Creating a Tainted Reality

Truth always arises before a label is applied, but once a label is applied it becomes an interpretation, and because truth can’t be labeled as anything other than truth, it becomes tainted.

Life is always as it is regardless of the story that’s made up, but this story is what creates your reality. This reality is not about what happens in the present moment because that will always be as it is, it’s about how what happens in the present is interpreted and thus becomes tainted; this is the reality that’s created. There’s a lot of chaos in our world because of the tainted reality people create. This has nothing to do with what actually arises, it’s because of the evolution of the human mind; this is what causes all the chaos. It all comes down to the stories that are made up. Life will always be as it is, it’s impossible to be any other way, but because everyone sees things as their conditioning dictates, the arisen moment takes on many different interpretations. These interpretations are what creates a person’s reality, and because most people are closed minded, what is seen is perceived as truth.

Truth always arises before a label is applied, but once a label is applied it becomes an interpretation and the truth of the arisen moment becomes tainted. It has to because truth can’t be labeled as anything other than truth, so the moment it’s labeled as this or that “Bam” it’s tainted. Because of the way the human mind has evolved and has the need to be right, it makes it very difficult to see what’s really going on in life; this is why reality has to be created. Our evolved minds make it difficult to see that someone else may have more of an understanding of something than we have, so we unconsciously remain in the bondage to our tainted reality. Until one can stop applying a label to what arises in the moment, creating a reality will have to be done, and this will occur regardless of how tainted that reality may be.

Ending the Inner War

It’s the thinking mind that makes one’s own mind a battlefield. It’s the heart that throws out the white flag to surrender, but not to be defeated, it’s done to end the war so the suffering stops.

Make no mistake, there’s a war being fought within humanity, but understand it’s not a war against each other, or good and evil, and it has nothing to do with demonic forces versus godly forces, it’s a war between love and selfishness and the battlefield is between one’s own ears. It’s the battlefield of your own mind and until this is seen at the deepest level of the heart, the war will continue and the battlefield of where it’s being fought, one’s own mind will remain. Most everyone thinks there’s a war going on with something from the outside, such as a war on drugs, or politics, religions, race, or whatever else is used to disguise where the battlefield is, but make no mistake, it’s always in the same place; your own mind.

The weapons of this war are plentiful, but their root is all the same and it’s based in selfishness. Only when this is understood will the battlefield be identified along with the possibility of the war ending. This war is between love and selfishness and it has been going on since humans evolved to the point of being able to think. It’s the thinking mind that makes one’s own mind a battlefield. It’s the heart that throws out the white flag to surrender, but not to be defeated, it’s done to end the war so the suffering stops. Until this is realized, the war between love and selfishness will continue because one will remain in bondage to the battlefield of their own mind…

Looking at Yourself

The only obstacle there is to being free is truly looking at yourself and until you do look at you, true freedom is something that will always be out there in the next thing reached for.

Consider life as water and emotions as a flood, if you’re on low ground you will be overcome by the flood waters (emotions), but if you’re on high ground the same flood water will come, but the way it affects you will have a much different outcome. This is what happens when a person looks at themselves, you’re naturally on higher ground which builds up a defense against your emotional flood water. Without looking at yourself there will be no defense against the flood water because you will be stuck on low ground and on low ground when the flood water arises, some form of destruction will be the result and the severity of the flood (emotional attachment) determines the destruction.

The flood water only affects what’s on low ground, and our lower nature manifest as emotional attachments. The destructiveness of this attachment is determined by what is reached for, drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, food, and so on. Although not everything reached for is destructive, some just have much more destructive potential than others. If you don’t look at yourself there won’t be awareness of the nature of what’s reached for. To me, the key is looking at yourself because it puts you on higher ground so when the flood waters come it has less affect on you. This is the value of looking at and understanding yourself, it allows you to not be flooded emotionally by circumstances that occur. Although the flood waters will arise, because you are on higher ground you aren’t affected like the person who’s stuck on lower ground and is reaching for a life preserver, in whatever form that may be.

Caught in Thought

Peace isn’t something achieved or attained so it’s in doing less that peace arises. Too many people get caught in the thought of trying to find peace when it’s something that’s already within you…

You will never find the peace that you’re seeking if you’re caught in the thought of finding peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way we’re conditioned, we get caught in the thought that peace is something out there. Unfortunately getting caught in this thought makes the very thing you are seeking impossible to grasp. This getting caught in thought is the reason you’re in constant need for something from the outside. Until this is seen, one will remain caught in the though that peace is in the next thing attained. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, and on and on, this needing is proof that you are caught. I can’t stress this enough as going beyond being caught in your thoughts will have to be seen if one is to ever experience true peace.

It’s impossible for the thought of peace to provide peace, but what does have to happen if one is to experience peace is, there has to be an understanding of why there’s a need for peace. Again, that there isn’t peace is only because of being caught in the thought of not being at peace. When the thought of fulfilling a need arises, being caught begins. This is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Peace isn’t something attained so it’s in doing less that peace arises. Too many people get caught in the thought of trying to find peace when it’s something that’s already within you; the thought of finding peace needs to be let go if you are to see this. This is not easy, but it’s why I share. Understand though, I only share to point inward so being caught by your thoughts can be seen for what it is; the only reason why there isn’t peace…

Ego Creates Itself

There's no harmony when the egos energy is running the show and simply put without harmony we have everyone going in different directions trying to attain a certain selfish status...

