Self Destructive

Looking inward takes more courage than most people will ever exhibit, but only because the conditioning in place doesn’t allow it. Until you can look inward your conditioning will prevail…

Everyday I’m amazed at the things people are okay holding onto with the emphasis totally on satisfying themselves. This is done without much consideration for anyone else and it’s strictly from a self serving attitude. I know it’s because they know not what they do, but the suffering this causes and how it cements the conditioning in place can be truly disheartening. Notice I said can be disheartening because if one is truly awake there’s the understanding that the way things are is the way things are and wanting them different also cements the conditioning in place. I’m writing about this because it’s heart breaking to watch people suffer when you have answers; not many are willing to hear. It’s like having a cure for cancer, but nobody will listen. Without going into specifics, the conditioned unconsciousness runs so deep that people will justify doing all kinds of self destructive behavior without blinking an eye. Drugs, alcohol, gambling, porn, rioting, protesting, murder, rape, assault, robbery, this is only the tip of the Conditioned Mind iceberg. Here is why this is at least from my experience, it’s just easier to justify self destructive behavior than to look at yourself. Truly looking at yourself takes more courage then most people will ever exhibit, not because they can’t, but because the conditioning in place doesn’t allow it.

I write talk to point in a direction, but all kinds of excuses are made not to connect. I get it, but it doesn’t make it any easier to watch people suffering when there’s a way out. This means people would rather remain in their suffering then to go beyond it, that’s the part that’s heart breaking. I don’t say this because I’m a know it all, but I have been released from the grip of my Conditioned Mind somewhat and have been provided with answers. I share my experience with others through my writings. And I know that I’ve truly broken free from the Conditioned Mind because my behavior isn’t self destructive anymore…

Pain and Fear of "I"

“I” likes to make problems where there aren’t any, and although pain and fear may arise, they don’t have to be given the energy “I” wants to give them. The only reason “I” does this is to reinforce its existence…

Pain is nothing more than a message that arises to tell you something. It’s not something to fear, but it will be feared if it’s not understood that this is because of the conventional relation pain has to “I”. Pain itself has no inherent fear quality, it’s just a word, but when “I” attaches to it, it’s given energy and thus it’s given life. This isn’t to say painful things will not occur in life without attachment, but only the relation to “I” causes issue because of the story ” I hurt” or “I fear” or whatever story is attached to. Fear only exist as a story created by “I” and when this is truly learned, attachment is lessened and so is its associated pain and fear. Be with the pain, but don’t let the fear of it be in control.

When the mind settles, pain is seen as something that just arises. All pain whether physical or emotional is temporary, but the mind that fears it becomes captive to seeing it as lasting forever. When this occurs pain becomes a master puppeteer. Attachment to “I” may not seem to be the cause of what is painful, but it cements it in place and gives it control; this is how “I” works. “I” makes problems where there aren’t any and although pain will be experienced, it doesn’t have to be given the energy that “I” wants to give it. Without “I” there’s no attachment and without attachment there’s nothing to fear, but fear itself…

Lies: Absence of Truth

A lie is nothing more than a decision being made by a mind that’s conditioned to self serve. There is no truth to a lie because there isn’t any concrete evidence to back it up…

As life happens it’s mostly interpreted as conditioned lies. For me, it is very difficult to take things serious, especially when it comes to lies. There are so many decisions that are made from a lie that someone has about something, but where it becomes humorous is because lies really have no value. People think they do and will state them adamantly, but they don’t. They are given more credibility and have more effect on things the higher the position one has in society or is held in esteem, but the value of any lie should always be questioned because they’re all derived from someone’s Conditioned Mind, not from facts.

I know this was how most of the decisions were made in my life, there wasn’t much factual thought in them. And whatever the lie was about the decisions made really only had value to me because my conditioning was based to self serve; my lies were all based on a self serving thought. This self serving lie based process took years to develop. It seemed that something occurred and it was placed in a category of like or dislike as quickly as it occurred. There wasn’t a thought process to this, there was no thinking, it just went automatically into its preconditioned assigned category.

All lies are valueless even though a person may think they matter, they don’t because there’s no concrete evidence of truth to them. When something isn’t based in truth, it’s pretty much valueless. Decisions based on lies makes things remain the same because not much can change when decisions are based on lies instead of facts. Because of this, things shouldn’t be taken too serious. Enjoy the humorous lies without their concrete evidence and know it’s truth that sets you free because without it the self serving truth-less lies remain in control…

Delusional Stages

Everything in life passes and that’s a fact, but delusion makes everything permanent. Only when the mind is at ease will one see the delusion for what it is and only when this is seen will the delusion fall away…

Holding onto a view even in the face of evidence that it’s false is the greatest of all delusions. Basically delusion occurs in stages, believing what is seen, the mental reactions to what is seen, and holding on to what is seen even though it’s proven not to be as it’s seen. These first two are the ones that occur mostly, and most people learn from these to a large degree, but the third one is where delusion becomes deeply embedded in the subconscious. It grabs hold of you and makes you do all kinds of nonsense. There are many ways that delusion manifest, just look at all the things that are reached for. The delusion here is the thing will bring satisfaction, but as soon as it’s grabbed it’s gone so the next thing is needed. This is delusion at its finest.

