A Created Charade

Your life is a created charade until you learn to live it from a base of love, and it will be at this point that your created charade will drop away and your true self will emerge…

Life is a created charade until it drops away and your true self emerges. This can be today or it can be when your existence ends, but one day your created charade will drop away. Unless you are raised from the beginning of your life to love your charade will change many many times to meet situations as they occur. Definition of charade: an absurd pretense intended to create a pleasant or respectable appearance. Who can claim to not have created a charade to cope with life as situations occur that we don’t particularly care for.

You see creating a charade is a given because unless you have learned to live a life of love, there is no true base to existence. Love is the only reality that doesn’t need to be created, this is why when you love your true self emerges. If you don’t love you’re not living, you’re alive, but only through love can you live. You can be alive for a thousand years, but if you don’t love you haven’t lived one day. This is not something I made up, it’s the law of existence.

Nothing in life is real but love. If everyone’s life was based in love the world would be much different, but it’s not so the world itself is a created charade because of the lack of love of it’s inhabitants. This is why you keep chasing after things because even the world tells you a charade is needed. What you are really chasing is love, you just don’t realize this and because this isn’t realized you create a charade because it’s what you have learned to do to cope with life situations as they occur. You can only do what you have learned to do and if you haven’t learned to love then you have learned to create charades.

The most important lesson you will learn in life is to love, nothing else that is learned is useful. This is why a charade is created because if you aren’t living to love, you are living in a world of confusion of learning to create a charade to make life suit you. When you learn to love, there is no more seeking, no more searching, no more charade. Love and your true self emerges or not and continue a life of a created charade until that one day when your charade drops away, whenever that may be…

No Arranging Needed

The more you try to arrange life to be a certain way, the more you will struggle with life not being a certain way. When you are with life as it is life is arranged as it needs to be…


What’s most important about becoming aware of the Conditioned Mind and how it controls every facet of life is being able to break the hold it has over the inner psychic. There are Conditioned Mind Patterns that may always be in place because of how deeply engrained they are in the subconscious; becoming aware is freeing in your reactions because you’re not controlled as you once were. It’s a process to notice more and more what has a hold on you. It’s not like awareness is a one shot deal which makes everything all better. Most of us took years to get to the self serving state that we’re in. It’s not that it’s a bad or good thing, it’s just what’s in place. The important thing is to notice how it blocks you from truly living life.


Your conditioning puts you in this little world by being controlled by a Conditioned Mind which works so hard to keep it this way. A huge part of the conditioning is the mind making you think using things is the only way to be happy, but this is a conditioned lie; you’re constantly trying to arrange life to suit your Conditioned Mind. Our true essence of stillness doesn’t need these arrangements, it’s already happy and at peace; only the Conditioned Mind needs to keep arranging life to be a certain way. This is the delusion of your conditioning, but the reality is we need nothing to be happy, we need nothing to be at peace. Unless you break the hold of your Conditioned Mind Patterns (one at a time) you will always need, but the unfortunate thing here is even if you have it all you still won’t be happy or at peace. So understand you already have it all and the only arranging you’ll ever truly need is enjoying whatever life throws at you…

Changing Your Future

If you want your future to be different, you’ll need to understand your place in the Universe and learn to stop your individual and collective cycles that allow history to be repeated again and again….

In this vast Universe that goes on to infinity, our planet is a mere speck in the grand scheme of things. I know we think we are so important, but in the blink of an eye entire civilizations have become extinct. The Roman Empire, Inca’s, Aztec’s, Phoenicians, Mayans, Babylonians to name a few, I’m sure they all thought they were so important, but none are here now to reiterate this. To put things in their proper perspective one must reflect on what has gone on before us and what affect it has in what’s going on now. If you really look into this you will see only the players change, history pretty much just repeats itself again and again.