Nothing really means all that much in the grand scheme of life when it comes to achieving a certain status in our society, not that there's anything wrong with this, but it doesn't equate to anything except to the egos energy. This energy is what actually makes the ego what it is; it creates itself. When ego energy is embraced, it creates an I am special aura or a look at me persona, but the truth of the matter is, when it's time to leave this world, nothing is taken with you. I've learned one very important lesson in my life and that is my life has nothing to do with me, I say this in the sense of what any life is all about. Life itself doesn't really care what occurs, it’s the ego that makes it important by the story it creates of "I". It attaches to “I” and adds all kinds of things that creates a look at me persona. A celebrity status goes to most people's head, but it doesn’t really mean anything. Just loving and keeping things in their proper perspective is what gets it done for me, with the "it" being a level of quietness that doesn't need an ego story to be.

Anything added to life doesn't really enhance it in any way. Being with life as it is and not needing it to be of a certain status is so much more beneficial as an energy than putting out ego energy. So much of the ego energy is reinforced by the things of”I” and it's why the world is the way it is. The ego can't exist without a certain energy that feeds it and without awareness of this, just by the design of idolizing, the egos energy is constantly reinforced. I'm right and you are wrong energy is also the kind of energy that's in place and it makes for many ego charged situations. There's no harmony when the egos energy is running the show and simply put without harmony we have everyone going in different directions trying to attain a certain selfish status...

Concept of Me

Nothing is the whole of anything unless it’s labeled as so, and who does this labeling, but the idea of a me which only exist because of forming a delusional concept.

The concept of a me is what keeps one wandering helplessly for possibly countless lifetimes; simply put, the concept of a me does this. The concept of me is not who you are, nor is it the mind, nor I, nor does it truly have anything to do with you, it's just a concept that keeps you in bondage to "there's a me" story. It's always the story itself that keeps you bondage and although it may seem as though what's being used to create the story keeps you in bondage, it’s not. It can't be because there's nothing real to a story and this is because it's of the mind and there's nothing real that comes from the mind; it's only as real as yesterday's dream. If it's about something that happened, that means you are bringing the past into the present and this creates a delusional mindset. If you're bringing the future into the present, again you're creating a delusional mindset by not being with what's actually happening, and it’s always a conceptual me that does this.

This is what happens when the concept of a me is the driving energy behind how one lives. If everything done is derived from a conceptual me than life will be delusional because me is delusional; me is an idea, a concept, it's made up. It's not that there isn't existence, but unless you can truly see where this me is, it will cause problems if it's attached to you. What I mean by this is if you take the concept away of what you think me is, what's left? You have been labeled (named) for identification purposes and all the other labels just fall in line, son, daughter, brother, sister, and so on. Without an applied label where is this me? You have a body, but you are not the body. Nothing is the whole of anything unless it’s labeled as so, and who does this labeling, but the idea of a me that only exist because of a delusional concept.

Stirred Up Mind

Discipline to see that the mind is always stirred up has to be established if one is to ever experience peace. Mind agitations will arise, how to quiet them is what has to be developed.

Until one establishes discipline that allows the mind to slow down, what’s used to keep it stirred up determines what one’s state of being will be. There are many things used to keep the mind stirred up and it’s one’s conditioning that determines this. Whether the stirred up mind manifest as sex, drugs, alcohol, food, false pride, trying to control life and others, talking about others in a slanderous way, or whatever is being used to keep the mind stirred up, it will not stop until the agitation is satisfied. Even then it doesn’t remain satisfied for long so it basically will always be stirred up and agitated until discipline is learned. Simple, but very difficult.

When these mind agitations arise, if the necessary discipline has been developed, the mind will slow and one’s instinctual reactions will be based in love. If not one’s reactions will probably be of a self serving variety and manifest in some form that’s probably not conducive to one’s well being. It’s best to develop discipline that allows the mind to slow down so one isn’t controlled by its agitations. If discipline isn’t developed, the arisen agitation will constantly keep the mind stirred up as the agitation has to be satisfied; something will be reached for. Most of us are conditioned to have a stirred up mind and are controlled by our agitations, that’s why its so important to develop discipline, to me it’s the only thing that slows the mind. Learn to have a mind that quiets somewhat because the choice is to have one that is always stirred up and agitated. As long as the mind is stirred up it will control you as if you were a puppet on a string, this is one’s choice, but without discipline there really isn’t one.

Less is More

Regardless if this is agreed with or not, there’s no way around adding to your life as being from selfish energy and until this is seen, the need to add to it will continue even though less is more…

You will either spend your time adding things to your life that you think will enhance your state of well being or you will understand that less is more and adding anything isn’t necessary because it won’t satisfy the craving of adding. The selfishness I wrote about the last two days will not be understood by the need to add mind, it will only be understood when the mind settles. Most people will spending 99.9% of their lives adding to it only to find out at the end that the adding never enhanced it one bit. You see, this is because nothing is missing so no matter what you add it means nothing. When it’s understood less is more therein lies your peace.

