Life Right Now

What arises in the present moment can’t be changed, but it can be accepted as it is. When this is done life can truly be lived because when what’s there is accepted nothing needs to be different…

To be with life as it is what arises has to be accepted. What arises is what occurs right now and it’s the only place where life happens. If what’s here right now isn’t accepted, life will be made into something that’s difficult. Life can never be anything more than what it is because right now is what has arisen; only the Conditioned Mind makes you think this isn’t so. Life is always about what’s here because that’s what’s happening now. You can wish for things to be different, but that’s how you wish your life away. Accept what’s happening now, be with what’s in front of you so you can be with life.

There needs to be some semblance of quiet so your direction is clearly seen. It’s very easy to become distracted if you aren’t vigilant. There are many distractions that will try to divert you from the present moment. It’s like life is an obstacle course and things are in place to divert you from being with what’s here now. There’s only the present moment and it’s always what’s in front of you. One of the main obstacles used as a distraction is wanting things different. Your own mind tells you if things were different life would be better, but this is the great lie; the delusion of the Conditioned Mind. When what’s in front of you is accepted there’s no struggle with wanting things different; it’s in this space that you can be with life as it is…

Nothing to Fear, but Fear Itself

“I” likes to make monsters out of nothing through attachment and although fear is something that may arise, it doesn’t have to be given the energy “I” wants to give it; the only reason “I” does this is so it exist…

Fear is nothing more than a story that arises, it’s not something to push away, but it will be feared if it’s not understood and this is because of the unconscious relationship that fear has with “I”. Fear itself has no fearing quality inherently, it’s just a word, but when “I” attaches to it, it’s given energy and thus it’s given life. This isn’t to say scary things will not occur in life, but only the relation to “I” causes issue because of the story “I fear” story you attach to. Fear only exist as a story created by “I” and when you truly learn this, “I” attachment is lessened and so is the associated fear. Be with what arises, but don’t let the fear of it control you.

When the mind settles, fear is simply seen as something that just arises. All fear is temporary, although it’s only a mental construct the mind that fears becomes entrapped to see it as lasting forever. When this occurs fear becomes the master puppeteer. Attachment to “I” may not seem to be the cause of what is fearful, but that’s what cements it in place and gives it control, this is how “I” works. “I” makes monsters out of nothing through attachment and although the fear may be there, it doesn’t have to be given the energy that “I” wants to give it. The only reason “I” does this is to exist. Without “I” there’s no one there to attach to and without attachment there’s nothing to fear, but fear itself…

Love Based Intentions

Mostly intentions are either from the base energy of love or selfishness, this is what makes the world the way it is. If you want the world to be different simply have love based intentions and watch it transform…

Our intentions are a determining factor in the energy that is put out to the world. There are intentions of selfishness, expecting something in return for your doings, and there are intentions to love, expecting nothing whatsoever in return. These are obviously very different base energies. Love intentions don’t necessarily result in seeing the fruits of your labors, at least not by some. The intentions behind my daily writings and writing my book arose strictly from the love to possibly help someone not go through the suffering I did for forty nine years; there are those who see my intentions as something different. When it comes to intentions “To thine own self be true” is so important because it really doesn’t matter how anyone sees what you do; you know your heart regardless of what anyone else thinks. The Universe knows your intentions and that’s all that matters.

The world cannot judge you fairly nor can an individual. “May he who is without sin cast the first stone” who is so pure that they can judge another. If your intention is to judge that’s not from the intention of love; it’s strictly selfish. There is so much selfishness in our world and those who have no intention based in love are what keeps the world the way it is. If you truly have a heart with the intentions to love, there’s no way you can judge another because there’s no separation, there’s only oneness. When all you do is have the intentions to love and act accordingly, that’s the energy you’re putting out in the world and I assure you that is what will make a difference…

Understanding the Cause

Nothing is done or held onto without an underlying cause and if that cause isn’t understood, you will unconsciously succumb to its consequences as if you were a dog on a leash…