To me this is how delusion operates, you think someone is following you, that’s the beginning; it starts with a thought. Now the mind takes over and the mental reaction occurs or as I like to say “the nonsense begins”. If the person thought to be following you passes you, the delusion will simply fall way, but if you’re in the grip of delusion, you will think the person passing you is just part of the plan. The delusion will always have to run its course before subsiding. No matter what it is in life, it will pass away, that’s a fact, but delusion makes everything permanent so it can remain in place. Only when the mind is at ease will one see the delusion for what it is and only when this is seen will the delusion fall away…

A Rewarding View

Most people will say life is rewarding if everything is going their way. It can always be rewarding regardless of the circumstances, but only if it’s seen how all things are impermanent, including life itself…

On life being considered rewarding or not, if you’re thinking it isn’t it won’t be. And even if you say it is, it will still not be rewarding if that’s what you truly believe. I equate this to whistling in the dark to keep away the bogeyman. As long as you’re whistling the distraction will keep the fear in check. The moment you stop it will return. The key is to identify why you think life isn’t rewarding in the first place and be with that. People say be positive, but being positive to me doesn’t change the facts of why life is labeled as not rewarding. Some not so pleasant things do happen in life, if it’s just masked over and ignored it becomes ingrained as an energy pattern in the subconscious that repeats itself. This is how life becomes unrewarding. Life itself is always rewarding, it’s people who are conditioned to make it something else; this is another lie of the Conditioned Mind.

Life will be rewarding when it’s seen in the light of how all things are impermanent including life itself. Believe me I get it, being ill, losing a loved one, living in poverty, and many others things that occur in life stinks; what makes you think it stinks is the attachment to what occurs. Labeling life as stinky doesn’t change what’s occurring, it only changes where life is put as being rewarding or not. When the true essence of life (impermanence) is understood, it puts life at the top of the rewarding scale regardless of what’s going on because it’s seen that one day life in this form simply will not be…

Need to Reach

When the need to reach for something arises it’s because the mind is trapped to that particular need. Until this is seen you will remain trapped to fulfill a need for the next thing reached for…

You will never find the fulfillment you’re seeking if you’re trapped in the need of that fulfillment. Fulfillment is something that’s already within you, but because of the way the mind is conditioned, you get trapped that fulfillment is something outside of you. This makes the needed fulfillment you’re seeking impossible to grasp. This is also the reason there’s a constant need for something from the outside. Until this is seen you will remain trapped to the needed thought of fulfillment in the next thing reached for. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, self help books, god, and on and on, these are proof you’re trapped. I can’t stress this enough as this trap has to be seen if you are to experience true fulfillment in your life.

It’s impossible to think your way to fulfillment, what does have to happen if fulfillment is to be experienced is there has to be an understanding of why you’re not fulfilled. When the need to reach for something arises, the trap to the need begins; this trap is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Fulfillment isn’t something attained or achieved so it’s in doing less that you’re fulfilled. To many people get lost in trying to attain fulfillment, but it’s something that’s already within; the need to attain fulfillment needs to be discarded so you can see this. This is not easy to grasp, but I write so the trap of needing can be seen for what it is; the reason why you aren’t fulfilled…

Made Up Stories

When there’s awareness that your life consist of stories you make up, contentment takes their place. This contentment is always there, but not experienced because of your made up stories…

Without made up stories everyone would view life through the eyes of contentment which by the way are the eyes of peace. But because of the made up stories this view isn’t seen. The view of made up stories is the energy of unconsciousness, this makes everything that happens in life about your made up stories. Life isn’t truly about your made up story, matter of face it‘s not about anything in particular except the story that’s made up.

Made up stories are what makes the mind attach to thoughts and those attachments are the cause of the associated thoughts that control your life. What is really happening is this, life just happens it’s not personal, it’s not about anything you think it is. It’s not about right, wrong, love, hate, good or bad, it‘s mostly about learning to understand your minds true nature of quietness and not being led around by your made up stories; whatever you make them. When there’s awareness of this you will truly be content. A contentment that is always there in the space of quietness, but it’s not experienced all that much because of your made up stories not allowing you to see…

Fake Created Problems

Because of the way one becomes conditioned, life is seen as if it needs to be a certain way so many fake problems are created. This is why there’s a constant need to problem solve…

The issue with having to constantly solve problems to arrange life to be a certain way is it’s fake. Even if you make up a story life is exactly how you want it, the mind begins creating a new problem almost immediately. Life is continuous, it’s broken up into segments (fake problems) by a mind that’s in a constant state of agitation. If this wasn’t true you would see life as complete and it wouldn’t constantly need to be arranged to your liking. It isn’t because of anything right or wrong that makes it seen in this way. It’s because the mind has been trained to problem solve so it’s only doing what it’s been trained to do.

