Unconsciously Controlled

Thoughts are natural, but they don’t have to control you. If there isn’t awareness of your thoughts they will unconsciously be attached to and will lead you to unconsciously be controlled by them…


If there isn’t awareness of your own thoughts, there won’t be anyway of knowing how much control they have over you. Without this awareness you’ll be taken on an unconscious ride. Not that life does anything directly to anyone, but thoughts arise and they determine what your ride will be like. Awareness of your thoughts is essential if they’re not to control you. Thoughts are a natural part of life, they will arise. To me there’s no way of controlling them initially, but I have found that awareness of them allows for some space that can be used to determine whether or not to allow the thought to control you; it’s the unconscious attachment to a thought that causes suffering, not the thought itself.


The Conditioned Mind is diabolical and unless there’s some awareness of how controlling thoughts actually are, they will control you unconsciously as if you were a dog on a leash. So subtle is this that even if you are doing things that are labeled as loving, if these thoughts aren’t consciously watched they will eventually control you; remember control is control regardless of what name is applied to the thought. This is why the Conditioned Mind is diabolical because of its subtleness in using whatever it can to remain in control. Thoughts will arise, but they don’t have to control you. If there isn’t awareness of them, your thoughts will unconsciously be attached to which will allow them to be unconsciously in control…

Holding On Limits

Whatever it is that you hold on to it becomes your limiting energy, and if you don’t stop holding on so there’s some space created to allow love, the holding on energy will cause much suffering to all humanity…


Holding on to things is the cause of suffering, but there really isn’t much choice here because of the way the Conditioned Mind is in control. Your suffering is inevitable because of the holding on conditioning that’s in place. If this is to change you will have to create space so the holding on is replaced by first quiet and then love; there’s no way around this. Hold on to whatever your flavor of the day, week, month, or year is, just understand there will always be something else to hold on to which will cause you to suffer. Today it’s politics, tomorrow the spouse, job, traffic, weather, relatives, and so on; this will never change until there is space for love.


Unconditional love can only be without holding on to one iota of disdain. This is a truth the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow most to see. To hold on to things is to suffer regardless of who or what you are holding on to because it becomes your limited energy. Until this is understood you become the very thing that you show disdain towards. This is a Universal Truth; you cannot be separate from the energy that comes from you because it is you. Stop holding on and create space in your heart for love, if you don’t you are the one who will suffer the most by remaining with the limited energy of what you are holding on to…

Lies Disguised As Thoughts

When life is based on lies that manifest as thoughts, it’s those thoughts that keep you attached to the lies, and if discipline isn’t developed to expose these thoughts, lies will be the base of your existence…


My life was based on lies that I thought were true and those thoughts is what kept me attached to the lies. These were the developed tools to live my life, there came a time when I knew I had to find different tools. Everything was pointing me to the mind so I knew that’s where my answers were, I just didn’t know how they were going to manifest. I did know I had to find some way to allow my I Self mind to settle or my suffering was going to continue.


My mind began to settle when I started sitting as I was becoming more aware of the thoughts that arose which were causing me to reach outside myself for satisfaction. Reaching for something was just a tool I used. The value of discipline is if you don’t develop it you will have none and the old tools will remain in place along with being controlled by your thoughts. Developing discipline means the your thoughts become less and less controlling and as there is less control there is more discipline to not give in to them. I never had the discipline to not give in to them so I just did what was there, but today what’s there is different so it has manifested as life being different. It‘s by no means a doing on my part, but there is a willingness to develop the discipline to allow this to take place simply because without it the undisciplined thoughts will remain in control…

Healing Light

Your inner light brightness shines to the degree of surrender that allows loving energy to be your guide. The brighter the light the more people will see it and be touched…

I know for many years I wandered aimlessly through life controlled by a Conditioned Mind that led me around like a puppet on a string. My entire existence was based to self-serve and until this changed nothing was going to change; society is out of control because of this self-serving heart.
Until a person understands how conditioned and controlled they are by their own mind that makes this happen, nothing will change because it can’t and this is regardless of what is done to try and help a person. I‘m not sure if anything can be done to instill this change in a person, but we must try. Although it has to come from within the individual, we must plant seeds or there won’t even be the chance for someone to change.

I can love the person by understanding the conditioning is not them. This may not change them, but at least I will not be pulled into their conditioned world. I could write another book on this pull alone. Watch very closely how subtle the Conditioned Mind is. I know for me it is not my responsibility to change anyone, but I do have an obligation because of the insight that has been bestowed upon me; I know I can only change myself. When I change, that is how others change. Not because of me, but because of the degree of surrender that allows loving energy to be my guide. All I can do is be willing to keep looking within to expand this surrender.