When some feeling or emotion arises something causes it. Learn to see the cause of the emotion arising and the feelings that go along with the cause. Whatever arises has a cause, the reason for that cause and the sensation of it needs to be understood if your aren’t to be blindly drawn in and controlled by it. Nothing is held onto without an underlying cause and if that cause isn’t understood, you will unconsciously succumb to the cause as if you were a dog on a leash. Why people don’t see how this holds them in captivity is because many of the things that are being held onto are used to make your identity and also the holding is done because your conditioning tells you what you are holding onto is needed. When the cause of what arises is understood or at least noticed, there arises an awareness of what what you are thinking. When this occurs there’s the possibility it will fall away and in the process your made up stories fall away.

As stated before, why it’s so difficult to see this is because what’s being held onto is thought to be bringing you pleasure of some kind, and it may be in some way, but it’s not true pleasure because no object has the capability of providing true pleasure; one is easily deluded by this. Regardless of what it is if what’s causing you to think you need something to feel good (pleasure) the object becomes your prison regardless of what’s used. So if the cause of why something arises and is held onto isn’t understood, you might as well keep the dog collar on because when your conditioning says it’s time for a walk you will have to go because the conditioning in place isn’t understood…

Investigating What You Do

The root of all struggles go very deep, they’re not just at the level of what is seen, they’re rooted in the structure of how we think. If you don’t investigate why you do what you do, nothing will ever be different…

Changing our mental structure is like turning a battle ship, the intention to turn happens right away, but the turn itself is very gradual. It’s as though we know we need to start turning right away, but we don’t know why. Here’s a simple suggestion if you want to get in touch with breaking free of this engrained mental structure, and it’s not complicated. When you do something, investigate why it was done. No reason to go back and look for a traumatic incident, why it’s being done right now is sufficient.

If the need to reach for something happens because life throws you a curve ball and you don’t investigate why the need to reach arose, you’ll probably use a distraction not to succumb to it, but by doing this you will never be free because you will never get in touch with why the reaching was needed in the first place. Investigating why you are doing this or that is the most important thing you can do for yourself when something is done that’s not in your best interest. If you don’t, you will just substitute one thing for another and in the process remain entrapped to what’s causing the need to reach. You may not like this post and you may even ignore it, but don’t be surprised when the next curve ball comes and you find yourself reaching for something, you just won’t know why you’re doing so…

Unconscious Desiring

The conditioned mind creates a view based in the unconscious desires of the world. It’s difficult to break this because most of what goes on in our daily lives reinforces this view. A conscious mind is simply aware of awareness…

I understand life’s struggles have nothing to do with life, it’s an unconscious view based in the world of desires that cause struggles, and this is because this view is controlled by the conditioned mind. When unconscious desires are fulfilled and things are going your way, there’s not much of a struggle; life is considered good. When things are going the way that you want, what causes your struggles are pushed aside. When this is done it makes the base of life centered in the world of unconscious desires and you will get pulled around by the conditioned mind like a puppet on a string.
The more this occurs the more suffering there will be in your life. Sometimes it’s very subtle, but it’s there. As a matter of fact even if you’re not aware of being controlled by the unconscious desires, they still produce suffering. The suffering doesn’t occur because you don’t get your way, it occurs just by being in a state where the unconscious conditioned mind is in control.

The less the world of unconscious desires (which is just wanting what you want, when you want it) are the base of your view, the less you struggle with yourself and with life. This is simply because unconscious desires aren’t in control. When you’re unaware of this the conditioned mind creates chaos by unconsciously desiring; there’s immense suffering in this unawareness. Practice being in a space of no mind, with no mind there is no unconscious desiring. When you don’t have unconscious desiring you don’t want and when you don’t want, you don’t create problems that cause suffering; a free mind is free of unconscious desiring…

Celebrate Life

We exist because of Universal Love. Life is a Universal celebration as a manifestation of our human form; love is our true nature. To awaken to this is to awaken to celebrate life…

We need not wait for a certain time to celebrate life. This may seem like a cliche, but if you are alive everyday is truly a holiday because being alive is a celebration of life manifested from Universal Love, and we are the gift, the present of the Universe to the world. If you don’t think this is so it isn’t because of life, it’s because of the misperception you are viewing life from. What you are probably saying is, if the Universe is love what about all the unpleasant things that occur in life or the pure evil of some things that are experienced. This is just something to ponder, all of the things that happen, good, bad, or indifferent are not produced by the Universe, they are a direct product that results in the behavior of the human will.