Until our human conditioning changes our future will stay the same because our history will stay the same. When the worlds history is based in greed, hate, and delusion, behavior will manifest in that form. Here’s a story I like to tell: Man first ate vegetation to live, one day he saw a rabbit and made a trap for it so now there was meat added to his diet. As he was eating his rabbit another man came upon him and picked a rock and proceeded to kill the man eating the meat just because it was easier than trapping his own rabbit. It’s a shame, but this story isn’t that far fetched. We are one species on this tiny planet and until this is realized and we stop being controlled by a mind of individual cycles which is to strictly satisfy our self, our planet and its people as a whole will suffer, and one day just like that like many civilizations before us we will become extinct. The thing that we can do that others before us haven’t done is live a life based in love that puts us in unity with all beings so we stop the cycle of history repeating itself and give our future the chance it truly deserves…

Arisen Reactions

Reactions aren’t caused by outside things, they’re the result of what’s already within you. It’s as though you don’t have a choice, but you do, you just don’t have the discipline for this to be realized…

Reactions are not a projection of the circumstances that seem to be causing them. Whatever happens in life, whatever some people say or do that generates a reaction from you, it arises from you; it’s already in place just waiting to be triggered. It seems it’s caused by something from the outside, but it isn’t. Nothing that happens results in our reactions, it’s the way we’re Conditioned that makes you react in the ways that you do; you control what controls you if you know what it is that’s controlling you. If you don’t know, life’s circumstance will control you, whether it has to do with an event or people, you’re the only one giving power to your emotions to be controlled by outside circumstances, but understand whatever it is that sways you from your inner peace is already there. The Conditioned Mind is insidious (which means lying in wait) and will wait for you to be at your most unaware point so it can sway you from your inner peace; the less you realize this the easier it is to be swayed.

To me discipline is the only way around this. If you want to have any semblance of control over your reactions, you will have to cultivate what gives you control. You don’t gain control by adding anything, you have to remove what’s already there. The conditioning that controls you needs to be realized so you can stop be swayed by it. Understand nobody conditioned you on purpose, you are the one who put your conditioning in place, regardless if it was done consciously or unconsciously. Remove what’s there that causes you to react in the ways that you do and your arisen reactions will not respond to things the way they once did. Just understand, no person, place, or thing controls you unless it’s allowed and who allows it but you…

Serving the Universe

What’s of importance in life is from the Universe because it serves the Universe. No human can validate what’s important no matter how much value is put on your own self proclaimed importance…

It’s been my experience that not many people really look beyond their own self proclaimed importance and the more self proclaimed life is, the less truth there is to validate life. I’m not really sure who gets what out of what I write, but I know it helps me immensely. My writings reinforce what arises from the quietness in my life, and what has been arising more and more is seeing how insignificant I am in the grand scheme of things, and if the importance of myself wanes what someone else thinks of me has even less significance. It’s more important to remain quiet then to accomplish something or to be validated by someone else, which will only be used to create my self proclaimed importance. Quietness is truly the only thing of importance because it’s when you’re in harmony with the Universe. It’s when the Universe can use you to serve the Universe you will understand what’s truly important.

Today life is, tomorrow it isn’t, what’s important serves the Universe; to be in harmony with it is all that matters. If you think there are things you need to do that puts you in harmony with life, you are gravely mistaken. Quietness simply puts you in harmony with it, not accomplishing things or being validated by a world that thinks they are qualified to validate their own self proclaimed important and thus they think they have power to put a label on what you do as important. You give people control over you, by allowing them to judge what you do and make it important or not, but the Universe doesn’t judge you, you do.

Whether it is realized or not the Universe is our master. When you trust in it, it will make everything you do important because what you do arises from it. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, you arose from the Universe, regardless of what you make important you will leave this world as you have entered it, empty of what you think is important. So remember this reality, if you think what you do or have done in your life is so important or if you are waiting for the self proclaimed people of importance to validate you, it will be a grave misgiving because the only thing that is truly important serves the Universe. After all everything belongs to the Universe and regardless of what is made important when your existent in this form is complete, you will return from whence you came…

Acting as Conditioned

Everyone is conditioned to act in certain ways and justify it, yet things are said like I wish I hadn’t or I shouldn’t have done that. Unless this is realized, you will continue to act and justify the way you have been conditioned to act…

If a person is conditioned to act in a certain way, it shouldn’t be a surprise when they act that way. When the conditioning is to love that’ll be how they act, but no one has the right to judge or label any behavior as wrong because most likely the person is just doing what their conditioning tells them what to do; as we all do. People who judge others do the same things as the ones they’re judging, but it is only looked at as wrong because that’s the way they’re justifying their own behavior. How much validity can we truly put in someone who is just as conditioned as the person they are judging? The only difference in people is the way they’re conditioned, this makes everyone justify why different things are used, but we all succumb to our Conditioned Mind as no one I’ve come across walks on water.

