awareness of them, your thoughts will unconsciously be attached to which will allow them to be unconsciously in control…

Holding On Limits

Whatever it is that you hold on to it becomes your limiting energy, and if you don’t stop holding on so there’s some space created to allow love, the holding on energy will cause much suffering to all humanity…


Holding on to things is the cause of suffering, but there really isn’t much choice here because of the way the Conditioned Mind is in control. Your suffering is inevitable because of the holding on conditioning that’s in place. If this is to change you will have to create space so the holding on is replaced by first quiet and then love; there’s no way around this. Hold on to whatever your flavor of the day, week, month, or year is, just understand there will always be something else to hold on to which will cause you to suffer. Today it’s politics, tomorrow the spouse, job, traffic, weather, relatives, and so on; this will never change until there is space for love.


Unconditional love can only be without holding on to one iota of disdain. This is a truth the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow most to see. To hold on to things is to suffer regardless of who or what you are holding on to because it becomes your limited energy. Until this is understood you become the very thing that you show disdain towards. This is a Universal Truth; you cannot be separate from the energy that comes from you because it is you. Stop holding on and create space in your heart for love, if you don’t you are the one who will suffer the most by remaining with the limited energy of what you are holding on to…

Lies Disguised As Thoughts

When life is based on lies that manifest as thoughts, it’s those thoughts that keep you attached to the lies, and if discipline isn’t developed to expose these thoughts, lies will be the base of your existence…


My life was based on lies that I thought were true and those thoughts is what kept me attached to the lies. These were the developed tools to live my life, there came a time when I knew I had to find different tools. Everything was pointing me to the mind so I knew that’s where my answers were, I just didn’t know how they were going to manifest. I did know I had to find some way to allow my I Self mind to settle or my suffering was going to continue.


My mind began to settle when I started sitting as I was becoming more aware of the thoughts that arose which were causing me to reach outside myself for satisfaction. Reaching for something was just a tool I used. The value of discipline is if you don’t develop it you will have none and the old tools will remain in place along with being controlled by your thoughts. Developing discipline means the your thoughts become less and less controlling and as there is less control there is more discipline to not give in to them. I never had the discipline to not give in to them so I just did what was there, but today what’s there is different so it has manifested as life being different. It‘s by no means a doing on my part, but there is a willingness to develop the discipline to allow this to take place simply because without it the undisciplined thoughts will remain in control…

Healing Light

Your inner light brightness shines to the degree of surrender that allows loving energy to be your guide. The brighter the light the more people will see it and be touched…

I know for many years I wandered aimlessly through life controlled by a Conditioned Mind that led me around like a puppet on a string. My entire existence was based to self-serve and until this changed nothing was going to change; society is out of control because of this self-serving heart.
Until a person understands how conditioned and controlled they are by their own mind that makes this happen, nothing will change because it can’t and this is regardless of what is done to try and help a person. I‘m not sure if anything can be done to instill this change in a person, but we must try. Although it has to come from within the individual, we must plant seeds or there won’t even be the chance for someone to change.

I can love the person by understanding the conditioning is not them. This may not change them, but at least I will not be pulled into their conditioned world. I could write another book on this pull alone. Watch very closely how subtle the Conditioned Mind is. I know for me it is not my responsibility to change anyone, but I do have an obligation because of the insight that has been bestowed upon me; I know I can only change myself. When I change, that is how others change. Not because of me, but because of the degree of surrender that allows loving energy to be my guide. All I can do is be willing to keep looking within to expand this surrender.

My heart goes out to anyone controlled by a Conditioned Mind and my aspiration is they find their place of peace within their heart to allow the letting go of this. It’s real when something happens, but it isn’t real how it is held on to. The more things are held on to, the more control the Conditioned Mind has. Let go of the conditioning and let the love that is in your heart heal you and others, but it’s not an individual that does this, it’s love that does this. When the Conditioned Mind settles, the love in your heart will be your guiding light and thus you will be healed, and when you are healed you can be the guiding light to help heal others…

Your Own Light

We are all born of light, it’s the conditioned mind that keeps you in darkness and although many left teachings on how to love so we would see our own light, many deny these teachings and remain in the dark…


Each day is a time for renewal, a time for light and each moment is a part of this. Whether one believes in Jesus, Buddha, and many others, their stories were simply told to point you to your own light. There is denial of this light by those that are conditioned to remain blind to it. Our human evolution has produced much conditioning which keeps many marred in material darkness. There is nothing wrong with material possessions, but when they’re held onto as idols, their nature becomes that of darkness.