My heart goes out to anyone controlled by a Conditioned Mind and my aspiration is they find their place of peace within their heart to allow the letting go of this. It’s real when something happens, but it isn’t real how it is held on to. The more things are held on to, the more control the Conditioned Mind has. Let go of the conditioning and let the love that is in your heart heal you and others, but it’s not an individual that does this, it’s love that does this. When the Conditioned Mind settles, the love in your heart will be your guiding light and thus you will be healed, and when you are healed you can be the guiding light to help heal others…

Your Own Light

We are all born of light, it’s the conditioned mind that keeps you in darkness and although many left teachings on how to love so we would see our own light, many deny these teachings and remain in the dark…


Each day is a time for renewal, a time for light and each moment is a part of this. Whether one believes in Jesus, Buddha, and many others, their stories were simply told to point you to your own light. There is denial of this light by those that are conditioned to remain blind to it. Our human evolution has produced much conditioning which keeps many marred in material darkness. There is nothing wrong with material possessions, but when they’re held onto as idols, their nature becomes that of darkness.


Many left us teachings on how to love and those who see this, see light. Very simply put, one who is conscious sees the light of love and one who is unconscious remains in the darkness of a self serving Conditioned Mind. Investigate this for yourself. Many had a fate to leave us their teachings to show us the light, it’s what they saw so it’s what they taught.


We live in a world designed for darkness, not evil, but darkness, there is a difference. Just because a person is unconscious doesn’t make them evil. If you look around, the selfishness of our world is rampant. People go out of their way to deny teachings of love and thus they deny themselves their own inner light of love, but it’s only because they’re unaware that’s it’s their own darkness that blocks them from seeing the light; if there is an evil in this world this is it. Deny this if you want and remain in the conditioned darkness, but understand you not only bring suffering to yourself, but you bring suffering to all humanity because darkness keeps one from spreading their light to others and although each day affords one the possibility of renewal, it will only be when unconditional love is truly understood that you will see your own light…

Changing Your Future

Once you identify and have awareness of the defense mechanisms that have been put in place to cope with life, you can take action to remove them which will change your future…


Everything in life is learned and this is what makes up your life. Regardless if it’s beneficial for you or not, it will still be done because it‘s what you have learned; what is learned is used to change the way that you feel. You spend a lot of time focused on learning to use the most beneficial tools you think you need. This is why alcohol is so widely used because it works so well to change the way a person feels. Drugs work well also, as does gambling, sex, work, food, music, TV etc. These are just some of the distractions used to change the way you feel, but understand when you can just be with the way things are with no needed change, that’s when you will not have the need that makes you reach for a reward. When this happens you will know a peace like no other; you will be in a place that few go. Be there regardless of how you feel and you will understand that feelings aren’t based in facts, they just are; the reward for knowing this is peace is priceless.


Who are you without your created story; a story that’s not needed to live. You would exist without it; the real kicker is the essence of a spiritual awakening is to undo the story you have spent your entire life creating. A story that has been created to make you who you think you need to be, but because you are now starting to become aware that this created story has caused most of your problems, you have to unlearn what you yourself have put in place. This is why people reach outside themselves for answers, to use the defense mechanisms that have put in place to cope with life. Once you are aware of this, you can take action to remove your coping mechanisms; this is how you change your future…

Opinionated Story

When there’s awareness that your opinions are a made up story, contentment takes their place. This contentment is always there, but not experienced because your opinions block it…

Without opinions everyone would view life through the eyes of contentment which by the way are the eyes of peace, but because of opinions this view isn’t seen. The view of opinions are made up by the energy of unconsciousness, this makes everything that happens in life about your opinion, but it isn’t truly ever about what is seen, it‘s not about anything in particular except the opinion that’s formed of what it’s about.

Opinions are what makes the mind attach to thoughts and those attachments are the cause of the associated thoughts that control your life. What is really happening is this, life just happens it’s not personal, it’s not about anything you think it is. It’s not about right, wrong, love, hate, good or bad, it‘s mostly about learning to understand your minds true nature of quietness and not being lead around by your made up opinions; whatever you make them. When there’s awareness of this you will truly be content; a contentment that has always been there in the space of quietness, but it was never experienced because of your opinions not allowing you to see…

Inner Urge of Love

The Conditioned Mind is the creator of all your so called fears. When there’s existence to fulfill your inner urge of love, there won’t be a need for the Conditioned Mind to create fear…

There’s one thing that you can rely on when it seems as though nothing is working out the way you think it should or when it seems as though the stars are misaligned and you are stuck in a Conditioned Mind Pattern and that’s an inner urging of love. Although it may seem like at times you’re in a state of gloom and doom, but on the contrary it’s the building block to a more useful and peaceful life. That one thing I have found to get me beyond an I energy dilemma is an understanding of the inner urge of love, which is always available.