Love is our true nature, it is our gift. Our celebration is an everyday occurrence and one day our celebration will not be manifested in this form, but our true nature of love will still be. This is the way it is because this is the way the Universe is, and since we are a present of the Universe our nature is always love. When a gift is given to someone in the spirit of love, no matter what happens after the gift is given, it will never take away that it was given in love. No matter how hardened you become by your conditioning, love will always be your true nature. Know this truth and you will make everyday a holiday and celebrate life as it was intended to be. May everyday be a holiday whatever it is that you celebrate, not only with your immediate family, but with the entire human family that this planet is shared with. Everyday is a holiday in the sense it’s a celebration because of the love given by the Universe; without its love we would not be. So whatever holiday it is for you, may it be life that you celebrate and may it be happy, joyous, and free. Merry Christmas

Unknown Territory

We repeat the same mistakes again an again and we constantly respond to the same triggers because we react out of the habit of what’s known; this is done without even realizing it…

There are many reasons why an awakening process is so difficult, but to me the one that sticks out the most is how the Conditioned Mind holds onto what’s known even if it causes extreme pain. When I was twenty five my oldest brother passed away from a cocaine related incident that forced me (not on my own) to look at my alcohol and drug use. His death opened my eyes somewhat, but even though my life was a mess, it didn’t mean I was ready to dive in the unknown without my pacifiers to cope with life; this was with full knowledge that alcohol and drugs were causing me problems. It took another two years before I was ready to go into unknown territory; I figured it had to be better than the known way that was killing me.

The reason it took two years was because although I was in extreme emotional pain, my conditioning led me to believe facing the unknown was too scary and the known was the way to go; the lies of the Conditioned Mind run deep. This is why we repeat the same mistakes again an again and it’s also why we constantly react to the same triggers; we react out of habit without even realizing it. The conditioning in place dictates what we do as it’s obeyed without question. Here’s the real irony in all of this, people actually believe they have free will and they have a choice, but the only thing you can do is submit to what’s known because that’s what’s in place. Once there’s awareness of this, succumbing to the known conditioning can be stopped as the choice to live life freely becomes a possibility…

Unguarded Thinking

It’s important to notice your thinking because even if what you do comes from a labeled place of love, this label produces the bondage of unguarded thinking which controls you like all unguarded thinking…

If you can’t watch your own thinking to decipher if it’s truly beneficial, hold on because you’ll be taken on the roller coaster ride of life. Not that life does anything directly to you, but thinking arises and these determines what kind of ride you will be on. Noticing your unguarded thinking is essential if you’re not to be controlled by it. Thinking is a natural part of life, it will occur. As far as I know there’s no way of controlling the thinking that arises, but I have found that noticing it allows for a split second hesitation that can be used to decipher whether or not what you are thinking is beneficial; remember attachment causes suffering, no matter how it’s labeled.

I often say the Conditioned Mind is diabolical and unless there’s some awareness of how you are controlled by thinking, it will and this has to happen, control you as if you were a puppet on a string. So subtle is this control that even if you are doing things that are labeled as loving, if this thinking isn’t watched it will control you and bondage is bondage regardless of what label is applied to your thinking. This is why the Conditioned Mind is diabolical because of its subtleness in using whatever it can to remain in control. This is also why it’s so important to notice your thinking because even if what you do comes from a labeled place of love, the bondage this produces is that of unguarded thinking which controls you like all unguarded thinking…

Hate Isn't Natural

Love doesn’t need a thought to arise as hate does. When you love it arises naturally, hate cannot do that, there has to be a story attached to hate for it to arise and the story originates from your own mind.