Many left us teachings on how to love and those who see this, see light. Very simply put, one who is conscious sees the light of love and one who is unconscious remains in the darkness of a self serving Conditioned Mind. Investigate this for yourself. Many had a fate to leave us their teachings to show us the light, it’s what they saw so it’s what they taught.


We live in a world designed for darkness, not evil, but darkness, there is a difference. Just because a person is unconscious doesn’t make them evil. If you look around, the selfishness of our world is rampant. People go out of their way to deny teachings of love and thus they deny themselves their own inner light of love, but it’s only because they’re unaware that’s it’s their own darkness that blocks them from seeing the light; if there is an evil in this world this is it. Deny this if you want and remain in the conditioned darkness, but understand you not only bring suffering to yourself, but you bring suffering to all humanity because darkness keeps one from spreading their light to others and although each day affords one the possibility of renewal, it will only be when unconditional love is truly understood that you will see your own light…

Changing Your Future

Once you identify and have awareness of the defense mechanisms that have been put in place to cope with life, you can take action to remove them which will change your future…


Everything in life is learned and this is what makes up your life. Regardless if it’s beneficial for you or not, it will still be done because it‘s what you have learned; what is learned is used to change the way that you feel. You spend a lot of time focused on learning to use the most beneficial tools you think you need. This is why alcohol is so widely used because it works so well to change the way a person feels. Drugs work well also, as does gambling, sex, work, food, music, TV etc. These are just some of the distractions used to change the way you feel, but understand when you can just be with the way things are with no needed change, that’s when you will not have the need that makes you reach for a reward. When this happens you will know a peace like no other; you will be in a place that few go. Be there regardless of how you feel and you will understand that feelings aren’t based in facts, they just are; the reward for knowing this is peace is priceless.


Who are you without your created story; a story that’s not needed to live. You would exist without it; the real kicker is the essence of a spiritual awakening is to undo the story you have spent your entire life creating. A story that has been created to make you who you think you need to be, but because you are now starting to become aware that this created story has caused most of your problems, you have to unlearn what you yourself have put in place. This is why people reach outside themselves for answers, to use the defense mechanisms that have put in place to cope with life. Once you are aware of this, you can take action to remove your coping mechanisms; this is how you change your future…

Opinionated Story

When there’s awareness that your opinions are a made up story, contentment takes their place. This contentment is always there, but not experienced because your opinions block it…

Without opinions everyone would view life through the eyes of contentment which by the way are the eyes of peace, but because of opinions this view isn’t seen. The view of opinions are made up by the energy of unconsciousness, this makes everything that happens in life about your opinion, but it isn’t truly ever about what is seen, it‘s not about anything in particular except the opinion that’s formed of what it’s about.

Opinions are what makes the mind attach to thoughts and those attachments are the cause of the associated thoughts that control your life. What is really happening is this, life just happens it’s not personal, it’s not about anything you think it is. It’s not about right, wrong, love, hate, good or bad, it‘s mostly about learning to understand your minds true nature of quietness and not being lead around by your made up opinions; whatever you make them. When there’s awareness of this you will truly be content; a contentment that has always been there in the space of quietness, but it was never experienced because of your opinions not allowing you to see…

Inner Urge of Love

The Conditioned Mind is the creator of all your so called fears. When there’s existence to fulfill your inner urge of love, there won’t be a need for the Conditioned Mind to create fear…

There’s one thing that you can rely on when it seems as though nothing is working out the way you think it should or when it seems as though the stars are misaligned and you are stuck in a Conditioned Mind Pattern and that’s an inner urging of love. Although it may seem like at times you’re in a state of gloom and doom, but on the contrary it’s the building block to a more useful and peaceful life. That one thing I have found to get me beyond an I energy dilemma is an understanding of the inner urge of love, which is always available.