We do what we do because it’s what we have learned, but understand that others do what they do because it’s what they have learned. When the mind settles down enough this will be understood. If you’re always listening to what you’re conditioning tells you, it’s because your mind doesn’t have the discipline to be still, and if you can’t be still, you will always succumb to whatever conditioning you have in place. Sitting in quiet doesn’t magically settle the mind. What the sitting does is it allows you to become more aware of just how unsettled your mind is. The meditative state of sitting is a discipline; living life daily is where the results show up. If the mind is quiet for an hour of sitting, but noisy throughout the day, there’s not much benefit to that. Stillness has to be your forte if we are to truly understand your life. This is not an understanding of life itself, it’s you understanding you. So sit when it’s time sit. Work when it’s time to work, but bring in the stillness of sitting to work, or whatever it is that you’re doing. Stillness has to come first for there to be love because without it the Conditioned Mind rules, and although the results of our behavior may be different depending of our conditioning, we all listen to the same self serving puppeteer…

Up and Down Swings

Up and down swings of life seem to be natural, but it’s only through the conditioned self serving mind that these are created. When love is your constant, there’s only room for up…

The down swings of the mind can wreck havoc on life if they aren’t understood, but even understanding them doesn’t simply make everything all better. Lessons in life are of their own making, they’re create by the way one is conditioned. If you were conditioned to love all the time your life would be continuously on the up swing, but unfortunately this is not the case. We have up and down swings because we fluctuate between our conditioned self serving mind and our natural state of love. The natural state of love is within everyone and it’s always there, but it does get pushed down. The deeper it gets pushed down the less love there is to live your life by, the less love you emit to others, and the more difficult life is. It’s pushed so deep by some that they don’t make it, and others struggle mightily and cause much harm. When you’re in a down swing you have to persevere if you’re going to learn from it; through a mindfulness practice you can learn to stay on the up swing more often than not. The more you’re in touch with the self serving mind that puts you on the down swing, the less you’ll go there, but understand practice a little and stay on the up swing a little, practice ceaselessly and eventually you will never go down.

We all start existence with the same love in our hearts. This is the way it is because we are all from the same energy of the Universe which is love. Even the most hardened of hearts have the same love as say a person who always serves, the difference is how deep their love is pushed down. With some it seems to be non existent, but it’s there it just isn’t allowed to the surface of how that life is lived. This is heart breaking, not because of the suffering it causes, although that is part of it, it’s heart breaking because it doesn’t have to be this way…

Daily Nonsense

We all have feet of clay, not because we want to, but because very few understand the Conditioned Mind and how it keeps you stuck in the daily nonsense of that conditioning…

Make a stand for what is in you heart. Bow down to no one. Idolize no one or no thing. Listen to your heart. Let it be your guide. Ignore the nonsense of the world because that’s what it is; pure utter nonsense. Who can rightfully judge you, most people can’t even rightfully judge themselves. Put no stock in what others say and what others say will have no stock. If things are ever going to change in your life, the nonsense that goes on daily has to be exposed for what it is; pure utter nonsense. Live now or forever hold your peace because now is the only place you will ever have peace to hold.

We all have feet of clay, not because we want to, but because very few understand the Conditioned Mind and how it keeps you stuck in the grip of that conditioning. Never back down from what you know to be true. Whether others see it makes no difference. It matters little what happens in life, it matters less what you or others think. I only say this because it matters little what I think, so if I don’t take what I think too seriously I’m not going to take what others think seriously. The story of what life is about is a made up fabrication. No one can claim to truly know this. Life is to complex to know all there is to know. The pea brain mind will make some nonsense up, but our minds have not evolved enough to truly know this answer. We know a lot intellectually, from our head, but we don’t know diddly when it comes to living from our heart. Until we understand this we will be controlled by our Conditioned Mind and we’ll remain in stuck in the daily nonsense of its conditioned grip…

Freedom in Truth Only

In life there’s freedom in truth only. There may be your perception of things, but only truth sets you free. Perception is delusional and is a created idea to make life the way you think it best suits you…

There are certain truths that need to be understood if you’re to know what it means to be led by the divine so you can be set free. The reason why there’s so much struggle with this is because these truths aren’t brought into the heart by most people, they’re kept at the intellect level; in the head (perception). Truth can only set you free when it’s from the heart. A perception of what you think truth is isn’t truth; this perception blocks truth from being seen.