Understanding how YOUR mind works, not the mind the experts and all their books talk about, but YOUR mind which probably has never been studied, is a must if the habitual patterns of needing to add are ever going to be broken. I know people don’t like this, but unfortunately at the core of this need to add mind is selfish energy. People want everything that’s written to be nicey nice, but the Conditioned Mind is diabolical and nicey nice won’t allow you to go beyond your conditioning. What I write doesn’t haven’t to be agreed with, but it would behoove you to sit and investigate it before discounting it. I am not a know it all in any sense. What I do know at least somewhat is my own mind, and because I tried adding to my life for forty nine years without ever being satisfied for more than 10 seconds, it has opened a view of less is more that few see. There’s no way around adding to your life as being from selfish energy and until this is seen, the need to add to it will continue even though less is more…

Selfish Cravings Part 2

Live in alignment with Universal Love because the more this is done, the more you can be an instrument to spread that love; not in a way that you think, but in a way the Universe wants it to be…

If what you do is done just to satisfy you, don’t be surprise if you have inner struggles; this occurs because selfish energy is never satisfied. What happens when the energy one is living by is based in selfishness is plain and simple, it blocks out loving energy. If you don’t think this is so take your head out of the sand and look around. Me, me me, energy is all around and it will never end as long as you are the base of your focus. Reaching for anything, from tobacco products, sex, alcohol, drugs, self help books, programs, tattoos, and whatnot can be measured by how others benefit from what you are doing. If there’s any attachment to it for your own benefit it becomes a liability to humanity. You may think this will make life mundane, but I say it doesn’t, there is less attachment in my life than ever before and it’s the fullest it’s ever been. Anything I do is done to put my energy in alignment with the Universe. When I come from a place of selfishness which I do at time because I to have been conditioned to do so, there’s nothing beneficial that comes from it.

I’ve learned this the hard way by being controlled by the constant need to reach to nearly the point of my own destruction. Selfish energy is so destructive, but its subtleness makes it that only a very settled mind will see this. All reaching is based in selfishness, this has nothing to do with doing what’s necessary to survive, it goes beyond that. The gauge is if what you are doing puts you in harmony with life or if it put you in harmony with fulfilling selfish cravings. Until the selfish cravings are seen for what they are, doing them will be justified as that’s what the Conditioned Mind does, it locks you into you. Even people who want a better world do it because of some selfish desire to be satisfied. Live healthy, not because it looks good or feels good, do it because the more there’s alignment with Universal Love, the more you can be an instrument to spread that love; not in a way that you think, but in a way the Universe wants it to be…

Selfish Cravings Part 1

Reaching for something such as a cigarette, donut, candy, getting a tattoo or whatever else is being reached for benefits no one…it’s only done to satisfy a selfish craving…

Reaching energy is selfish and its base of fulfillment is “I”. Reaching is only done to satisfy yourself and it’s the energy of why the world is as it is. Here are some examples of how the reaching energy reinforces “I” which is based in pure selfishness. No matter how you try to justify the following behaviors, they’re based in selfishness and will keep you in the bondage to “I”. The first example is using tobacco products. When this is done there’s absolutely no benefit in this action except to fulfill the lie that the action is a benefit to you, it’s not even a true benefit to you, but your Conditioned Mind tells you it is. Next, how about reaching for a cookie or other sweets? It’s done strictly to satisfy the selfish craving of “I”. There’s no true benefit to this reaching except to satisfy a Conditioned Mind lie that the thing being reached for is needed. There’s nothing inherently right or wrong with these things, it’s the reaching to satisfy the selfish craving that is the issue, and this is because it blocks one from their own loving energy and hence the love that one emits to others.

This selfish energy is very subtle that most won’t ever see this, but let’s go a little deeper and see the selfish energy of let’s say getting a tattoo. Again it’s an action that has no benefit whatsoever except to fulfill a selfish craving and it’s why people get multiple tattoos. Even if you think a tattoo has sentimental value, its a lie because that means you are still reaching outside yourself for fulfillment. Someone asked me, what about writing an article everyday, isn’t that done to satisfy a selfish craving? My answer was this, the gauge if something is selfish or not is how it benefits someone else. Reaching for a cigarette, donut, candy, getting a tattoo or whatever else is being reached for benefits no one, it’s only done to satisfy a selfish craving. This is a true measurement to gauge where your energy is focused. So I say “reach for the stars” just know if no one else truly benefits from it, it’s probably selfish.

Love Revealed

A person doesn’t wake up because something from the outside shakes them…it occurs because the love in their heart is revealed…everyone has this love because everyone has a heart…

When a person has a shift, they wake up from the state of being asleep and unaware of what truth is. When this occurs the understanding of what has happened isn’t truly realized. In my own case I knew something happened because my view of life became different, but I didn’t know what it meant. I did know for the first time in my life I was at peace. I likened this peace as though I was broken (which I was spiritually), but my heart opened to love I wasn’t aware of. I didn’t wake up because something from the outside shook me, I woke up because the love in my heart that I already possessed was revealed. I didn’t know the value of this at first, as a matter of fact I didn’t even know I had love in my possession. Even when some do become slightly aware of this, it very easily could be mistaken, and for me it was for many years. As I look back throughout my life, I had an inkling that love existed, but it was always dismissed, and because of this I kept looking for what I already possessed.