The Conditioned Mind sees fake problems all over the place. The shortest line in the supermarket, traffic, diets, to do list, politics, religion, and so on. All this manipulating is strictly done to put another fake problem in place which you think solving it will make life perfect. Let’s say everyday there’s one new problem that’s solved, for me that would mean roughly 23,500 fake problems were created and solved. All this for the purpose of having life a certain way. After all nobody purposely gets in the longest line at the supermarket, but if you did nothing would really change except for maybe not having to solve a fake problem…

Past Maze

If the maze of the past controls you in the present the past will be where you live your life. Why this is unfortunate is because all the past emotional pain will keep you lost in its maze…

The amount of times that you relive something that causes emotional pain is mind boggling because it’s your own mind that does this. And it happens thousands of times throughout your life. This is why most people suffer endlessly because what happened in the past is constantly allowed into the present. And although the body is always in the present moment, the mind is constantly in the maze of somewhere else. This is the constant state most people live their life from. If nothing is done to change this, it will continue until existence in this form ends. This isn’t a philosophy or theory nor is it something I made up, you need only look at this for yourself to see this truth. But If you don’t look at it, you will most likely remain stuck in the maze of your thoughts without a way out.

As a species we seem to be lost in a maze and it’s because looking at ourselves in an investigative way is not something that many people are willing to do. It’s so much easier to point the finger outward. Unfortunately when you point your finger at someone there are three pointing back at you; check this to see its truth. You can ignore this and keep the story that everything will work out or you can take control of your life to some extent and stop attaching to the thoughts that cause your own suffering. After all the same thoughts constantly arise and if they’re not attached to eventually they’ll stop and so will the past maze of emotional suffering they cause…

Inner Turmoil Created

The inner turmoil that keeps you from your peace has nothing to do with life. The turmoil is a creation of your own mind that makes you believe you are not at peace…

There are practical ways to minimize the inner turmoil that causes one to sabotage their own existence. But it has to be understood that the mind creating the turmoil cannot quiet itself. You will have to find out why your own mind is telling you turmoil is needed to cope with life; a life that is controlled by the conditioning to create turmoil. Your own mind creates all the inner turmoil you have by choosing to attach to thoughts that give the turmoil life. This unconscious conditioning is why turmoil arises. The Conditioned Mind creates this as you do things that are destructive to your own well being. Why this turmoil mind set is developed I’m not sure, but I do know it can be described only as insane because your own mind does this.

I know now it was my own mind that created turmoil which arose from within myself. Because of the shift that occurred some years ago there‘s now awareness so inner turmoil doesn’t have to be created anymore. I sit for the sole purpose to develop discipline which allows the mind to settle. If there isn’t discipline your conditioning won’t be understood nor will the reason why turmoil arises. This will lead you to being led around like a puppet on a string. Life does nothing to you, it’s your own mind that does it all. Living in a place of turmoil as opposed to a place of peace will never change until the conditioning that makes it so is changed. All I ever wanted was to be at peace, but I wasn’t aware it was my own mind that created the inner turmoil which made me believe there wasn’t any…

Aware of Awareness

The more awareness you are of what happens in life the more cooperation there seems to be. This doesn’t mean everything will be as it’s wanted, but what happens is there’s awareness of the possibilities…

Life will occur whether there’s awareness of what’s happening or not. What awareness allows is the possibility of a different reaction to what arises and thus a different outcome. It’s pretty much a given that something will arise, there’s not much that can be done in that regard, how it affects a person has many possibilities. Years ago there weren’t many possibilities to the way I reacted to things. My reactions were all based in a very limiting self serving perspective; this was how I was conditioned. I wouldn’t have allowed anyone to do any of the things I did to myself, but yet because I didn’t have awareness to know better, the self sabotaging reactions were what was normal to me. Without awareness of the conditioning that was in place it wasn’t possible to be anyway but how I was.

Although life will always be life as what arises arises, without the self serving view being as prevalent as it once was, it has opened up so many more possibilities in my life. What’s truly beautiful about this is the self sabotage reactions are becoming less and less on their own. Being aware of the way one reacts to what happens is where possibilities arise from. When you’re stuck in a certain view, you’re limited to only that view and the possibility of reaching your full potential is iffy at best. The more one is in harmony with life, the more life cooperates with you. It doesn’t mean everything will be perfect and go the way you think it should be, but the imperfections (only because of a self serving view) won’t limit your possibilities…

Heart Energy

When one truly awakens it’s to an energy which is of the heart. This heart energy lives on in those who are touched by it forever because that’s how the heart works…

There’s one thing that is guaranteed in life and that is everything changes. This is because everything is constantly in motion whether this is realized or not. Last week a person I have known for thirty years passed away. His existence no longer met conditions to sustain life in his current form so he passed on to wherever it is one passes on to. From the time our existence begins, to the time it ends, life is in a constant state of motion, until one day all motion as the body knows it, stops. This is part of the process of existence in this form, it’s not personal, it just is.

