Creating a Tainted Reality

Truth always arises before a label is applied, but once a label is applied it becomes an interpretation, and because truth can’t be labeled as anything other than truth, it becomes tainted.

Life is always as it is regardless of the story that’s made up, but this story is what creates your reality. This reality is not about what happens in the present moment because that will always be as it is, it’s about how what happens in the present is interpreted and thus becomes tainted; this is the reality that’s created. There’s a lot of chaos in our world because of the tainted reality people create. This has nothing to do with what actually arises, it’s because of the evolution of the human mind; this is what causes all the chaos. It all comes down to the stories that are made up. Life will always be as it is, it’s impossible to be any other way, but because everyone sees things as their conditioning dictates, the arisen moment takes on many different interpretations. These interpretations are what creates a person’s reality, and because most people are closed minded, what is seen is perceived as truth.

Truth always arises before a label is applied, but once a label is applied it becomes an interpretation and the truth of the arisen moment becomes tainted. It has to because truth can’t be labeled as anything other than truth, so the moment it’s labeled as this or that “Bam” it’s tainted. Because of the way the human mind has evolved and has the need to be right, it makes it very difficult to see what’s really going on in life; this is why reality has to be created. Our evolved minds make it difficult to see that someone else may have more of an understanding of something than we have, so we unconsciously remain in the bondage to our tainted reality. Until one can stop applying a label to what arises in the moment, creating a reality will have to be done, and this will occur regardless of how tainted that reality may be.

Ending the Inner War

It’s the thinking mind that makes one’s own mind a battlefield. It’s the heart that throws out the white flag to surrender, but not to be defeated, it’s done to end the war so the suffering stops.

Make no mistake, there’s a war being fought within humanity, but understand it’s not a war against each other, or good and evil, and it has nothing to do with demonic forces versus godly forces, it’s a war between love and selfishness and the battlefield is between one’s own ears. It’s the battlefield of your own mind and until this is seen at the deepest level of the heart, the war will continue and the battlefield of where it’s being fought, one’s own mind will remain. Most everyone thinks there’s a war going on with something from the outside, such as a war on drugs, or politics, religions, race, or whatever else is used to disguise where the battlefield is, but make no mistake, it’s always in the same place; your own mind.

The weapons of this war are plentiful, but their root is all the same and it’s based in selfishness. Only when this is understood will the battlefield be identified along with the possibility of the war ending. This war is between love and selfishness and it has been going on since humans evolved to the point of being able to think. It’s the thinking mind that makes one’s own mind a battlefield. It’s the heart that throws out the white flag to surrender, but not to be defeated, it’s done to end the war so the suffering stops. Until this is realized, the war between love and selfishness will continue because one will remain in bondage to the battlefield of their own mind…

Looking at Yourself

The only obstacle there is to being free is truly looking at yourself and until you do look at you, true freedom is something that will always be out there in the next thing reached for.

Consider life as water and emotions as a flood, if you’re on low ground you will be overcome by the flood waters (emotions), but if you’re on high ground the same flood water will come, but the way it affects you will have a much different outcome. This is what happens when a person looks at themselves, you’re naturally on higher ground which builds up a defense against your emotional flood water. Without looking at yourself there will be no defense against the flood water because you will be stuck on low ground and on low ground when the flood water arises, some form of destruction will be the result and the severity of the flood (emotional attachment) determines the destruction.

The flood water only affects what’s on low ground, and our lower nature manifest as emotional attachments. The destructiveness of this attachment is determined by what is reached for, drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, food, and so on. Although not everything reached for is destructive, some just have much more destructive potential than others. If you don’t look at yourself there won’t be awareness of the nature of what’s reached for. To me, the key is looking at yourself because it puts you on higher ground so when the flood waters come it has less affect on you. This is the value of looking at and understanding yourself, it allows you to not be flooded emotionally by circumstances that occur. Although the flood waters will arise, because you are on higher ground you aren’t affected like the person who’s stuck on lower ground and is reaching for a life preserver, in whatever form that may be.

Caught in Thought

Peace isn’t something achieved or attained so it’s in doing less that peace arises. Too many people get caught in the thought of trying to find peace when it’s something that’s already within you…

You will never find the peace that you’re seeking if you’re caught in the thought of finding peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way we’re conditioned, we get caught in the thought that peace is something out there. Unfortunately getting caught in this thought makes the very thing you are seeking impossible to grasp. This getting caught in thought is the reason you’re in constant need for something from the outside. Until this is seen, one will remain caught in the though that peace is in the next thing attained. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, and on and on, this needing is proof that you are caught. I can’t stress this enough as going beyond being caught in your thoughts will have to be seen if one is to ever experience true peace.

It’s impossible for the thought of peace to provide peace, but what does have to happen if one is to experience peace is, there has to be an understanding of why there’s a need for peace. Again, that there isn’t peace is only because of being caught in the thought of not being at peace. When the thought of fulfilling a need arises, being caught begins. This is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Peace isn’t something attained so it’s in doing less that peace arises. Too many people get caught in the thought of trying to find peace when it’s something that’s already within you; the thought of finding peace needs to be let go if you are to see this. This is not easy, but it’s why I share. Understand though, I only share to point inward so being caught by your thoughts can be seen for what it is; the only reason why there isn’t peace…

Ego Creates Itself

There's no harmony when the egos energy is running the show and simply put without harmony we have everyone going in different directions trying to attain a certain selfish status...