Nothing is given to us from the outside that the inside doesn’t already have in its possession, but because of the conditioning in place, there’s no awareness of this. Obviously we’re not talking about material possessions, I’m strictly talking about the heart of love that we all possess. This is worth more than anything in the world and it’s also the thing that’s most readily available to everyone, it’s just that the conditioning in place keeps one looking for love out there when all along it has always been in your heart…

A Welcomed Emptiness

The Conditioned Mind creates a lie that when there’s space it needs filling. The heart understands this space as emptiness and until it’s realized it doesn’t need filling, the lie will remain in place.

For many years I had this misunderstood emptiness (space) in me that was created from the lie that I lacked love and that’s why I constantly reached for stuff to fill it; this is no longer the case because this is now understood. This emptiness isn’t emptiness at all, its simply space which is the essence of life. It’s where life happens when one is busy making other plans. By not understanding this I spent most of my life trying to fill an empty space with whatever I could get my hands on. This filling is endless as to what can be used so each individual has to investigate for themselves what that is. It’s ironic because now most of my life is life is spent in the space that for so long I considered an unwelcomed emptiness. Understanding this and not needing to fill the space is the truth that has been revealed to me.

To fill this unwelcomed emptiness is the reason why anyone reaches for anything and it’s because they want the space to be different, hence the filling. If this space was understood for what it truly is, humanity would be much different because contentment would be the way of the world. The needing to fill this space is a lie the Conditioned Mind invents and it keeps one constantly needing the present moment different. This keeps one reaching as the needing to fill the emptiness remains in place. This will need to be understood if the reaching is to ever end. When it is, the space transforms to a welcomed emptiness because the present moment doesn’t have to be different, and when the present moment doesn’t have to be different, life reveals its true essence of space, which doesn’t need to be filled with anything because it’s not empty.

Dynamic Energy

When one isn’t controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your peace, but there isn’t peace because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s peace because your dynamic energy is focused on life as it is.

Dynamic energy controls your life and makes it what it is, but it doesn’t make it what it is because of what you do, it makes it what it is by where your energy is focused. If your focus doesn’t put you in harmony with life, then there won’t be any and hence your life will be the way that it is because it’s the way you are unconsciously making it. It’s actually a beautiful thing when one becomes aware of this because it puts your responses to life in your hands; to me that’s all a person could ask for. When one isn’t controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your peace, but there isn’t peace because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s peace because your dynamic energy is focused on life as it is.

What happens with a mind that has dynamic energy that’s not based in love is it gets kidnapped by its own conditioning and then you are held hostage by your own mind. I know this sounds crazy, but this is exactly what’s happens with a mind that becomes conditioned, and it’s all because of the dynamic energy based to self serve. When the dynamic energy in place focuses on a me, me, me mind, crazy becomes the norm or so it seems, but it’s only because of the dynamic energy making it so. When the dynamic energy changes, the craziness subsides. So when you sit and see what the base of your energy is, you just may be able to change it by refocusing. It will take some time though because of the conditioning in place, but the alternative is to remain the way you are; being controlled by dynamic energy that holds you hostage to it.

Clinging to Being Human

Not only is to err human, it’s also inevitable. It’s the clinging to our humanness that causes attaching to wanting things different which in turn causes one to cling to their own suffering…

If you really want to know what humanities basic error is that keeps most clinging to their own suffering, it’s attaching to being human. It’s not that we aren’t human or that we’ll be able to transcend our humanness, it’s more so to find a way to embrace it, but not to cling to it; clinging to humanness in some way always causes suffering. It doesn’t have to be attached to, but it will take developing discipline for the mind to see this. It’s seems to be human to want things different and it’s always attaching to the story of being human that causes suffering. This is true regardless of what’s wanted different.

It’s always the human self that wants something different and it’s this charade of clinging to being human that pulls one into suffering. Last week I ordered a shirt on line and when it was delivered I tried it on and it didn’t fit. By my initial reaction you would have thought I was going to have to go shirtless; this was simply because I didn’t accept the fact the shirt didn’t fit. This is what clinging to being human does and when I saw how childish this wanting things different was it fell away and I was able to get an exchange for the shirt. You can substitute the shirt with anything and you’ll get the same childish results of suffering. This is all because not only is it human to err, but it’s also the clinging to our humanness that one attaches to wanting things different which in turn causes one to cling to their own suffering…

No Inherent Label

Nothing that arises inherently has a label, that comes from how the individual perceives the arisen moment and attaches a conditioned label of this or that to what arises...