Here are some truths to sit with. You are not going to live forever. Understanding this is paramount in our freedom. The only place life can be lived is right now. No matter how much you want things to stay the same, they will not. Things are constantly changing whether you want them to or not. Lastly you are not your thoughts regardless of how much you attach to and believe them. My point of this is to show the difference between truth and the perception of how you want things to be. Perception will not set you free. There’s a way to know something is not a truth; truth is always freeing. It’s the nature of the divine to be free, but it can only occur within truth.

All perception is tied into our stories, which are based in delusion. Delusion will not set you free either. People who think perception is truth are gravely mistaken and stay locked into their own conditioned lies. I know today I’m free because of the truth that has set me free, not because of my perceptions of this truth. If I was still living life by created perceptions I would not be free. The divine can only be our guide when there’s a quietness that allows this to be understood, but if you make up a perception of this, freedom will not occur. This is another truth and it can only be known when it’s not made into a perception. There’s the way life is (truth) and there’s the way you think it should be (perception), only one of these will set you free…

Outer View Delusion

An inner view is the only way life can be lived without distractions from the outside. These outer distractions are the source of all our created stories and keep you in bondage to a delusional view…

It seems creating stories is just a part of our development, but this just isn’t so. To stop creating stories it has to be known why they are created in the first place. What makes a person think a story is needed as opposed to living a peaceful existence without a story. For many years this wasn’t given much thought, it was just assumed this was the way life was. One day with life exactly how it was wanted and limited happiness, self investigation (looking inward) began which produced real answers and changed my view of life from an outer to an inner view.

I found that the stories I made up were strictly because of the outer view. An outer view was developed that always attached a story to what was happening. This is a natural occurrence for an outer view; the two go hand in hand. Think about this, anything viewed out there immediately has a story attached to it. See this for yourself, try not to attach a story to something you are viewing as out there. See this truth and see your path to freedom. A story is created because the mind is agitated and doesn’t know how to be still. A story is you convincing you that there’s something out there that you need. These delusional needs arise from the outer view created by the Conditioned Mind. The mind has to be taught the need isn’t real and nothing more is truly needed; excluding the basics necessities. When there isn’t a delusional need there isn’t a delusional story. The stories cease when the view turns inner and you realize nothing is needed because you are complete right now. You don’t have to add anything for completeness. You can make all the improvements you want, but they don’t make you more complete. You are complete right now just as you are and only a delusional story tells you different…

A Scripted Role

Life can be described as a play where you’re either playing a role or you’re watching the play. The difference in watching it as opposed to starring in it is it’s so much more beneficial watching than playing a scripted role…


Think of life as a play. Are you in the play or are you watching it? The difference is when you are in the play you are controlled by it. The play dictates your role. The script is your Conditioned Mind, things happen and you react with your conditioned script. The play needs for each person to play their part or there wouldn’t be one. When you watch the play you see what happens instead of being controlled by it. The play is running, but your role is determined by how conditioned you are to either watch it or be in it. There is such a difference in the two, watching it is so much more beneficial, but unfortunately most people are starring in the play. To watch it you have to be very still. The more the ability to watch the play is developed the less you will be drawn into becoming the main star (that’s what ”I” wants to do) and the more adept you’ll be with life being lived on a stage aligned with with Universal Love.


Learn to watch the play and you’ll be an active participant in controlling the part you play, which happens to be your life. When you can watch the play and not be drawn into a role that is selected for you by your conditioning, that’s when the play will become so much more enjoyable and you will always want to just watch it. It will be better than you ever imagined it could be, and who knows with practice you may even become aware that it’s the best play ever, but understand your play is already the best one ever because it’s about your life. Without a settled mind you will not know this and you will continue to be controlled by a scripted role that allows your conditioning to dictate the part you play. This is the difference between being dragged around by a scripted role or being able to just sit back, relax, and enjoy the show…

Up Against Your Own Mind

Realize whatever controls you is your master; it doesn’t matter what it is. You aren’t up against evil forces or negative energy, the only thing you’re up against is your own mind…


What you’re truly up against in life is your own mind. When something is needed to alter your current state, it’s bondage. If you don’t find out why you need to alter your state, you’ll constantly need to substitute the things that you will use; you will just go from thing to thing. I’m not asking you to believe this, I am telling you from my own experience that this is the way it is; this is real. Lying to yourself is all part of the Conditioned Mind, even if it causes your own misery your mind will tell you to discount this.