I can’t tell you how many times love has pulled me out of an I energy dilemma. Regardless of what story is made up to create your world, the inner urge of love is in control of all that is; it’s this connection that makes you complete. The mind makes so much noise that this is difficult to grasp, but when the inner urge of love becomes why you live, you will never ever have a dilemma of any kind because you will see it is love and not you that’s in control. Only I energy can have a dilemma, but if you can stay in the space that dilemmas don’t exist, you will know that regardless of what happens in life, it’s not the way it’s suppose to be because life isn’t suppose to be anything, but it’s the way it is and that’s the one place where all the nonsense of a Conditioned Mind can not exist. You inner urge to love can only be known in the space of what is. In this space you are one with all of life and it’s in this space that there isn’t the need for your I energy to create a dilemma…

Peace Not Perception

When you realize your perceptions are a made up story you discover peace. It’s a peace that has always been there, but it was never experienced because your perceptions were of something else…
Without perception we would all view the world through the eyes of unconditional love which by the way are the eyes of truth, but because of our developed perceptions, we all have different views. These views are mostly made up by the energy of a unconscious self-centeredness. This view makes everything that happens in life about you, but it isn’t ever about an individual, it‘s really about nothing in particular except what you perceive it be.
This perception is what makes the mind attach to emotions and those attachments are the cause of the fluctuating emotions that control your life. What is really happening is this, life is just happening, it isn’t personal, it’s not really about anything in particular. It’s not about love or hate. It‘s mostly about learning to understand your true nature of stillness, and not being lead around by your mind made perceptions; whatever they are made out to be. When this is realized this is when you will discover peace; a peace that has always been there in the stillness, but it was never experienced because of your perceptions of something else…

A View of Difficulties

Our difficulties are self created because of a view that’s developed to self create difficulties. When the view is redeveloped to produce quietness, the difficulties will be no more…
Life itself is not difficult, it’s made that way by your own mind. Life just happens. For some, it will begin today, for some it will end. Some will be happy, some will be sad, but what the constant is that it simply occurs without favoritism. Regardless of what the circumstances are most live from the Conditioned Mind and the more this is done, the more life fluctuates and dictates how you are feeling and how controlled you are by the circumstances. This is a constant until we becomes aware of the Conditioned Mind Patterns and break the spell they have over you. I say spell, because a spell is something that makes you behave in ways that you normally wouldn’t and when I say normally, I mean as if love was the default setting of your mid. Love is our normal state of being, that is when we aren’t controlled by the Conditioned Mind.
The Conditioned Mind is not the fault of anything or anyone in particular, it’s just the developed view of the mind. The beauty of life is in stillness, the struggle of life is in the struggle. What makes a struggle a struggle and is it the outside circumstance? You would think so, but it isn’t. What it really is, is the way the circumstances are viewed. It will be a problem if you make it so. Everything is perception until truth is known, than perception ceases to exist and without perception all you will be left with is truth…

Attachments Hold

To not be pulled in by something is to not attach to it; therein lies your freedom. The question is how can you become non attached in a world that excels in attachment…


The world pays people billions of dollars to pull you in and keep you attached; it’s called advertisement. They study peoples psychic and know exactly what most people will attach to. I understand this and through the teachings of Buddhism, Hinduism, Jesus, and many others, I have come to understand attachment as suffering. And today through the grace of awareness of this there’s a choice not to attach and hence not suffer. This is what has been revealed to me, but maybe this isn’t for you.


Attachment is the base of all suffering, so non attachment is freedom. If this is discounted before it’s investigated that’s on the individual, but understand your attachment is your suffering, no one but yourself causes this. You can hold on as tight as you want, but don’t blame anyone for your troubles because they all come from within yourself and it’s you alone who chooses them. The Conditioned Mind determines what you will attach to and how much suffering it will cause you. Hold on tight and you will suffer mightily or let go and be free, this is the choice that each individual has. No one can do or say anything that really changes this, it all comes from within you, so you choose how much you will suffer or how free you will be; it’s totally up to you how tight you hold on…

Stillness is the Answer

All struggles arise from within your inner questions. Without discipline the mind that’s full of questions will never get answers that satisfy it so you will have to constantly look for them…

All struggles are “I” based because they come from the Conditioned Mind. If you’re in conflict with what’s written here, that arises from within you, the words don’t cause it. It doesn’t matter if you agree with this or not, just understand if there’s conflict that it comes from within you, not from what’s written. We love to blame others for our own self created conflicts, but the only reason there are conflicts is because of the lack of understanding of your own mind.

Nothing causes conflict unless it’s allowed. If you can change something by all means change it, but if it’s being changed just because you don’t like it, you need to look at why there’s a conflict to begin with because even if the thing is changed, you will just move on to the next thing that will cause you to become agitated and in conflict once again.