Being in the space of what arises and not attaching a conditioned label to it determines if one truly lives life or if it’s lived in the conditioned realm of a created story of how you think the arisen moment should be. Nothing is inherently good or bad, but when it’s labeled as so it changes the entire dynamics of how the present moment is dealt with. And regardless if it’s labeled good or bad, it creates the same dynamic change of suffering because the labeling makes the moment need to be a certain way. Bad: push it away...Good: pull it in...either way the same discontent is created. Although there may not be awareness of this, the discontent is there nonetheless.

Recently I was on vacation in Florida and it was funny just watching the mind constantly trying to create labels to make the arisen moment into a story. When the sun was out the label was good, when it went in or if a thunder shower passed through, bad. There’s a small gym in the hotel that I went to: nobody in there, good, four people in there, bad. First day on vacation, good, last day, bad. These are but a few, the main thing is to just notice this and not attach, but don’t make not attaching into a story of good or bad. When you can really start to recognize this, the labeling process that gets so engrained in the subconscious because of the Conditioned Mind can start to be let go of; this letting go is as simple as just watching what arises and not attaching a label of good or bad.

Nothing To Do

Needing to do something doesn't enhance life because the doing keeps the mind agitated. It may give the appearance of enhancement, but there's no real benefit to one's energy while trying to do.

The energy of always doing doesn't allow one to be present for what's actually happening and it keeps the mind in a constant state of agitation. When I write about this type of energy it's often misunderstood that I'm saying don't do anything, but that's not what I'm saying. Do whatever it is you think you need to do, just understand the intention and energy behind it so your doing isn't a hinderance to truly experiencing life fully. I watch this very carefully because attaching to this doing energy keeps one a prisoner to it. A created purpose doesn't enhance life and although it may seem that it does or that people are being helped, which they very well may be, there's no true benefit to the one who's energy is of a created purpose; this is my direct experience.

I know some people are helped by the sharing of my experiences, but it's not my purpose. What I do is more of a by product of where I have been led. It doesn't mean I can't put things out there that may help people, I just don't have to make it into a burden by it being my purpose. Not needing to do anything other than what arises allows for the freedom of not creating a story of doing. To me the most important thing in my life is to be in the moment that's happening and not add anything to it. If it's to share, I share. If it's to sit in the body than that's what's done. In this place of not needing to do I've experienced true freedom because it's the only place where a purpose isn't needed nor is the need to do.

Self Created Void

Self Created Void:

There is never a void that isn't created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of yourself. Until this is understood, one will keep creating a void.

Every time someone goes to a program designed for a specific reason, goes to see a therapist, reaches for another self help book, or any other type of outside help, its because of applying a label of having a certain issue which is seen as a problem. When this label is applied, all one is doing is reinforcing the attachment to that label and hence they're keeping themselves in the void of whatever label that’s applied, but it exist only because they themselves have created it. Read this very carefully because why this label is being applied will be the difference in breaking free from creating a void or remaining entrapped to it. It's not that some of the things mentioned don't have value at certain times in one's life, but if they're being held onto as an end to a means, they lose their value as they morph into a void.

Not many will see exactly what I'm talking about here, but I'm writing it because it's what I experienced after many many years of trying to fix an internal void with things from the outside. This void was self created and I have found the very things I was using to fill this void are the very things that were keeping the void in place; this is regardless of what was being used. Why I created this void is what I needed to find out because it didn't truly exist and since it didn't truly exist, why was it there? To me if there’s a constant need to reach outside oneself because of a void, something isn't right. If I can't just be with myself without the reliance on something outside of me, I have to ask myself why this is so. There is never a void that isn't created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside and until this is seen, one will keep creating a void.

Conditioned Substitutions

At the core of the Conditioned Mind is “I” and when “I” is let go of, all the tools that the Conditioned Mind uses fall away along with the substitutions of one thing for another.

Why it’s so important not to put the Conditioned Mind cart before the horse per se is because this doesn’t allow the core conditioning to be seen and substitution becomes the conditioned behavior. The Conditioned Mind has to be understood if this constant barrage of reaching and substituting is to end or at least subside. If the focus is on alleviating one of the tools the Conditioned Mind uses to keep you entrapped to it, you may stop using that tool, but another will simply be put in its place.

The subtleties of the Conditioned Mind are second to none when it comes to keeping the circular bondage energy in place. Many tools are used to keep this energy in place, but they all stem from the core conditioning of “I”. Substituting one thing for another is done when there’s no awareness of this as the Conditioned Mind will simply use one tool instead of another. An example of this would be how it uses atheism (a belief in the non existence of God) the same way it uses faith (a belief in God). As long as a story is being created that keeps the bondage in place, that’s all that matters to it.

Many people think if you can break free of one tool of the Conditioned Mind it means freedom, but my experience has been only breaking free of the core conditioning of “I” provides freedom. The base of all the bondage (tools) of the Conditioned Mind is based in “I” so regardless of what you think you are letting go of, the only thing to truly let go of is “I”. Yesterday someone responded to one of my post that language is at the core of the Conditioned Mind, and I get that’s what is seen, but its not at the core, it’s only a tool. At the core is “I” and when “I” is let go of, all the tools that the Conditioned Mind uses fall away along with the substituting one thing for another.