It may seem as though life becomes stagnant at times, but it’s only the mind that makes this so. It’s impossible for life to be stagnant. Our cells are constantly changing as is the Universe and when one realizes this, life is lived anew in each moment because life IS anew in each moment. It’s only the Conditioned Mind that wants life to be put in a box of space and time because this is what it uses to try to make sense of things.

Today if you are alive you’re dying, but also today if you’re alive you‘re living. Stagnation creates death, there’s not much life in the Dead Sea, but a sea fed by rivers that flow through it is full of life. When you come to an understanding that it’s only the body that stops functioning, you awaken to the heart energy because it’s the connection to the Universe. No one truly ever dies, we all live on in those who are touched by our heart forever, not for any other reason except that this is the way heart energy works…

High Vibration Energy

When there’s not the constant pull for self satisfying pleasures, your high vibration energy works with whatever talents are within you for the betterment of the Universe…

Let go of the stubbornness that causes you to suffer. It arises as greed, hate, and delusion; it’s the low vibration of stubbornness that causes suffering. Holding onto sense pleasures is a lower vibration energy. The core of holding on is stubbornness and it manifest as the belief that the more one satisfies their sense pleasures the happier they will be. Satisfying these pleasures are not an issue until this low vibration energy takes hold, that’s when problems arise. Remove the mask of stubbornness and what you will be left goes beyond anything you can imagine.

The bondage of wanting pleasure is sought by everyone and has been in place for eons. Forget about going beyond it, it’s no small feat just becoming aware of this. But when there is awareness of the low vibration energy of pleasure seeking, the results are miraculous. There’s no telling what one may experience when pleasure seeking takes a back seat. Your energy will go in a direction not previously known because the pleasure seeking that’s been blocking a higher vibration falls away.

When there’s not the constant pull for pleasure, your high vibration energy works with whatever talent is in you for the betterment of the Universe. There may be a musician, a painter, a gardener or botanist, or even a writer inside you, who knows a book may even be written. I guarantee you this, whatever it is that’s comes from your high vibration energy it will be based in love because that’s just the way the Universe rolls; at least that’s been my experience…

Appropriate Tools

Are the tools you have in place truly appropriate to allow you to love yourself unconditionally and thus love all beings? The key word here is all, not just the ones you deem appropriate…

For many years I did things that I considered appropriate, but after forty nine years of doing this I found myself at such a low point that wasn’t sure if I was able to rise up. There was no I think I can chants, no positive thinking, no meditation, no loving myself. There was much confusion and despair, and the insanity of this is my own mind that developed these tools and deemed them appropriate. Now I know not many get to this place of total despair so it’s difficult to understood how low I was, but I will say this, I’m fortunate beyond words and I will tell you why. When I was twenty eight years old there were ten of us still hanging in a bar in Newark, all of us using alcohol and drugs as suitable tools. Out of those ten individuals eight of them are dead. What’s tragic about this is the tools that each of them accepted as appropriate to live life were the cause of their deaths. Think about how insane this is and how often this is repeated today; insanity to say the least.

When I look back at what I thought were appropriate tools to live by, I see nothing but this insanity. I alone although not intentional caused all my own suffering. Now you may not think this applies to you, but every negative thought one ever has comes from within yourself. It may have been put there by some outer influence, but it was attached to by you and you saw it as appropriate to give it the energy to manifest. I’m not a big negative/positive person, my experience has been more in line with quietness as the most appropriate tool to live by, but it wasn’t always this way. To me the question to ask yourself if you can muster the courage to do so is, are you willing to truly face yourself to see if the tools you have in place are truly appropriate to allow you to love yourself unconditionally and thus appropriately love all beings…

View of Stillness

A Conditioned Mind can only make pre-determined decisions. Only by having a view of stillness can true decisions be made as true decision arise from stillness…

The view of stillness can also be called the view of love. When this is the view that life is seen through, what you see is so different than an unconscious view; by unconscious I mean a view that blindly conforms to what the conditioned world offers. As life is experienced more and more through the view of stillness, the observations are centered more in love and there are less responses to decisions based on your conditioning. This leads to an unconventional way of living life because you’re not affected by the decisions based in the world. Through viewing life in this way, it is so different than what people have become accustomed to.

Most decisions people make are based on how the Conditioned Mind view controls them. You may think you’re making decisions, but you’re only doing what you’ve been conditioned to do. This is the way you have to be, there really isn’t a choice; this is all part of the conditioned view. Look at the nonsense that goes on between your ears. It’s truly mind boggling how the mind is controlling ever decision made as if you were a puppet on a string. If you don’t think this is so try and sit still for a half hour in silence. If you can’t do it don’t be discouraged not many can. And if you can’t control your own mind when you’re consciously trying to do it, what makes you think you’re in control when you’re not trying. It’s so hard to do because the unconscious view blindly conforms to the conditioning of the world and most people haven’t a clue this is their view…

Slander Energy

Slandering someone arises from the small self (ego) because there’s lack within. This lack creates the need to feel superior. A person has to subconsciously fill this lack and make themselves feel superior to the person they’re slandering…