All hate arises from the thought of it. This means the dastardly things that are done are because hate is triggered from what’s within. One of the most misunderstood things about hate is the one hated basically goes unscathed while the hater feels the full effects of the hate. This is the exact opposite energy of love, but because of the way we’ve been conditioned the energy of hate seems to be much more engrained. I wrote something on a post about hate coming from ones own heart, but what really happens is all hate is mind based so it comes from the mind. Although many people are driven by a passion which seems like it’s from the heart, it gets misconstrued when it’s mind based. The Pharisee’s hate from Jesus was of the mind, it had nothing to do with Jesus, it was triggered by the hate that was within themselves.

Love doesn’t need a thought as hate does; thoughts actually block love. You can just love, but you cannot just hate. There has to be a story attached to hate for it to arise and the story originates from the Conditioned Mind. True love needs no such story and if you think it does, that comes from the head and not the heart. A story of love may seem like it’s the opposite of hate and although the results may be different, it’s still a story; it’s made up just like the story of hate is. Love is natural, it’s seen all around and a story isn’t needed to recognize it. A baby’s smile, a puppy or kitten, random acts of kindness, silence, the beauty of the world, all examples of love that doesn’t need a story. How you will know when something is from the truth of love is it wells up in your heart naturally without an attached story being needed.

Love Yourself to Love Others

No one can harm you as much as you can harm yourself, and it’s done through your own thoughts. The essence of life is to learn to love yourself unconditionally so you can in turn be an instrument of love to others…


For many years I did things to myself that I wouldn’t have allowed anyone to do to me. Not all of this harm was in the form of glaring self destructive behavior, some was in the form of very subtle thoughts, but it was harmful nonetheless. If I truly loved myself I would have never done this to myself, but I didn’t know any better so the self sabotage behavior was the normal. I’m not talking about a lip service love here, I’m talking about genuine unconditional love where there is absolutely no judgement whatsoever. Love is a word that is given more lip service than actual action. You will never truly love your neighbor if you don’t really understand how to love yourself and this is because you can never be anything different than what is within you.


I try to align everything I do with love as I’ve learned what behaviors are loving and which ones aren’t. I love myself to the point where I don’t want to not only cause harm to me, but I also don’t want to harm anyone else. Although it may seem that I share to help others, it’s only partially true. I share because it reinforces the love I have for myself. This isn’t an ego thing, it’s about learning how you are your own worse enemy, that is until you aren’t. There was no greater harm done to me by anyone than what I did to myself, but in the space of quietness I have learned to stop doing this. To me life isn’t about being good, moral, honest, or any other story that can be made up, it’s one thing and one thing only and that’s to learn to love yourself unconditionally so you can in turn be an instrument of love to others…

Expanding Beyond Limits

The mind only becomes limited by the view of life you get locked into. When your mind remains open anything is possible because the conditioned limits that are in place for most simply aren’t there…


The tighter and more restricted your mind is, the more problems it seems you have. If there isn’t free flowing energy almost everything becomes a problem in some way. I’ve seen this in myself and in others and it’s all because of the narrow view (“I”) that causes a tight and restricted mind. “I” was put in parentheses because if that’s the only view that’s being allowed, you can see how restricted that makes you. A narrow mind leads to a narrow view and with a narrow view there’s no space for the current view to expand. This locks you into only seeing things through “ I” and keeps you limited to that view. Imagine going through life like this, it would mean the only way you would be happy is if everything that happened was in line with your view, and we all know that’s not going to happen, not all the time anyway. This means you better do whatever it takes to open your mind or you will pay dearly and so will those who are near and dear to you.