It's Not Your Fault

The Conditioned Mind is devious and causes much suffering. The more it’s allowed to penetrate the inner psyche the more it will make you think the way you are is your fault, but “It’s not your fault”

All the conditioning in place that makes you do what you do “It’s not your fault”. Every time you use one of the defense mechanisms you have developed over the years that offer you a way to protect yourself “It’s not your fault”. You may think in ways that aren’t truly beneficial to you “It’s not your fault”. You may get angry without understanding why and put yourself down for it, but understand “It’s not your fault”.

The Conditioned Mind is a devious foe, one that causes much suffering. The more it’s allowed to penetrate the inner psyche the more it will make you think the way you are is your fault, but “It’s not your fault” how can it be, you don’t make you thoughts happen. You didn’t choose your name, parents, the school you go to, religion, aunts, uncles, teachers, your upbringing, or any of the other attachments that make you think the way that you do. Your life regardless of the manifested behavior and how it is, is not the fault of anyone and definitely “It’s not your fault”.

I know some will say this makes no one responsible for their actions, and to a large degree this is correct, but how can someone be responsible for something they had nothing to do with “It’s not your fault”. The “It’s not your fault” tool is not something that’s reinforced by society because finger pointing is one of societies main tools, it’s always looking to lay blame; this isn’t societies fault, it’s just the conditioning in place. Until one can see the conditioning for what it is, the belief that you have control over what you do and it’s your fault that you are the way you are will remain firmly in place, but please be easy on yourself and put away the hammer because I’m telling you “It’s not your fault”.

The Difficulty of Doing Nothing

Without awareness of the mind becoming agitated in the absence of something to do, the Conditioned Mind will create story after story just so it has something to do.

The most difficult thing I have ever done in my life is to learn how to do nothing in spite of the conditioning in place telling me to do. To not give in to the mind agitations that tell me to do this, do that, reach for this or reach for that, is so difficult because of the lack of discipline to just be and also the lack of understanding of why not to do is so difficult. Even with discipline and this understanding, it’s difficult because of all the outer influences and inner conditioning. To not do is not something many master, I’m not talking about sitting in meditation or taking a nap, I mean being wide awake without having to do something. For forty nine years this wasn’t noticeable to me because I was never still long enough to be aware of any agitation. I like so many was a doer; a slave to my Conditioned Mind.

For some this doing doesn’t seem like much of an issue because the doings aren’t noticeably destructive, but make no mistake a doing is a doing and one is a slave to doing regardless how productive or subtle it may seem. Without awareness of the mind becoming agitated in the absence of something to do, the Conditioned Mind creates story after story just so it has something to do. The stories base will be whatever conditioning you have in place. You can only do what the conditioning in place dictates and without this agitation being noticed, the conditioning is usually based in doing something for selfish reasons. Even if one wants to save the world, who says the world needs saving. Not doing allows for one to truly be an instrument, not by doing by simply being, but this will only occur if you notice you don’t have to do.

Attach Less Suffer Less

The need to search for a so called spiritual path is there because one wants to feel better and suffer less, but why there’s a search to begin with is because of the attachment to feel better.

Not feeling well mentally is a Conditioned Mind creation and the suffering this causes is a direct result of attaching to the label “not feeling well”. Attach less and you will suffer less. This not attaching takes nothing to occur, it’s simply a matter of not adding the things that cause suffering, with the main thing being not adding attachment. Suffering has nothing to do with what happens, learning to not attach to the things that cause suffering has everything to do if one is to suffer or not. Although the results of what happens affect you at times because of attachment, most times what happens doesn’t happen to you it happens to someone else; even though it doesn’t really happen to anyone, it just happens. This isn’t said to ignore what happens, it’s said because it becomes a tool to use to see how its the attachment and not the actual event that causes suffering.

Many unpleasant circumstances arise and even some horrific things occur, but on the opposite side some beautiful things also happen. The key here is to take them all the same so the unbalanced attached emotions don’t arise and allow the arisen circumstances to control you. From birth to death and all the things in between, emotions will arise and there will be attachment to them, the only difference in them will be how much attachment there is. Attach less and you will suffer less or not and allow the arisen circumstances to control you as if you were an emotional puppet on a string…

Turning to Each Other

No one is an island regardless of how spiritual they are and this is because the more spiritual one is the more it’s understood there’s only one energy and we are one.

Someone posted an article yesterday about sunflowers which I found interesting. Although I knew sunflowers turned towards the sun to absorb its energy, I didn’t know they pointed to each other when it was cloudy out to absorb each other’s energy. This got me reflecting on my own process of awakening and how I too point to the light (silence) to absorb its energy, and how I also point to others to absorb their energy. To me no one is an island regardless of how spiritual they are and this is because the more spiritual one is the more it’s understood there’s only one energy and we rely on each other whether it’s sunny out or cloudy. With this understanding firmly in place it allows one to draw on another’s energy. This is the Law of Attraction, your love and the energy drawn on produces results of that energy.

