Allowing Freedom

Enlightenment doesn’t make you free, Enlightenment allows you to give everything its freedom. The more this is understood the less chance there will be to experience a state of discontentment…

This describes a typical day for me prior to twelve years ago, at some point I would become discontented, reach for something, be satisfied for a little while, become discontented, reach for something, be satisfied again, reach again; over and over this cycle was repeated and basically controlled the way I lived my life. The objects used mean little except for the fact the more destructive the thing used is, the more it affects life in a non beneficial way. This exact thing is going on today for millions of people. It’s the reason why I have such a passion to try and get the message of what happened to me to as many as people as possible, because it doesn’t have to be this way. Young, old, male, female, whatever your ethnic background, not many people aren’t affected by this cycle. This cycle is the puppet on the string cycle. The origin of the discontentment needs to be understood if this cycle is to be halted. And its origin is the self serving mind of “I” which keeps a person entrapped to this cycle.

Imagine this, for forty nine years my life was spent in this cycle, but it isn’t this way today. It doesn’t mean things are perfect, but just the fact that I am not the person who I use to be is so freeing; it’s so important to remain aware of this fact. I have no idea what others have gone through in their life. It matters little if what I see is what someone else sees. The important thing is to know that it was my own mind that created the cycle that kept me discontented for many many years, and it’s not enslaving me this way any longer. I have learned to not compare my life with anyone else. Whatever is seen is seen as what is seen is through the view the universe gives. What I’ve found as a valuable understanding to keep me from returning to my previous cycle is that Enlightenment doesn’t make me free. Enlightenment is me giving everything its freedom. The more this is lived by, the less chance there is to return to my previous state of discontentment…

Lies Disguised as Beliefs

When life is based on lies that manifest as beliefs, it’s those beliefs that keep you attached to the lies. And if discipline isn’t developed to expose these lies, they will be the base of your existence…


I’ve learned to use meditation as a way to develop discipline, but the question is why was being undisciplined so natural and how come being discipline isn’t? I don’t have an answer, it’s just a question. After sitting periodically my mind began to settle and I saw real results in how my view of life was becoming different and I understood I wasn’t the one doing it. To a point I got why this was occurring and the reason it continues to occur today, discipline has been developed that wasn’t previously there. This is available to anyone who has a willingness to sit.


My life was based on lies that I believed and those beliefs kept me attached to the lies. These were the tools that were developed to live my life, there came a time when I knew I had to find different tools and my so called quest began. Everything I read pointed to the mind so I knew where my answers were, I just didn’t know how they were going to manifest. I did know I had to find some way to allow my self centered mind to settle or my suffering was going to continue.


I began sitting, and as my mind settled I was becoming more aware of the mind agitations that arose, which is what was causing me to reach outside myself for satisfaction. Reaching for something was the means used to quiet these agitations. This is the value of discipline, develop none and you will have none and the developed tools will remain in place along with being controlled by your mind agitations. This is what has been occurring in my life the last twelve years; developed discipline means the mind agitations become less and less and as there is less of them there is more discipline to not give in to them. I never had the discipline to not give in to them so I just did what was there, but today what’s there is different so it has manifested as life being different. It‘s by no means a doing on my part, but there is a willingness to develop the discipline to allow this to take place simply because without it the undisciplined mind will remain in control…

Constantly Vigilant

Vows and pledges don’t work no matter how sincere you are unless you follow with actions allowing the vow or pledge to occur. No change happens without being constantly vigilant…


The idea of doing what puts you in alignment with Universal Love is much different than actually putting it into action. Its not because it isn’t how you truly want to be, its just that there’s so much pulling against you that without constant vigilance it difficult to sustain a connection to Universal Love for a substantial amount of time We all have times when its easier for this then others, but we also have our times when we say screw it and self seek. Don’t be to hard on yourself, a lifetime of living one way with not change with a few sittings. The key is to keep up a practice that allows for the self seeking behavior to become less and less and for Universal Love to be more reflected in oour actions.


