Pertinent Tools

Are the tools you have in place truly pertinent to allow you to love yourself unconditionally and thus love all beings. The key word here is all, not just the one’s deemed pertinent…

For many years I did things that were considered pertinent to my well being, but after forty nine years of this I found myself at such a low point that I wasn’t sure if I was going to rise up. There was no I think I can chants, no positive thinking, no meditation, no loving myself. There was much confusion and despair, and the insanity that my own developed tools brought me to this place. Now I know not many get to this place of total despair so it’s difficult to understand how low I was, but I will say this, I am fortunate beyond words and I will tell you why. When I was twenty eight years old there were ten of us still hanging in a bar, all of us using alcohol as a pertinent tool. Out of those ten individuals eight of them are now dead. What’s tragic about this is the tools that each of them deemed pertinent to live their life were the cause of their deaths. Think about how insane this is and how often this is repeated today; insanity to say the least.

When I look back at what I thought were pertinent tools to live by, I see nothing but this insanity. Although not intentional my own mind caused all my suffering. Now you may not think this applies to you, but every negative thought one ever has comes from within yourself. It may have been put there by some outer influence, but it was attached to by you and you saw it as pertinent to give it energy to manifest. I’m not a big negative/positive person, my experience has been more in line with quietness as the most pertinent tool to live by, but it wasn’t always this way. To me the question to ask yourself if you can muster the courage to do so is are you willing to truly face yourself to see if the tools you have in place are truly pertinent to allow you to love yourself unconditionally and thus love all beings. The key word here is all, not just the one’s that are thought to be pertinent…