The reason why slandering someone is so damaging is because of the energy emitted when it’s being done. This energy arises from one’s own lack of self worth and it engulfs all those involved with this lacking energy. It doesn’t affect the one who is being slandered because for the most part they’re unaware it’s being done. Slandering someone is also very damaging because it involves multiple people. It’s like the energy of a riot, neither can occur with just one person. Once a person starts this slandering and another person unconsciously attaches to it it will expand. And depending on who’s in the room and how unconscious (lacking) they are it will expand even further. It will only be attached to by those who have lack because it’s done to fill lacks void. Even if the slandering about another person is warranted no one is perfect enough to cast the first stone. All humans are fallible and act selfishly at times and that’s mainly the energy of those who slander.

The small self (ego) slanders because it needs to feel superior to others. So, when I talk about you it’s only to subconsciously make myself feel superior to you. After all slander is never about anything good, it mostly invokes negative energy. Slander is what happens when there’s idle time and not much is going on. It’s difficult not to be pulled into slanders energy because there’s not many people who don’t like to feel superior to another person. Slander is shallow and unless there’s truly an understanding that you’re complete just the way you are and there’s no need to talk about anyone else, one will continue to harm themselves by talking about others and keeping the selfish energy of slandering in place…

Inward Awareness

It’s the outer view of satisfying “I” that keeps you from the inner awareness of your own innate beauty. This awareness will only occur when your view comes from looking inward…

Although no one is more special than another in this existence, there are some who do see things quite differently. What makes this happen for some and not others is some are more inclined to not attach to a outer view. This allows for much more inner awareness than if you are in the grip of a mind based view. I have lived two existences, one in the outer direction where there was much self created suffering, and the other which is a inner view in the direction of awareness. The differences in the two views is one creates suffering and is done in ignorance. The other is lived in awareness of the ignorance. Today my view is as it is because the outer distractions don’t control me as they once did. There’s awareness of the world, but I’m not controlled by it.

There’s awareness that occurs as the outer view is let go of. This space allows wisdom and insights. This space is directly linked to the letting go of “I”. It’s “I” that attaches and it’s the cause of all suffering. Ever so slowing when one begins to look inward the outer distractions of “I” fall away. To me this is what was revealed to the great mystic’s; they were considered special, but all they did was look inward. This looking inward is available to all, but you will have to overcome the outer view of “I” to not be distracted from it. It is the outer view that keeps you from the inner awareness of seeing your own innate beauty and it will only be seen when you begin to look inward…

Space of Trust

There’s existence through made up stories or there’s the bigger picture beyond the stories where one is guided and free of the stories because there’s space that radiates trust…

When the mind is settled the space of trust opens up instead of reliance on your own limited stories. There’s a deep trust that radiates when the mine is settled and it’s in this settling that you see the existence of life itself. So when one is in the space of a settled mind the everlasting trust of the Universe is there to quiet the mind agitations which are the cause of all your stories.

A mind that’s settled allows for the space to live from a trusting heart of love. This connects you with the goodness of all of life, your own internal goodness, and the goodness of all beings. The connection is already within, but it’s not known what it will take to be aware of it. The only reason there isn’t awareness of the space of trust is because there are conditioned mind agitations blocking the trust that arises from the space of our heart; theses blocks allow for all kinds of made up nonsense (stories).

When it’s learned to develop discipline so the mind settles, our agitations slowly subside; what naturally remains is the space of trust in the Universe. This trust is in the space beyond the noise of a Conditioned Mind, beyond your made up stories. In this space there’s trust because with a settled mind it’s known who you truly are. So trust in the Universe with all your heart and allow the mind to settle so you’re not relying on your own made up stories. In the space of trust life is lived in the most beneficial of ways; as the trusting beautiful being of love that you truly are…

No Shortcuts

Hold on to all your beliefs. March, protest, whine, judge and slander in the name of righteousness, just know this energy is unloving and it makes waking up that much more difficult…

There are no shortcuts in waking up from the sleep of unconsciousness. You cannot think your way to consciousness, but for some reason you can think your way to misery; all one needs to do is look around and see this truth. It will take what it takes for ever how long that is to wake up. For many that may be a lifetime. My experience of the shift of my view that took place was and is a happening not a doing. It’s the transformation of energy from an “I” view to one of quietness. I may do certain things now that puts me in alignment with this quietness energy, but the transformation remains a happening not a doing. To me this goes for Buddha, Jesus, and anyone else who has ever awakened, it’s something that’s bestowed upon a person, it’s not something that is chosen.