This occurs naturally, we need only be willing to do what’s necessary. Sometimes it will seem like “what’s the use” but understand this is all part of the conditioning, the noise, the story, the unconsciousness, whatever you want to call it. Constant vigilance is the credo if there is to be change because the old behavior is so deeply engrained to let go of its control without practice. This is why most people don’t change because being constantly vigilant in investigating why you do what you do isn’t given 100% of your focus. It’s impossible to get more out of your life then what you put into it so if you give it 50% that‘s exactly what you’ll get out of it… Check it…

Just the Way I Am Mind

If you think with a just the way I am mind, you might as well accept the things that you do. You can’t change the way that you are until it’s understood why what is done is done…

Without quietness, consciousness has a hard time rising up; the practice that allows it isn’t done by too many people. This isn’t something that’s right or wrong, it’s just a fact. If you live life with the tools that develop an unconscious state then those tools will produce a just the way I am mind. It’s a natural law, apple trees produce apples; in this respect it’s just the way you are. You don’t have to be the way that you are, but unless you see that how you are doesn’t benefit your life you will remain just as you are.

In your quietness is where your change takes place. If your old beliefs are in place and running the show, new energy will never be allowed to replace them; it’s nearly impossible without investigating your behavior to change. So Conditioned Mind Patterns are developed that control life and things are said like “that’s just the way I am”; “I” is reinforced when things like this are said. This is the true nature of unconsciousness, accepting things prior to investigating their true nature. As a society we are more aware then ever before that something isn’t quite right, but that doesn’t mean we are any closer to a solution then we were three thousand years ago. It may seem like it because of the knowledge that is available to us, but knowledge doesn’t equate to consciousness. In quietness all truth is revealed. In the noise of a Conditioned Mind one remains in the grip of a just the way I am mind…

100% Aligned

Until the practice of quietness becomes our number one priority 100% of the time, it will be difficult to sustain our alignment with Universal Love 100% of the time…


You will either be self serving or you will be of love. You can’t really flip flop between the two, it’s one or the other. Love can’t be your guide sometimes. You will fulfill your urge to serve Universal Love or you will serve yourself, but understand you can only reap what you sow, and when what is sown is through love and the energy emitted is from that love, your daily actions will be of love because of being not doing, and when being is the base of your life you will always be fulfilled.


The other day someone asked me what God’s will was for me and I answered immediately “not to be self centered” although I’m not so sure about it being God’s will, but I do know not to be self centered is my will. There is nothing else needed to do because when the mind isn’t stuck in the self serving mode, it is free to love and that freedom is because of the alignment with Universal Love. For me it’s not about my messages, my post, my book, my job or anything else, it’s simply to be aware of the quietness of the present moment because without that the only place love exist is in your head and it remains a concept. This is why vows, pledges, resolution and what not don’t work, it’s not that they aren’t made in sincerity, but they aren’t ingrained enough in the subconscious to be carried out on a continuous bases. There are moments when they’re applied, but until the practice of quietness becomes our number one priority, we will not be able to sustain our alignment with Universal Love 100% of the time. This will make it extremely difficult for our actions to exhibit Universal Love as our minds default setting. The self serving mind is very subtle and you will never be free of it until you are willing to practice 100% of the time so your actions are a benefit to all beings 100% of the time. This will not occur as a concept, this will only occur when your actions are aligned with Universal Love 100% of the time…

Roller Coaster Mind

If you don’t want to constantly have a roller coaster mind you will need to understand you are not your thoughts and just maybe you’ll learn how not to push your roller coaster minds start button…


When something happens in life and an emotion is attached the roller coaster mind begins. Up, down, round and round, loop the loop, fast, slow and when it finally runs its course, the roller coaster mind stops, that is until the next emotion pushes the button that begins the process again; this repeats itself over and over. The roller coaster mind isn’t activated until the button is pushed. A thought is simply a thought, there’s no substance to it until it’s attached to, but it’s not really the thought that’s given control, it’s the attachment to “I” because without “I” the thought would be unable to begin the process; thoughts don’t start the roller coaster mind. You have thoughts all day long that don’t push the start button, it’s strictly the attachment to “I” that starts the roller coaster mind and puts emotions in motions.