We are all our own worse enemy. I know this as a fact and yet it is still a struggle at times because of the conditioning in place, but the freedom from the bondage of self is becoming more and more of a reality. This is known because there’s less and less need to alter my current state so there is more time spent in the moment of I Am. This takes much practice, more than most people are conscious to do, but if you really want freedom you have to have the ability to look in the mirror and understand you are looking at the only block to your freedom. It will be at that point that you can start breaking free from a self that has be leading you around like a puppet on a string. Facing yourself is the most difficult thing you will ever do because you have been conditioned not to face yourself. If you want to be free, start developing a plan to break free from yourself and change your Conditioned Mind Patterns. If not, simply enjoy the puppet show which you just so happen to have the starring role…

Everyone Reaches

Dependency is dependency regardless of what’s reached for. Some of the things reached for have less of an affect, but how you’re held in captivity to what’s reached for is all the same…

The only reason why a person reaches for anything is to change the way that they feel. If you are ok with who you are, not the story of who you are, but who you truly are, no reaching will ever be necessary. AGAIN: If you are ok with who you are, not the story of who you are, but who you truly are, no reaching will ever be necessary.

We are all addicts, we just use different things. Here are some of the things used: food, opinions, sugar, anger, alcohol, wanting life to be a certain way, drugs, sports, sports teams, gambling, success, money, careers, helping others, porn, sex, stealing, our children’s success, to do list, 12 step programs, seeking peace, the spiritual practice, working, not working, our health, politics, religion, and God. This is but a few of the things used, the list goes on and on. The point of this is to show how dependency is dependency regardless of what’s reached for. We’re all addicts, it’s just that some of the things reached for have a less of an affect than others, but the bondage that holds you prisoner to your Conditioned Mind is the same. If you ever want to be free of this it has to be understood. You can discount this, but you’ll never experience what it means to be totally free if you do…

Past Influences/Present Control

Past influences have so much control over the present and until this is understood and let go of, the past will continue to keep you in a state of an agitated existence…

Understanding living life as it is as opposed to a life you think you should have is the difference in being at peace or living in a state of an agitated existence. When you’re with what is here you’re with reality, not a mind made reality, but the reality of what simply is. When you’re not in the reality of what is you’re in a delusional state of what isn’t, which makes for very little if any true peace in your life.

Life is always as it is right now and that would mean being with reading this post. There is nothing else truly going on right now beyond that. There may be something going on between your ears, but it’s not happening right now so it’s s not the true reality of now. Your mind has been conditioned to think you have to create a life that you think is better than what’s occurring right now, that’s what keeps you from being with the life as it is.

To me all that matters is having found a something real to break free of the grip of those past influences. Bondage is bondage and the more you continue to be controlled by past influences and stay locked into the control of your Conditioned Mind, the deeper the bondage of not being with life as it is. Until you learn to let go of the control the past influences have over you it will be impossible to be free because you’ll remain under the spell of the Conditioned Mind…

A Heavenly Heart

Heaven is within, but we look for it with our eyes and it can only be seen through our heart. Only one master can be served and if it isn’t from the love in our heart, Heaven will remain a place not seen…

What’s in your heart will always rise to the top. You can’t fake it or pretend to be something that you’re not. You can fool people, but eventually they will catch on. It is written that Jesus said to the rich man if he wanted salvation he needed to give up his riches; they both knew he wouldn’t. Although the person was of wealth, the wealth that Jesus spoke of was of the heart, not of the world. Jesus knew the man’s heart and knew he wouldn’t follow him. He knew the man loved his wealth of the world and therefore he would be unable to follow his heart. To truly be free one has to love with all their heart, if it’s any other way, what is blocking this love will rise to the top.

You can’t have a heart that loves internally and loves the wealth of the world also; you can’t serve two masters. There’s nothing wrong with being wealthy as long as it’s used to demonstrate love. A heart of love can have the best of both worlds, but only if the one that’s served is the one of the heart. Wealth is not measured in material things, it’s measured by the love in your heart and how you love and treat others.

Learn to understand your heart and it will lead you to places that are not of this world. Heaven is within, but we look for it with our eyes and it can only be seen through the heart. Hold onto whatever you think will bring you to heaven, just don’t be surprised when what you are holding onto isn’t providing the haven you thought you had found. You cannot serve two masters and only one will allow you to be in heaven so make sure your choice is from the love deep within your heart…