Close your fist as tight as you can and notice how there’s no space, this is just like a tight and restricted mind, there’s no room for anything else. Keep it closed as tight as you can, now notice how it’s getting tired and how your hand is starting to hurt, this is the energy you’re living with everyday, only it’s the mind that’s tight and restricted. It’s no wonder there’s no expansion, there’s barely enough space for ordinary living. Now open your hand and see how it instantly relieves the tightness and restriction. Open your mind in the same way and it will do the same thing. It’s the holiday season so please give yourself the gift of an open mind and it will be the gift that keeps on giving simply because your view of life will keep on expanding. You deserve this, after all this is your life…

A Beneficial View

Most people will say life is beneficial if everything is going their way. It can always be beneficial regardless of the circumstances, but only if it’s seen how all things are impermanent, including life itself…


On life being considered beneficial or not if you’re thinking it isn’t it won’t be, and even if you say it is, it will still not be beneficial if that’s what you truly believe; I equate this to whistling in the dark to keep away the bogeyman. As long as you’re whistling the distraction will keep the fear in check, but the moment you stop it will return. The key is to identify why you think life isn’t beneficial and be with it as it is. People say be positive, but being positive to me doesn’t change the facts of why life is labeled as not beneficial. Some not so pleasant stuff does happens in life and if it’s just masked over and ignored, it becomes engrained as an energy pattern in the subconscious that never goes away. This is how life becomes non beneficial. Life itself is always beneficial, it’s people who are conditioned to make it something else, this is another lie of the Conditioned Mind.


Life will be beneficial when it’s seen in the light of how all things are impermanent including life itself. Believe me I get it, being ill, losing a loved one, living in poverty, and many others things that occur in life suck, but what makes one think it sucks is the attachment to them. Labeling it that it sucks doesn’t change what’s occurring, it only changes where life is put as being beneficial or not. When the true essence of life (impermanence) is understood, it puts life at the top of the beneficial scale regardless of what’s going on because it’s seen that one day life in this form simply will not be…

Steadiness of Love

The love that draws you to others is the love that becomes a part of both of you. The steadiness of love is the only true place of refuge where you can be stable by simply being an instrument of love.

It’s very important to be steady in love so people know there’s a place they can turn to for stability. I know many people read my articles and it’s expected they will be there, I don’t mind this because of what has been revealed to me; I’m truly honored to be used as an instrument in this way. Everyone needs a place where they know they can go and be safe from the unconscious world. It does matter where you go for stability, if you go to a place that’s used as a distraction it may feel like stability, but it isn’t. If you get lost in something menial, the day will go by simply because time waits for no one, but if you’re spending the same day in a state of awareness, you will become steady in love and people will turn to you for stability.

Don’t be concerned with what others who are unconscious say, just be steady in what you know as love and let no one take that away. Being steady in love in a world that is mostly based in the ego will allow others to be steady in their love, which is needed for any transformation to occur. The love that draws you to someone is the love that becomes a part of both of you. Life is an experience and if you’re not learning from it, you most likely have your own mind constructs of what you think it’s about. When you truly see your constructs are not needed they fall away. This falling away is of love and when you remain steady in this place others will also go there as it’s the one place of refuge where everyone can be stable by simply being the steady in love.

Created Discontent

The inner discontent that keeps you from your peace has nothing to do with life, it’s a creation of your own mind and that’s what causes the discontent which makes you believe you are not at peace…


There are practical ways to minimize the inner discontent that causes you to sabotage your own
existence, but it has to be understood that the mind creating the discontent cannot quiet it. You will have to find out why your own mind is telling you this discontent is needed to cope with life; a life that is controlled by the conditioning to create this discontent. Your own mind creates every discontent you have by choosing to attach to thoughts that allow the discontent to arise, this unconscious conditioning is why one gets discontented. The Conditioned Mind develops this as you do things that are destructive to your own well being. Why this discontented mind set is developed I’m not sure, but I do know it can be described only as insane because your own mind does this.


I know now it was my own mind that created every discontent that arose from within myself.
Because of the shift that occurred about eleven years ago there is now awareness so I don’t have to create discontents anymore. I sit for the sole purpose to develop discipline which allows the mind to settle. If there isn’t discipline, the conditioning nor will the arisen discontents be understood so one will be led around like a puppet on a string. Life does nothing to you, it’s your own mind that does it all. Why you live in a discontented place as opposed to a place of peace will never change until the conditioning that makes it so is changed. All I ever wanted was to be at peace, but I wasn’t aware it was my own mind that created discontents which made me believe there wasn’t any…