Thoughts are like electricity, this is the energy provided for the roller coaster mind. The energy is just there, like a light that’s plugged in, but isn’t turned on. So now depending on how you’re conditioned, but regardless of the nature of the thought, when there is attachment to the thought the start button is pushed and the roller coaster mind starts moving. It has been set in motion and will now have to run its course. The start button was pushed, the consequences of this is some roller coaster are larger, faster and scarier than others. No one but yourself is responsible for starting this process so if you don’t want to constantly have a roller coaster mind for the rest of your life, it will be needed to understand you are not your thoughts and just maybe this will assist you in learning how not to push your roller coaster minds start button…

Attaching to Thoughts

Wanted thoughts, not so wanted thoughts, attaching to either one allows the emotional energy of the thought “I” to push the start button that begins your emotional attachment…


In the realm of your thoughts there is no right, wrong, good, bad, like, dislike, anger, calm, happy or sad, etc, there is only the everlasting peace of non judgment of each precious moment that you are alive in, that is as long as there isn’t attachment to them. The emotions attachments to those things listed are what controls the way that you’re pulled around and controlled by your thoughts. The initial thoughts still occurs without the attachment, it just isn’t controlling. It’s strictly attachment that gives a thought the energy that makes life the emotional ride that most people experience.


I know we all want to attach to thoughts that are pleasurable and we like to identify them as who we are, but what of those thoughts that we don’t want, we know we don’t want them and we definitely don’t want them to be who we are, but they’re really no different than the wanted thoughts. All thoughts are energy in its purest form nothing else, their transforming energy is caused by our attachment to them. They affect our life differently dependent on the energy they’re given. If one wants to be identified by the thoughts that they want, you will have to be identified with the unwanted ones also. The key is to understand what would happen if neither the wanted or unwanted thoughts were identified with, where would that leave you? Sit with that for a little while…

Kindness From Love

You can’t act your way to a heart of kindness, love has to be sown if you want kindness to be the base of your actions. When it is, you will never again have to change because you are being your true self…

No act of kindness is random. If your heart is one that is truly based in love, kindness will be the way you will act. Because of the way we have been conditioned kindness may not always shine through, this is why there is the struggle to act differently. Our essence is to love, when we don’t we struggle. We needn’t struggle, but we have to understand why we do if there is to be change. True change occurs not by changing the way you act, but by seeing what causes it. We do not make ourselves change. You can’t act our way to a different way of being, it has to come from the heart. When your heart is of love, your actions will be of love. You can only be what you are and your actions show it.

A lot of life is spent in between our planning and our doing and it’s there that the ground work for your actions are formed. That in between time can be quiet or it can be noisy, but it will determine how you will act and if you’re going to need to act differently or not. If the ground work produces kindness then nothing different will be needed. If not you will need to do the ground work so kindness becomes the base of your actions. Whatever the base of your life is you can only act accordingly. Apple tress produce apples, but you can reap something different if you plant different seeds. So you act the way you act, because of what has been planted in you, but if you want to bare different fruit, you will need to plant different seeds. Plant the seeds of love and that is what will grow. You will then act in a way that’s beneficial to all and nothing will need to be changed because you will be who you truly are, not who you aren’t…

Peace is Waiting

The mind is a great problem solver, but the insanity of this is it’s the one creating the problems. When the mind is still there are no problems because there is no source to create them…
Destiny can be changed when you realize the road you are on isn’t the most beneficial one and what needs changing is to stop creating all your stories. When this is done make sure the same chapters aren’t added that just have different titles. A story is a story and they’re all created by an “I” that needs the story to exist. No I, no needed story. It really is that simple, without “I” as the author who would write the story. “I” is the creator because without “I” the story doesn’t exist. The true self beyond “I” exist without the story. As a matter of fact without the story that “I” has been creating for eons there’s an alignment with life that’s impossible to experience when there’s the story of “I”. Check it
Your ”I” story began when your existence began, it doesn’t have to be this way, but you will have to undo what has taken your entire life to put in place; it will probably take the rest of your life to undo it. This is the beauty of discovering your true self as you watch fallacy after fallacy fall away, or you can live with the tools of ignorance that are in place and make you continue on the road of your current destiny. There is no right or wrong here, there’s just choosing which road to take as you trudge the road to happy destiny. Peace is waiting for you as you learn to undo what has taken many many years to learn. This was done so you could protect yourself, even if your tools of protection were the causes of your vulnerability. The mind is a great problem solver, but the insanity of this is it’s the one creating the problems. When the mind is still there are no problems because there’s no source to create them…