Many get stuck because an awakening is thought to be a doing and because of this most people remain stuck in “I” which is form. Until it’s understood “form is emptiness, emptiness is form, “l” remains in control as it keeps trying to do. This is not what I think, this is what’s going on right now in my life and has been for the last thirteen years; there was total unconsciousness of this for forty nine years. Hold on to all your beliefs, do what you think needs to be done. Judge in the name of righteousness, just know this energy is unloving and makes waking up that much more difficult…

Mindful of Your End

The road that leads to a peaceful life begins and ends in your end. You can be mindful that you’re thinking about what someone else is doing, but the only place you’ll ever be free is in your own end…

When a practice of mindfulness is in place it’s to allow the present moment to be experienced, this is the place of your end. Being mindful of what’s actually happening as opposed to being pulled around by it determines the amount of peace there is in your life by allowing you to mind your end. Life is magical in its essence, but there’s nothing magical in minding your end. All roads that lead to a peaceful life begin and end in the present moment and a mindfulness practice will assist in keeping you in your end.

Watch a thought and be mindful of it, now watch another, this is a tool as is the breath to be used to keep you in your own end. One cannot be mindful of being in someone’s else’s end in the past or future. You can be mindful that you’re thinking about someone’s end in the past or future, but you can never actually be there. Every watched thought or breath can only be taken as it is happening. The more you become mindful of this, the more focused you become in the body and being in the present moment (your end) as opposed to grasping for the story of someone else’s end. Be mindful of this article only pertaining to you and then be mindful of what arises. Just be with it by being mindful of what’s happening. It’s in the space of mindfulness that you will find the peace of your end and this is because the only thing that’s there is how anyone else is conditioned is not in your end…

Conscious Space

Not justifying everything you do creates the space needed to go beyond the unconscious view that’s in place. This allows enough consciousness to change the way things are looked at…

When it’s said one is conscious it can be described as being aware of all the different mental factors that arise in each moment; this allows knowing why you see things as you do. It doesn’t prevent what arises or what happens, but it can lessen the reactions and some of the consequences associated with an unconscious view; but only if there’s awareness and there’s no attachment. No view inherently causes problems for anyone, alcohol never poured itself down someone’s throat. To reach for it it has to be viewed as beneficial. Same for drugs or gambling, neither causes anyone to abuse them, it’s the individual alone who views them as beneficial. Granted most of this self harming reaching is done unconsciously, but I do what I do today to try and shed light on this. I know a thing or two about this unconscious view because it was mine for forty nine years.

So many things unconsciously controlled me and as long as I was unaware of this, they view continued its onslaught of control. How this unconscious view gets deeply ingrained is by justifying everything you do. From pointing out the faults of others, to being nasty to people, and so many other justified behaviors, all they do is keep the unconscious view in place. Conscious that this is being done is the first step in breaking the chains of unconsciousness view. Stop looking out there for answers, stop blaming and talking about others, in other words stop justifying everything you do and this just may create the space needed to allow you to go beyond the way you look at things. After all, if the way you unconsciously view things doesn’t change, the onslaught of being controlled by an unconscious view will remain…

Moment of Now

The moment of Now with life simply occurs because one is alive. As a matter of fact, it even occurs when one isn’t alive, there just isn’t awareness the moment of Now is happening…

Because of the way one is conditioned, each moment of Now with life is put into a category of pleasant or unpleasant; there are also times it seems the moment of Now is neither. The only reason anyone has an issue with life is because it’s desirable to have each moment of Now pleasant; this is impossible because life isn’t designed this way. Not that life does anything to anyone, but things do happen that can be considered downright nasty. Case in point, the on going recent worldwide events. There can be attachment that the process going on is unpleasant, but it wouldn’t change what’s happening. It would only change the degree of suffering; the suffering would be a direct result of attaching to wanting it different. This doesn’t mean one likes what’s happening, but you can be in a state of mind of being with the unpleasant and not attach the label to it…

Life just rolls along, it stops for nothing. The moment of Now is one continuous motion. It may seem like individual things happen, but that’s only because of the way we have been conditioned to use time and break life up. The unpleasant is constantly pushed away to try and make room for the pleasant as if when one decides it’s pleasant, it makes life perfect. But for there not to be suffering, life has to be deemed as perfect with what’s happening right now because that’s what’s there. The Conditioned Mind wants life pleasant all the time and until one can be with the unpleasant the same as the pleasant there will be self created suffering. This is because of always trying to arrange the moment of Now the way you think it should be (pleasant) and not be with what’s actually happening…

Holding On Restricts

Whatever it is that you hold on to it becomes your restricting energy. If you don’t stop holding on so there’s some space created that’s needed for you to love, you’ll suffer the most…

The so called choice to hold on to things is the gateway to suffering, but there really isn’t a choice here because of the way the Conditioned Mind is in control. Your suffering is inevitable because of the conditioned holding on that’s in place. If this is to change you will have to create space so the holding on is replaced by first stillness and second by love; there’s no way around this. Hold on to whatever the flavor of the day, week, month, or year is, just understand there will always be something to cling to which will cause you to suffer. Today it’s politics, tomorrow it’s a co worker, the job, traffic, weather, relatives, and so on. This will never change until there’s space for love. If you hold on to one individual and bemoan them you don’t truly have the space for love in your heart. This is strong language, but it’s true.