Nothing really means all that much in the grand scheme of life when it comes to achieving a certain status in our society, not that there's anything wrong with this, but it doesn't equate to anything except to the egos energy. This energy is what actually makes the ego what it is; it creates itself. When ego energy is embraced, it creates an I am special aura or a look at me persona, but the truth of the matter is, when it's time to leave this world, nothing is taken with you. I've learned one very important lesson in my life and that is my life has nothing to do with me, I say this in the sense of what any life is all about. Life itself doesn't really care what occurs, it’s the ego that makes it important by the story it creates of "I". It attaches to “I” and adds all kinds of things that creates a look at me persona. A celebrity status goes to most people's head, but it doesn’t really mean anything. Just loving and keeping things in their proper perspective is what gets it done for me, with the "it" being a level of quietness that doesn't need an ego story to be.

Anything added to life doesn't really enhance it in any way. Being with life as it is and not needing it to be of a certain status is so much more beneficial as an energy than putting out ego energy. So much of the ego energy is reinforced by the things of”I” and it's why the world is the way it is. The ego can't exist without a certain energy that feeds it and without awareness of this, just by the design of idolizing, the egos energy is constantly reinforced. I'm right and you are wrong energy is also the kind of energy that's in place and it makes for many ego charged situations. There's no harmony when the egos energy is running the show and simply put without harmony we have everyone going in different directions trying to attain a certain selfish status...

Concept of Me

Nothing is the whole of anything unless it’s labeled as so, and who does this labeling, but the idea of a me which only exist because of forming a delusional concept.

The concept of a me is what keeps one wandering helplessly for possibly countless lifetimes; simply put, the concept of a me does this. The concept of me is not who you are, nor is it the mind, nor I, nor does it truly have anything to do with you, it's just a concept that keeps you in bondage to "there's a me" story. It's always the story itself that keeps you bondage and although it may seem as though what's being used to create the story keeps you in bondage, it’s not. It can't be because there's nothing real to a story and this is because it's of the mind and there's nothing real that comes from the mind; it's only as real as yesterday's dream. If it's about something that happened, that means you are bringing the past into the present and this creates a delusional mindset. If you're bringing the future into the present, again you're creating a delusional mindset by not being with what's actually happening, and it’s always a conceptual me that does this.

This is what happens when the concept of a me is the driving energy behind how one lives. If everything done is derived from a conceptual me than life will be delusional because me is delusional; me is an idea, a concept, it's made up. It's not that there isn't existence, but unless you can truly see where this me is, it will cause problems if it's attached to you. What I mean by this is if you take the concept away of what you think me is, what's left? You have been labeled (named) for identification purposes and all the other labels just fall in line, son, daughter, brother, sister, and so on. Without an applied label where is this me? You have a body, but you are not the body. Nothing is the whole of anything unless it’s labeled as so, and who does this labeling, but the idea of a me that only exist because of a delusional concept.

Stirred Up Mind

Discipline to see that the mind is always stirred up has to be established if one is to ever experience peace. Mind agitations will arise, how to quiet them is what has to be developed.

Until one establishes discipline that allows the mind to slow down, what’s used to keep it stirred up determines what one’s state of being will be. There are many things used to keep the mind stirred up and it’s one’s conditioning that determines this. Whether the stirred up mind manifest as sex, drugs, alcohol, food, false pride, trying to control life and others, talking about others in a slanderous way, or whatever is being used to keep the mind stirred up, it will not stop until the agitation is satisfied. Even then it doesn’t remain satisfied for long so it basically will always be stirred up and agitated until discipline is learned. Simple, but very difficult.

When these mind agitations arise, if the necessary discipline has been developed, the mind will slow and one’s instinctual reactions will be based in love. If not one’s reactions will probably be of a self serving variety and manifest in some form that’s probably not conducive to one’s well being. It’s best to develop discipline that allows the mind to slow down so one isn’t controlled by its agitations. If discipline isn’t developed, the arisen agitation will constantly keep the mind stirred up as the agitation has to be satisfied; something will be reached for. Most of us are conditioned to have a stirred up mind and are controlled by our agitations, that’s why its so important to develop discipline, to me it’s the only thing that slows the mind. Learn to have a mind that quiets somewhat because the choice is to have one that is always stirred up and agitated. As long as the mind is stirred up it will control you as if you were a puppet on a string, this is one’s choice, but without discipline there really isn’t one.

Less is More

Regardless if this is agreed with or not, there’s no way around adding to your life as being from selfish energy and until this is seen, the need to add to it will continue even though less is more…

You will either spend your time adding things to your life that you think will enhance your state of well being or you will understand that less is more and adding anything isn’t necessary because it won’t satisfy the craving of adding. The selfishness I wrote about the last two days will not be understood by the need to add mind, it will only be understood when the mind settles. Most people will spending 99.9% of their lives adding to it only to find out at the end that the adding never enhanced it one bit. You see, this is because nothing is missing so no matter what you add it means nothing. When it’s understood less is more therein lies your peace.