This energy of the sunflower is of love, but there’s a lot of energy that isn’t of love. These energies aren’t different, they only seem different because their frequency is different. I say the sunflower energy is of love because of the results, flowers are beautiful and useful so how can their energy not be of love. I’ve learned that just because I emanate energy of love it doesn’t mean everyone will love me back. This has nothing to do with me as everyone has their own conditioning in place and will act accordingly. Although everyone has the ability to love, not everyone is on the frequency of love so I turn to those who are on the same frequency as me and I’ve found that although I frequently turn to the light, it’s turning to the love of others that allows me to love.

Aware of Adding

Add anything you’d like to life, but understand the only reason adding is added is because there isn’t contentment with life as it is and you think you have to add to it for it to be complete.

Becoming aware of what you’re adding to your life arises from the inner desire of wanting. When this is seen it becomes a valuable tool in the arsenal of one’s spiritual expansion. This helps the squirrel cage mind settle down so you see what your conditioning is telling you you need to add to your life. It’s could be the driver in front of you who you need to add because you think they should be driving different. Or it may be a piece of cake that you think you need to add because it will fulfill you. How about participating in something so you can add a certificate to the made up identity of who you think you are? This subtle adding can be identified as anything that’s used to change the way you feel about the moment that’s occurring right now. When there’s traffic, what’s constantly added is the space where there isn’t traffic, weaving in and out, always adding the fast lane and whatnot.

This is how adding grabs you without even realizing it. Add a diet because you’ve already added you’re fat. Add going to a program because you’ve added you think it’s needed. Add looking at the clock at work to see how much time you have left before it’s either lunch time or time to go. Add anything you’d like, but understand the only reason adding is added is because you are not content with life as it is and you think you have to add something for you to be complete. It doesn’t matter what is added because it all works the same; you’re trying to add something because you think will complete you. Religion is probably at the top of the adding list, then self image, social status, job, family, career and so on, I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with any of these things, but the moment you have to add something because the sense of incompleteness arises it becomes bondage. Adding something designed for self help is a perfect example as this is done to alleviate incompleteness, if this wasn’t so adding wouldn’t be. To add or not to add that is the question, but the question won’t be added if it’s seen you are already complete as you are.

The Love of Jesus

If you want the world to change learn how to change yourself, but understand it’s not going to happen by believing in something, it will happen when your own heart opens to connect with Universal Love.

Humanity has been unconscious for thousands of years, look at the Bible which portrays what was going on in that region at that time. To me the story of Jesus is he was on earth to bring a message of love. No doubt he was Spirit led, but to those of that region who were lost to not only the Roman rule, but also to the doctrine of the Old Testament, they didn’t care. Jesus pointed directly to the father, but said only through him (his love) could one see the love of the father in their own heart and thus be able to love their neighbor. Love is magical in its ability to transform, but it’s not magical for a select few to experience. Jesus’s teachings are second to none when it comes to a direct path from the freedom of the bondage of self, but it won’t just happen because you believe in something. The message from Jesus wasn’t about Jesus, it was about finding the love in your own heart through his teachings so you could connect with Universal Love. You can call that God if it makes you feel better, but to me it’s simply love and doesn’t need a label.

Mostly everyone was lost when Jesus was among us, and regardless if you believe in the story of Jesus or not, his teachings are his message. Humanity is no different today than it was 2,000 years ago, all that has happened is there are different beliefs being held onto, but everyone still thinks theirs are right. The Pharisees were scared Jesus was going to make their profits less, they were of the world and that’s why they did what they did. What Jesus taught wasn’t of the world so they just wanted to get rid of him. I don’t hold onto beliefs so I don’t get into the story of what happened to Jesus as being true or not, all I know is the teachings left behind have to ability to transform and it doesn’t take a belief to have this occur. Love is what we as a species are missing. We are lost and have missed the mark. If you want the world to change learn how to change yourself, but understand it’s not going to happen by believing in something, it will happen when your own heart opens to connect with Universal Love.

Adding Not Needed

From infancy we are told we need to add things to our life to enhance it. Until this is seen adding to it will always be, but understand regardless of what you add it won’t enhance life one bit.

I was talking to a friend yesterday and it just hit me that my entire life I’ve been adding things to try and fill an inner void, but today because the need to add feeling isn’t there, there is peace. This not adding is the difference between being at peace or not. This insight also helped me understand why I find it challenging to talk to certain people at times, it’s because most people have the conditioned mindset of adding and what has been revealed to me is in the space of not needing to add there is peace. This will not be seen by many people.

As I look back I was always adding the next whatever. It’s really funny how life is, I spent the first forty nine years of my life trying to add something to it because I was led to believe this was the way to enhance it. Ten years ago I found out this adding is what kept the need to add in place. I see now that it was actually in letting go that I found peace. From the time we are infants we’re told we need to add things if we want to feel good about ourselves. Adding starts out when we’re very young, we add education, add sports, add a degree, add another degree, add a new car, money, a career, social activities, our parents religion as it becomes ours, a family, and on and on, add, add, add, but no matter what’s added the adding never ends; for most people this adding will go on until their life ends. Here’s the thing, adding anything to life doesn’t truly enhance it one bit. When the need to add ceases, that’s when life is enhanced. Investigate this for yourself, there are many who have added much in their life, but the need to add is still there. Until this is seen adding will always be, just understand regardless of what you add it won’t enhance life one bit.