Unconditional love can only be without one iota of holding on. This is a truth the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow most to see. I can say I have love for all humanity, what I don’t love is humanity’s conditioning, but I do understand it and I choose not to hold on to conditioned nonsense. To hold on to things is to suffer regardless of who or what you are holding on to because it becomes your restricting energy. Until this is understood you become the very thing that you show discontent towards. This is a Universal Law; you cannot be separate from the energy that comes from you because it is you. Stop holding on and create space in your heart for love, if you don’t you are the one who will suffer the most by remaining with the restricting energy of what you are holding on to…

Aversion Within

All aversion arises from within. Without discipline the mind that’s full of aversion won’t have any peace so you will look externally for it and constantly blame others…

Aversion is ego based because it comes from the Conditioned Mind. If you’re in a state of aversion with what’s written here, that arises from within you; the words don’t cause it. It doesn’t matter if you agree with this or not, just understand if there’s aversion that it comes from within you, not from what’s written. Oh how we love to blame others for our own self created aversion, but the only reason this is so is because of the lack of understanding of our own mind.

Nothing causes aversion unless it’s allowed. If you can change something by all means change it, but if it’s being changed just because you don’t like it, it needs to be looked at why there’s aversion to begin with because even if the thing is changed, you will just move on to the next thing that will cause you to become agitated and then have aversion once again. Truth is the same for all beings, but how one comes to its understanding is from within. When you sit in stillness, revealed are answers to your questions, this is when aversion with yourself and with the world will be no more…

Life Phases

The difference between learning from each phase of life or not is living it to its highest quality or being stuck where life is the same old same old. You will either break free from the lie of “I” or remain its prisoner…

It seems as though life happens in phases, at least this has been my experience. And you will have to go through these different phases if you’re not to get stuck in the one that’s in place now. Not everyone goes beyond the phase that’s in place. Some remain stuck for years, even a life time. Although the phases themselves happen naturally, learning and going to the next phase does not; the quality of your life will be determined by what is learned in a previous and current phase. Life is something that happens on its own, but there is a certain responsibility in making it of the highest quality. A simple example of this would be when you were at the phase of your life when it was time to read. If you didn’t take responsibility to learn this, to say that life would be difficult today would be an understatement. So at this phase of your life you did what was necessary to make it of a higher quality.

As I’ve grown up over the years, I’ve noticed there were many phases in my life, but not all provided the highest quality of living because of the things I did which didn’t allow it. The phases of life will come, but what’s being learned is where maturity comes from. To me the biggest lesson was learning to expose the lie of “I” because that’s what I found was the biggest hurdle to living the highest quality of life possible. It’s not that I’m now all about helping others, but what I learned was life is just not all about me and what I think. Therein lies the difference between learning from each phase or being stuck in a phase where life is the same old same old…

Surface Noise

Surface noise won’t quiet on its own regardless of what your belief system is. Beliefs actually hinder the quieting because they’re just a response to surface noise that blocks your inner presence…

If the surface noise is in control and running your life it doesn’t matter much what’s going on, it’s going to be difficult to be at place. It’s such a noisy world and what makes it so is most people are looking for a surface answer when the answer is within. What the surface noise actually is and how it’s created is by not being aware that you have already been given your answers. With a mind that’s conditioned to look on the surface you have to constantly look for answers, hence the surface noise. This is how the surface noise of a Conditioned Mind is formed and how it blocks awareness of your inner presence. It’s surface noise created because if you knew you had your answers the need to look for them would be non existent and so would the surface noise.

Everyone has the ability to consciously remove the surface noise, but it’s not something that’s going to happen on its owns. Your peace is in your hands and it’s totally up to each individual how much peace is brought into their life. A little awareness equates to a little peace so it’s up to each individual to do what’s necessary to become more aware of the surface noise. As you develop discipline to be in the present moment the surface noise quiets as you’re left with an inner presence. If you are waiting for anything else you’ll be waiting a very long time and it won’t happen as long as you’re looking on the surface…

Stuck in Place

As long as there is seeking there will always be seeking and one will remain stuck in place, exerting all kinds of energy, but not really getting anywhere…

What keeps a person stuck in place on the path of seeking is trying to manufacture peace, love, kindness, mindfulness, spirituality, and so on, instead of aligning yourself through discipline with the present moment. This is what doesn’t allows these attributes to arise naturally. This is also what keeps stuck energy in place. Stuck energy is circular (like a dog chasing its tail) so it’s never going to produce anything that’s going to get you to stop being stuck. You may think it stops because it’s given a different label, but as long as you think you have to do something to manufacture a certain desired result, stuck in place will continue regardless of what it’s called.