Everything that I’ve come to understand over the last twelve years has arisen from myself. It has been through discipline that real answers have arisen directly from stillness. I can’t have anyone else’s answers because the one who questions is the one who has the answers. I do not have your answers because I do not have your questions. Everyone has their own questions to answer. Truth is the same for all beings, but how you come to its understanding is from the questions within yourself. When you sit, you see stillness is the answer to your questions, this is when conflict with yourself and with the world will be no more…

Judge Others...Condemn Yourself

The judgement of others is the judgement of ourself. No one among us is warranted to judge another because we all fall short of perfection. Judge others, condemn yourself…

Everyone is conditioned differently. The conditioning that conforms to society’s standards is accepted by others a lot more than conditioning that doesn’t. This accepted conditioning is also used as a judgement tool; by the whole and on an individual basis. Regardless though, it’s all conditioning. I know this is difficult to accept, but who among us is perfect. We all have looked down on another person to make ourselves feel superior, but can you truly throw the first stone. I know I can’t.

When you investigate yourself, this is the insight that you will see. You will be able to separate the person from the conditioning and love the person regardless because you know it’s the conditioning and not the person that produces the behavior. If there’s an evil in the world it’s the Conditioned Mind, goodness comes from the non judgement of this. When you can do this, you will be well on your way to a deeper understanding of yourself and you will understand how not to judge yourself or others. When you are without judgement, you’ll be free to love, unconditionally. It is then that you will understand your own conditioning and with this understanding you will have no choice but to drop your stones and go and judge no more…

Gossip Energy

When a person gossips it’s only to subconsciously fill some inner lack within to make themselves feel superior to the person being gossiped about…


The reason why gossiping is so damaging is because of the energy put out when it’s being done. Gossiping energy arises from your own lack of self worth and it engulfs the gossiper. It doesn’t affect the one who is being gossiped about because for the most part they’re probably unaware it’s being done. Gossiping is also very damaging because it involves multiple people, it’s like the energy of a riot, it can’t occur with just one person. Once a person starts gossiping and another person unconsciously attaches to it, it will continue to grow depending on who’s in the room and how unconscious (lacking) they are. It will only be attached to by those who have lack because it’s needed to fill the lack. Even if the gossiping about another person is warranted to a degree, no one is perfect enough to cast the first stone. All humans are fallible and act selfishly at times and selfishness is the main energy of those who gossip.


The small self gossips because it needs to feel superior to others so when you gossip it‘s done because subconsciously it makes you feel more superior than others. After all gossip is never or hardly never about something good, it’s mostly about something negative. Gossiping is what happens when there’s idle time and not much going on. It’s difficult not to be pulled into gossips energy because there’s not many people who don’t like to feel superior than another person. Gossiping is shallow and unless there’s truly an understanding that you are complete just the way you are and there’s no need to talk about anyone else, you will continue to harm yourself by talking about others and keeping the selfish energy of gossiping in place…

Self-Serving Reactions

Unconscious reactions are repeated because of the association to self-serve. If there wasn’t a self-serving association, there wouldn’t be self-serving reactions…




To understand some of the reasons why you are controlled by things you need to understand the associated history there is with them and how these associations are intertwined with the need to satisfy our self. This is the cause of why reactions are the way they are. There’s usually a long history with them and the more this history there is, the more ingrained the reactions to self-serve. When this occurs there’s less space between each moment so reactions occur automatically; self-serving associations go back many years. You only have time to react because if what’s already there and most times what’s there is the association to satisfy self. These associations to self-serve are ingrained in our subconscious and don’t allow time for reactions that are more conducive to love.


Why tragic events are reacted to with more balance and love is because there isn’t a long association connected with the event so the history to self-serve isn’t there. When there are tragic events that occur, people usually rise to the occasion because without self-serving history the blocks to our heart are less and because our hearts are naturally of love without these blocks we rise to the occasion and naturally assist others as we react naturally out of love.




There’s a need to understand this if you are to know our own mind and the reasons why you do what you do and what can be done to stop doing them. With self-serving history in place the same reactions will keep repeating themselves as they always have because the only way that you can react to what occurs in the moment is with what’s in place. So either your history will be self-serving or of love and this will determine how you react to what occurs in each moment…