I can’t tell you how many times love has pulled me out of an I energy dilemma. Regardless of what story is made up to create your world, the inner urge of love is in control of all that is; it’s this connection that makes you complete. The mind makes so much noise that this is difficult to grasp, but when the inner urge of love becomes why you live, you will never ever have a dilemma of any kind because you will see it is love and not you that’s in control. Only I energy can have a dilemma, but if you can stay in the space that dilemmas don’t exist, you will know that regardless of what happens in life, it’s not the way it’s suppose to be because life isn’t suppose to be anything, but it’s the way it is and that’s the one place where all the nonsense of a Conditioned Mind can not exist. You inner urge to love can only be known in the space of what is. In this space you are one with all of life and it’s in this space that there isn’t the need for your I energy to create a dilemma…

Peace Not Perception

When you realize your perceptions are a made up story you discover peace. It’s a peace that has always been there, but it was never experienced because your perceptions were of something else…
Without perception we would all view the world through the eyes of unconditional love which by the way are the eyes of truth, but because of our developed perceptions, we all have different views. These views are mostly made up by the energy of a unconscious self-centeredness. This view makes everything that happens in life about you, but it isn’t ever about an individual, it‘s really about nothing in particular except what you perceive it be.
This perception is what makes the mind attach to emotions and those attachments are the cause of the fluctuating emotions that control your life. What is really happening is this, life is just happening, it isn’t personal, it’s not really about anything in particular. It’s not about love or hate. It‘s mostly about learning to understand your true nature of stillness, and not being lead around by your mind made perceptions; whatever they are made out to be. When this is realized this is when you will discover peace; a peace that has always been there in the stillness, but it was never experienced because of your perceptions of something else…

A View of Difficulties

Our difficulties are self created because of a view that’s developed to self create difficulties. When the view is redeveloped to produce quietness, the difficulties will be no more…
Life itself is not difficult, it’s made that way by your own mind. Life just happens. For some, it will begin today, for some it will end. Some will be happy, some will be sad, but what the constant is that it simply occurs without favoritism. Regardless of what the circumstances are most live from the Conditioned Mind and the more this is done, the more life fluctuates and dictates how you are feeling and how controlled you are by the circumstances. This is a constant until we becomes aware of the Conditioned Mind Patterns and break the spell they have over you. I say spell, because a spell is something that makes you behave in ways that you normally wouldn’t and when I say normally, I mean as if love was the default setting of your mid. Love is our normal state of being, that is when we aren’t controlled by the Conditioned Mind.
The Conditioned Mind is not the fault of anything or anyone in particular, it’s just the developed view of the mind. The beauty of life is in stillness, the struggle of life is in the struggle. What makes a struggle a struggle and is it the outside circumstance? You would think so, but it isn’t. What it really is, is the way the circumstances are viewed. It will be a problem if you make it so. Everything is perception until truth is known, than perception ceases to exist and without perception all you will be left with is truth…

Attachments Hold

To not be pulled in by something is to not attach to it; therein lies your freedom. The question is how can you become non attached in a world that excels in attachment…


The world pays people billions of dollars to pull you in and keep you attached; it’s called advertisement. They study peoples psychic and know exactly what most people will attach to. I understand this and through the teachings of Buddhism, Hinduism, Jesus, and many others, I have come to understand attachment as suffering. And today through the grace of awareness of this there’s a choice not to attach and hence not suffer. This is what has been revealed to me, but maybe this isn’t for you.


Attachment is the base of all suffering, so non attachment is freedom. If this is discounted before it’s investigated that’s on the individual, but understand your attachment is your suffering, no one but yourself causes this. You can hold on as tight as you want, but don’t blame anyone for your troubles because they all come from within yourself and it’s you alone who chooses them. The Conditioned Mind determines what you will attach to and how much suffering it will cause you. Hold on tight and you will suffer mightily or let go and be free, this is the choice that each individual has. No one can do or say anything that really changes this, it all comes from within you, so you choose how much you will suffer or how free you will be; it’s totally up to you how tight you hold on…

Stillness is the Answer

All struggles arise from within your inner questions. Without discipline the mind that’s full of questions will never get answers that satisfy it so you will have to constantly look for them…

All struggles are “I” based because they come from the Conditioned Mind. If you’re in conflict with what’s written here, that arises from within you, the words don’t cause it. It doesn’t matter if you agree with this or not, just understand if there’s conflict that it comes from within you, not from what’s written. We love to blame others for our own self created conflicts, but the only reason there are conflicts is because of the lack of understanding of your own mind.