Emitting Love

The heart is naturally of love, learning how to live from here is the difference between living a life that is in a constant state of fluctuation or one that is constantly whole emitting love…


Living from the heart is an energy much different than living from the head. The heart energy is based in non-judgement, the head is based in thought. Love is love, no fluctuations, steady and consistent. Thought on the other hand puts us in a constant state of fluctuation, with emotions all over the place. The energy of love is the state of emotional balance. This is not a mystical belief in something, our entire universe is comprised of energy. To the degree that you are controlled by your Conditioned Mind is to the degree that this is understood at the heart level, and this determines whether life is lived from the heart (love) or from the head (thought). The saying “I think therefore I Am” is an erroneous statement. Take someone who is in a coma, they aren’t thinking, but they still are. So the saying should say “I think therefore I suffer” that is more in line with truth. It isn’t that thought itself causes suffering, it certainly is a contributor, but it is the underlying nature of the thoughts and how they are attached to that causes the suffering.


It’s our alignment with our own self that allows for the alignment with the entire Universe. Without this alignment we’re like a rudderless ship in a storm; afloat, but pushed around until we either sink or fix our rudder. When our rudder is repaired it’s then that we have the necessary tools to be in alignment with the thoughts that just moments ago was going to destroy us. Life will be lived as long as we are alive, but whether it is lived from the head or the heart determines how consistent and balanced our emotions are, and in the process how much love energy we emit to others…

Distracted by Your Distractions

When you’re distracted from our inner place of quietness it’s because the mind is busy, but if you’re not careful even when you have idle time you can be just as distracted from your inner place of quietness…


Its not like a quiet mind is something that happens without practice. At times it’s naturally more quiet than others, but quietness is not always the norm. Sometimes I have to stop what I am doing and go sit, it’s almost as if a reset button for my mind is needed. I can usually tell I need to stop what I’m doing when everything in my eyes view has some kind of issue attached to it, or sometimes it has to do with just making things more than what they are. I’m not talking about when I have to do something, like work, appointments, or certain things that need to be done, when this happens the mind is busy so the distractions don’t allow the mind to know its not quiet. I’m talking about mostly on my nothing is happening days off and I’m afforded the flexibility of pretty much doing what I want. That’s when the mind can really generate noise because it doesn’t have direction.


There is so much nonsense that goes on in between your ears and it’s the lack of truth that is the cause. You cannot understand this if you are looking outside yourself for answers. Inner truth is not the truth of great mysteries of life solved, it’s the truth of why you do what you do that needs to be seen. It’s not my desire to inspire others as much as it is to convey a message of truth to people through my writings, which is a tool to point to the place within your own heart that will lead you to truth and freedom. It’s the place of your own inner truth because this is the truth that arises from quietness. This is the message that’s conveyed to others, but it will only be seen if you’re not distracted by the distractions that distract you…

Actions of Love

Heaven is here on earth in the form of love, but until this is seen most will remain traveling on the road to hell regardless that it’s paved with good intentions…


When I look back at my life I can see how so many of the things that I did would not be done today. Most of the things I did I didn’t want to do, but by being conditioned in a certain way there really wasn’t much choice. Although I am older and I would think I’m wiser, my change is not because I have mellowed with age or have learned from my so called mistakes. It was the opening of my heart that changed my selfish intentions to intentions of love that could be put into action; this was not my doing. So many times my intentions wanted to do what was right, but with my life being based in satisfying “I” I didn’t have the tools to follow through. This is just the way it was and the guilt and remorse that this caused kept this cycle in place for many years; powerful is the bondage of “I”.


