A Conflicting Self

One’s self doesn’t cause conflict, it is conflict and as long as this concept of self is in place, there will be conflict and this conflict will always be with itself.

The nature of self is attachment to wanting, the nature of peace is non attachment to wanting; simple yet profound. This is so subtle and it happens without realizing it’s happening. This conflicted self is directly linked to the story of attachment. Every time something is wanted, it’s because the conflicting self has a belief that what’s wanted is needed. This concept of self is always in conflict with the underlying peace that’s always there. One’s self stirs up the thought that it wants peace and this is why it’s nature is conflict because peace is already in place; peace isn’t the nature of self so it does this. If you try to do something like self improvement or anything of that nature to get rid of self, that’s self. If you want your life different, that’s self. So so subtle is the conflicting self, but unfortunately this will not be seen by many.

Awareness aware of awareness is the only state in which the conflicting self is not trying to do something. It’s not trying to be anything different than the form that it is. Life is not a self help program to learn how to be free, the form in existence can be nothing but free, only the conflicting self takes this and makes it into the story that the form isn’t free. The conflicting self is the root of all reaching and seeking, it’s not at the root, it is the root itself. Remove the root and just as naturally as there’s existence in this form, peace will arise. This peace isn’t dependent on anything, it’s what’s always there. It cannot not be there, and it’s only the conflicting self that takes it away. Awareness aware of awareness needs no self to see, just be with this for what it is and know it’s not the self that sees.