Conditioned Mind Tricks

Until there’s awareness of the Conditioned Mind tricks there will be very little peace, but when there is awareness and the tricks are exposed, they lose their hold and one is naturally at peace.

If you have to be doing something this is because of the subtleness of how the Conditioned Mind is in control without you even realizing it. Until this is realized so you can apply the brakes and stop doing, the tricks of your conditioning will remain in place. These tricks of the Conditioned Mind will not be seen by a mind that’s attached to itself. I woke up this morning and my postings for the day were done because I did it at night so my mind began to look for something to do. This is the value of awareness because instead of blindly following the tricks of having to do, I was able to simply say shhhhhh which immediately stopped the need to do. You can’t put a price tag on this awareness as life is so much different then when the tricks of the Conditioned Mind are in play.

Do this, do that, look over there, if only, I should’ve, I wish, I want, I need, why did I do that, these are just some of the tricks of the Conditioned Mind and they literally wreck havoc on life. Without awareness of this, havoc is the controlling energy of life and unfortunately this is the energy of most lives. What makes this so damaging is because most people are oblivious that the tricks exist so it’s one trick after another. When there’s awareness of the tricks one can say stop, this immediately transforms one’s energy from needing to do something to peace. Peace is the natural process of awareness because when one is aware of their Conditioned Mind tricks, the tricks lose their hold as the need to do falls away and one is naturally at peace.

Holding onto Labels

Hold onto any label that your Conditioned Mind makes you think is needed, but if the results of these labels aren’t beneficial in all areas of life, maybe the labels that are being held onto need to be let go of…

What label are you holding onto? I know for me 8/8/58 was the day of my first label. From that day forward a label was being applied establishing who I was, and with this established label being held onto as an end to a means, I wound up in an alcohol and drug rehab, twice. This applied label wasn’t producing results that were much of benefit to my life. Then one day it was revealed that this label was false, it was the cause of all my problems, and it was all just a made up story. Once this story was exposed and let go of, the false label fell away…

A second label naturally arises which is much different than the first. When the first label was exposed for what it truly was, what I was left with was my true self; the self who didn’t need a label attached to it for existence to be. This is where true inner peace was revealed. This second label needs no title or attachment to it. It’s not who I am, it’s just a direction to allow life to be as at is; unless one enjoys the label more than peace, then the label becomes one’s life…

There are vast differences in these two labels, the first one is manufactured by thought, the second isn’t manufactured by anything, it’s a product of life. These labels produce much different results and as long as the direction one is heading allows for there to be alignment with life instead of trying to manufacture it, life will naturally be lived in the label-less state of being happy, joyous, and free…

No Purpose Necessary

A purpose for life is only needed by the Conditioned Mind. In the space of stillness everything just arises, and it’s in this space that it becomes clear the purpose of life is to simply live.

When I began this stage of my life ten years ago, it was with one thing in mind and that was to find some way to be at peace. It has pretty much remained this way, but it seems to be naturally going to a deeper direction of doing what’s best for humanity. Our stories become our prisons and I carefully watch how the mind, at least mine, wants to make life into some sort of purpose. These created purposes are plentiful, but they’re all just stories and when the mind settles this will be noticed. This is what’s happening to me now, I care more for humanity than I do myself, but not in the way where it’s my purpose to save humanity; compassion is just what’s there.

What I mean by it’s just what’s there is this, I don’t think about what I do, it has simply become a part of me. It’s just like the first forty nine years of my life, they were lived to satisfy my self without much thought of anything else, this was done because that’s what was there. One will do what they do because of what’s in place and until this is realized, not needing a purpose will never be understood because a created one will always be needed; that’s just the way the Conditioned Mind operates. When the mind quiets no labels need be applied to life; only the Conditioned Mind needs to apply labels and create a purpose. In the space of stillness everything just is and it becomes clear that the purpose of life is to just live with whatever’s there, without the need of a purpose.

Making Life a Burden

If life has to be a certain way for it to be okay, it’s as if a heavy weight is being carried around as needing life a certain way creates the burden of having to constantly troubleshoot it.

Nobody knows what this life has in store for them between the time they are born and when it ends. Today you can be going along with what’s considered the perfect life and in an instant that can change, and it will for someone. Someone is experiencing a turn of events right now as I’m writing this that’s turning their life upside down. Moments ago it may have been just the way that it was wanted, but now all that has changed. The point of this writing is to hopefully allow you to take a moment to reflect on life needing to be a certain way for it to be considered okay and how when it changes discontentment arises.

So much time is wasted trying to maintain a certain existence. When the moment comes when life changes, will you be ready for it or the change will be resisted and hence will you allow the change to create a burden? Life is life and without a moments notice it can change and even end, and this is occurring right now for someone. The question to ask yourself is what are you holding onto that you think is so important? If life ended right now, like it or not everything you are holding onto will be let go of. It all goes away, none of it matters, from concerns for children, parents, the state of the world, your favorite team, jobs, and so on. Why is it being held onto? Letting go can happen now and liberation will follow or not and you will remain attached to the heavy weight of needing life to be a certain way, creating the burden of having to constantly troubleshoot it.