The seeking of desired results makes a person use an an array of things, from sweets, drugs, alcohol, gambling, tv, success, sex, programs, another book, retreats, meditation, and many other things. What these all have in common is they reinforce the stuck in place energy of seeking which is attached to by the Conditioned Mind. A true transformation of the spirit cannot be manufactured. This is because seeking energy is the exact energy that blocks the alignment that allows energy to transform. Only when you stop being stuck in place can a transformation or shift occur. As long as there is seeking there will always be seeking and you will remain stuck in place, exerting all kinds of energy, but not really getting anywhere…

Inner Strife

Nothing that happens in life creates inner strife unless your own mind allows it. This is the insanity of a Conditioned Mind, its self destructive solutions are all from within and they take away your peace…

The bottom line for me is I’ve found a practical way to minimize the inner strife in my life that causes my own destruction. Which by the way is my own mind creating the inner strife telling me it’s needed to cope with life; a life that was controlled by a destructive mind set. My own mind created all the inner strife that went on by choosing actions I thought I wanted to do, but my choices always caused strife. I developed a mind that told me to do things that were self destructive. From relationships, to drugs, alcohol, gambling, and a slew of other things, nothing was ever chosen that was beneficial for me; my choices always seemed to cause more harm than good. How this mind set developed I’m not sure, but I do know this, it can be described as pure insanity.

Thirteen years ago although it wasn’t a white light experience, an inner urging occurred that was tired of all the destructive behavior. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen, but I did know I needed to find a way to bring peace into my life. A label needn’t be applied to what happened to me. All that was needed to know is my behavior which was once totally self destructive is no longer this way. This is why labels and what others do isn’t a concern of mine. Because I know for years my own mind allowed these things to create strife within myself and because of the shift that has occurred, there’s an awareness that inner strife doesn’t have to be created anymore. The bottom line is this, when I have an issue with something it’s my own self destructive mind that creates it and this means I’m not a peace. And now because there is awareness of this, if I don’t allow my mind to do this, inner strife isn’t created and I have found without it I’m at peace. So again the bottom line is not to create inner strife. All I ever wanted in my life was peace, but I didn’t know it was my own mind that was the cause of why there wasn’t any…

Surface Dweller View

The root of all struggles are deep, they’re not just at the surface level. They’re rooted in the structure of how you think. If you don’t investigate this beyond being a surface dweller nothing will ever change…

Changing the surface dweller mind structure is like turning a ship. The intention to turn happens right away, but the turn itself is very gradual. It’s as though we know we need to start turning right away, but we don’t see below the surface. Here’s a simple suggestion if you want to get in touch with breaking free of this ingrained surface dwelling structure, and it’s not complicated. When you do something, investigate the surface dweller view. No reason to go back and look for a traumatic incident, why it’s seen only from the surface level is sufficient.

If the need to reach for something happens because life throws you a curve ball and you don’t investigate why the need to reach arose, you’ll probably use a surface distraction not to succumb to it. But by doing this you’ll never be free because you’ll never get in touch with why the surface dweller view is in place. Investigating why you’re a surface dweller is the most important thing you can do for yourself when something is done that’s not in your best interest. If you don’t, you will just substitute one thing for another and in the process remain trapped to what’s causing the need to reach. You may not like this post and you may even ignore it, but don’t be surprised when the next life curve ball comes and you find yourself reaching for something, you just won’t know why because you’re viewing it as a surface dweller…

Addicted to Self

If it wasn’t for the attachment to a self that creates bondage, addiction would be non existent because the desire of a self needing to be satisfied would never occur…

Each day most of our waking hours are spent trying to arrange the day to satisfy self. The only problem with this is most of our day is wasted trying to arrange the day to our liking. This occurs because we have been conditioned to believe there is a self that needs to be satisfied. This conditioning keeps the mind addicted to this self which creates a constant state of needing to be satisfied. And when the mind needs to be satisfied it will use whatever tools it has developed. Not so much to quiet this, but more so to distract from it. The distractions in this case manifest as Conditioned Mind Patterns that are constantly trying to arrange life by using whatever it deems necessary to satisfy this false self.

If it wasn’t for the need to satisfy self, these cravings caused by your own mind wouldn’t exist. This is the cause of the constant rearranging of life and it’s because the self needs to be satisfied. But something would exist without the addiction to this self and that would be peace. This is the peace of just being because the addiction to the self wouldn’t exist. If you don’t think this is true it’s probably because of the addiction to self. This addiction doesn’t allow your mind to settle so you can be aware of the peace that passes all understanding and go beyond the cravings brought on to satisfy self. Until this changes, nothing changes…

Thoughts Limits

Every thought used to describe something limits it to whatever thought is applied. Judgements, labels, concepts and beliefs are all thoughts that limit access to what the Universe has to offer…

The Universe needs no permission to do what it does. It only responds to things out of necessity. It does so unconditionally without thought. It exist as it is, adding nothing because nothing is needed. It is self sustaining. It creates, it destroys, but it neither loves nor hates in the sense of emotions. Its beauty is awe inspiring and arises from a space that can’t be described. It’s pure energy and it is from this energy that everything is created.

This is existence in its purest state. The moment a thought is applied to this it loses it sense of purity. Once something is thought about it creates blockage. So be in the unlimited space of what is and be with all the Universe has to offer. All the beauty of the Universe is within each and every person. It’s where everyone arose from. Only an applied thought limits the awareness of all the magnificence the Universe has to offer…