To get in touch with your deeper intentions and to allow them to be your guiding light is essential if you want to stop living in a self created road to hell paved with good intentions. The hell being an existence that keeps you living a life deeply entrenched in your subconscious “I”. You may know this, but because the I Self has been in control for so long its intentions block love so love doesn’t manifest as the behavior in your life. Heaven is here on earth in the form of love and until you’re relieved from the bondage of “I” your intended purpose to be the love that you are will not manifest. The road to heaven is paved with the alignment of our deeper intentions to love, but until this is seen most will travel on the road to hell regardless of the good intentions…

Opinionated Delusions

Your greatest delusion is the one that tells you to hold onto an opinion that is taken as truth prior to investigating if it is so. The saying is “Truth will set you free” not opinions will set you free…

Here’s a post on the topic of opinions. This isnt directed towards anyone in particular so please don’t take it as so. I just want to clarify what I have come to understand in more detail. Here is a dictionary definition of the word opinion: a view or judgment formed about something, not necessarily based on fact or knowledge. This really sums up what an opinion is and its true value or lack of it. Opinions really have no value because it’s not based on anything but a thought and thoughts don’t have any real substance to them, so without substance there would be nothing to give an opinion value…

The Conditioned Mind will tell you there is value in your opinion, but that’s the delusion Buddha talked about. If it isn’t based on something factual it doesn’t have any real value. When there aren’t facts, there isn’t substance and without substance there’s nothing to base an opinion on. This isn’t just for opinions, it also applies to ideas, ideals, beliefs, and concepts, they also have no real facts to base themselves on; they’re based on the delusion of a Conditioned Mind. Before this is discounted, it should be investigated. If you just want to make up an opinion about this and it makes you feel better, go with your conditioning, but understand this has nothing to do with what’s been written; everything arises from the delusion within and this delusion was in place long before this post was written…check it…

Subconsciously on Auto Pilot

Live from the heart and watch a miracle happen right before your very eyes or not and remain stuck on automatic pilot and be at the mercy of a subconscious mind that has been developed by a world that is out of control…


Subconsciously we do so many things automatically that without self investigation most of the time it won’t be noticed. The only way this can be changed is to know what is the cause of unconsciousness. If you don’t understand why you are as you are, you will stay as you are. The subconscious mind is what controls us and without quietness it will never be known how delusional most of our thinking is. Greed, hate, and delusion is the way so many live and it is heartbreaking because it doesn’t have to be this way.


The bottom line is life will change when your conditioning changes so your world will change when you change. But nothing will change until it’s realized what is the driving force behind the way you live your life. If your own agenda is in the forefront of your decisions then it is the subconscious mind that’s in control, but when your decisions are based in quietness, the subconscious mind takes a backseat to your heart. This is the change that needs to occur if you are to ever control your life. If not the subconscious mind will continue to be your master and not much will change in you and not much will change in the world. Even though things are constantly changing when the subconscious mind is in control, the more things change, the more they stay the same. Live from the heart and watch a miracle happen right before your very eyes or not and remain stuck on automatic pilot and be at the mercy of a subconscious mind that has been developed by a world that is out of control. Control you life or you will be controlled by it, this choice is the free will you have, but it’s only a choice if there’s awareness of it…

Truth Allows Freedom

Freedom from “I” attachment is based in truth, and truth is based in stillness. A noise based life produces lies which is the nature of noise; only in truth can you be set free…


You will not learn to live by truth if you’re not using tools that cultivate truth. Many have gone before us and left us tools of truth, but what do we do with them, we look for loopholes so we can do what we want and ignore their teachings. There are so many tools that point us to truth, but they are discounted because of “I”. So many have left us teachings of truth, but we don’t hear the message because we judge the messages and the messenger with our own Conditioned Mind. We hear our own message and interpret it as truth so we can satisfy our I Self.


What you may think truth is isn’t truth; it’s perception. There’s my perceived truth and your perceived truth, but neither of them are truth. Then there’s the underlying stillness beyond all the perceived truths, but you will never understand it or see it until you are quiet enough to know it’s right in front of you and has nothing to do with what you think. That’s the thing about truth, it’s always there and it’s always right in front of you, but because of the “I” generated noise it’s perception you’re most likely seeing as truth is something that only a very settled mind will see…