Nothing causes conflict unless it’s allowed. If you can change something by all means change it, but if it’s being changed just because you don’t like it, you need to look at why there’s a conflict to begin with because even if the thing is changed, you will just move on to the next thing that will cause you to become agitated and in conflict once again.

Everything that I’ve come to understand over the last twelve years has arisen from myself. It has been through discipline that real answers have arisen directly from stillness. I can’t have anyone else’s answers because the one who questions is the one who has the answers. I do not have your answers because I do not have your questions. Everyone has their own questions to answer. Truth is the same for all beings, but how you come to its understanding is from the questions within yourself. When you sit, you see stillness is the answer to your questions, this is when conflict with yourself and with the world will be no more…

Judge Others...Condemn Yourself

The judgement of others is the judgement of ourself. No one among us is warranted to judge another because we all fall short of perfection. Judge others, condemn yourself…

Everyone is conditioned differently. The conditioning that conforms to society’s standards is accepted by others a lot more than conditioning that doesn’t. This accepted conditioning is also used as a judgement tool; by the whole and on an individual basis. Regardless though, it’s all conditioning. I know this is difficult to accept, but who among us is perfect. We all have looked down on another person to make ourselves feel superior, but can you truly throw the first stone. I know I can’t.

When you investigate yourself, this is the insight that you will see. You will be able to separate the person from the conditioning and love the person regardless because you know it’s the conditioning and not the person that produces the behavior. If there’s an evil in the world it’s the Conditioned Mind, goodness comes from the non judgement of this. When you can do this, you will be well on your way to a deeper understanding of yourself and you will understand how not to judge yourself or others. When you are without judgement, you’ll be free to love, unconditionally. It is then that you will understand your own conditioning and with this understanding you will have no choice but to drop your stones and go and judge no more…

Gossip Energy

When a person gossips it’s only to subconsciously fill some inner lack within to make themselves feel superior to the person being gossiped about…


The reason why gossiping is so damaging is because of the energy put out when it’s being done. Gossiping energy arises from your own lack of self worth and it engulfs the gossiper. It doesn’t affect the one who is being gossiped about because for the most part they’re probably unaware it’s being done. Gossiping is also very damaging because it involves multiple people, it’s like the energy of a riot, it can’t occur with just one person. Once a person starts gossiping and another person unconsciously attaches to it, it will continue to grow depending on who’s in the room and how unconscious (lacking) they are. It will only be attached to by those who have lack because it’s needed to fill the lack. Even if the gossiping about another person is warranted to a degree, no one is perfect enough to cast the first stone. All humans are fallible and act selfishly at times and selfishness is the main energy of those who gossip.


The small self gossips because it needs to feel superior to others so when you gossip it‘s done because subconsciously it makes you feel more superior than others. After all gossip is never or hardly never about something good, it’s mostly about something negative. Gossiping is what happens when there’s idle time and not much going on. It’s difficult not to be pulled into gossips energy because there’s not many people who don’t like to feel superior than another person. Gossiping is shallow and unless there’s truly an understanding that you are complete just the way you are and there’s no need to talk about anyone else, you will continue to harm yourself by talking about others and keeping the selfish energy of gossiping in place…

Self-Serving Reactions

Unconscious reactions are repeated because of the association to self-serve. If there wasn’t a self-serving association, there wouldn’t be self-serving reactions…




To understand some of the reasons why you are controlled by things you need to understand the associated history there is with them and how these associations are intertwined with the need to satisfy our self. This is the cause of why reactions are the way they are. There’s usually a long history with them and the more this history there is, the more ingrained the reactions to self-serve. When this occurs there’s less space between each moment so reactions occur automatically; self-serving associations go back many years. You only have time to react because if what’s already there and most times what’s there is the association to satisfy self. These associations to self-serve are ingrained in our subconscious and don’t allow time for reactions that are more conducive to love.


Why tragic events are reacted to with more balance and love is because there isn’t a long association connected with the event so the history to self-serve isn’t there. When there are tragic events that occur, people usually rise to the occasion because without self-serving history the blocks to our heart are less and because our hearts are naturally of love without these blocks we rise to the occasion and naturally assist others as we react naturally out of love.




There’s a need to understand this if you are to know our own mind and the reasons why you do what you do and what can be done to stop doing them. With self-serving history in place the same reactions will keep repeating themselves as they always have because the only way that you can react to what occurs in the moment is with what’s in place. So either your history will be self-serving or of love and this will determine how you react to what occurs in each moment…