Understanding how YOUR mind works, not the mind the experts and all their books talk about, but YOUR mind which probably has never been studied, is a must if the habitual patterns of needing to add are ever going to be broken. I know people don’t like this, but unfortunately at the core of this need to add mind is selfish energy. People want everything that’s written to be nicey nice, but the Conditioned Mind is diabolical and nicey nice won’t allow you to go beyond your conditioning. What I write doesn’t haven’t to be agreed with, but it would behoove you to sit and investigate it before discounting it. I am not a know it all in any sense. What I do know at least somewhat is my own mind, and because I tried adding to my life for forty nine years without ever being satisfied for more than 10 seconds, it has opened a view of less is more that few see. There’s no way around adding to your life as being from selfish energy and until this is seen, the need to add to it will continue even though less is more…

Selfish Cravings Part 2

Live in alignment with Universal Love because the more this is done, the more you can be an instrument to spread that love; not in a way that you think, but in a way the Universe wants it to be…

If what you do is done just to satisfy you, don’t be surprise if you have inner struggles; this occurs because selfish energy is never satisfied. What happens when the energy one is living by is based in selfishness is plain and simple, it blocks out loving energy. If you don’t think this is so take your head out of the sand and look around. Me, me me, energy is all around and it will never end as long as you are the base of your focus. Reaching for anything, from tobacco products, sex, alcohol, drugs, self help books, programs, tattoos, and whatnot can be measured by how others benefit from what you are doing. If there’s any attachment to it for your own benefit it becomes a liability to humanity. You may think this will make life mundane, but I say it doesn’t, there is less attachment in my life than ever before and it’s the fullest it’s ever been. Anything I do is done to put my energy in alignment with the Universe. When I come from a place of selfishness which I do at time because I to have been conditioned to do so, there’s nothing beneficial that comes from it.

I’ve learned this the hard way by being controlled by the constant need to reach to nearly the point of my own destruction. Selfish energy is so destructive, but its subtleness makes it that only a very settled mind will see this. All reaching is based in selfishness, this has nothing to do with doing what’s necessary to survive, it goes beyond that. The gauge is if what you are doing puts you in harmony with life or if it put you in harmony with fulfilling selfish cravings. Until the selfish cravings are seen for what they are, doing them will be justified as that’s what the Conditioned Mind does, it locks you into you. Even people who want a better world do it because of some selfish desire to be satisfied. Live healthy, not because it looks good or feels good, do it because the more there’s alignment with Universal Love, the more you can be an instrument to spread that love; not in a way that you think, but in a way the Universe wants it to be…

Selfish Cravings Part 1

Reaching for something such as a cigarette, donut, candy, getting a tattoo or whatever else is being reached for benefits no one…it’s only done to satisfy a selfish craving…

Reaching energy is selfish and its base of fulfillment is “I”. Reaching is only done to satisfy yourself and it’s the energy of why the world is as it is. Here are some examples of how the reaching energy reinforces “I” which is based in pure selfishness. No matter how you try to justify the following behaviors, they’re based in selfishness and will keep you in the bondage to “I”. The first example is using tobacco products. When this is done there’s absolutely no benefit in this action except to fulfill the lie that the action is a benefit to you, it’s not even a true benefit to you, but your Conditioned Mind tells you it is. Next, how about reaching for a cookie or other sweets? It’s done strictly to satisfy the selfish craving of “I”. There’s no true benefit to this reaching except to satisfy a Conditioned Mind lie that the thing being reached for is needed. There’s nothing inherently right or wrong with these things, it’s the reaching to satisfy the selfish craving that is the issue, and this is because it blocks one from their own loving energy and hence the love that one emits to others.

This selfish energy is very subtle that most won’t ever see this, but let’s go a little deeper and see the selfish energy of let’s say getting a tattoo. Again it’s an action that has no benefit whatsoever except to fulfill a selfish craving and it’s why people get multiple tattoos. Even if you think a tattoo has sentimental value, its a lie because that means you are still reaching outside yourself for fulfillment. Someone asked me, what about writing an article everyday, isn’t that done to satisfy a selfish craving? My answer was this, the gauge if something is selfish or not is how it benefits someone else. Reaching for a cigarette, donut, candy, getting a tattoo or whatever else is being reached for benefits no one, it’s only done to satisfy a selfish craving. This is a true measurement to gauge where your energy is focused. So I say “reach for the stars” just know if no one else truly benefits from it, it’s probably selfish.

Love Revealed

A person doesn’t wake up because something from the outside shakes them…it occurs because the love in their heart is revealed…everyone has this love because everyone has a heart…

When a person has a shift, they wake up from the state of being asleep and unaware of what truth is. When this occurs the understanding of what has happened isn’t truly realized. In my own case I knew something happened because my view of life became different, but I didn’t know what it meant. I did know for the first time in my life I was at peace. I likened this peace as though I was broken (which I was spiritually), but my heart opened to love I wasn’t aware of. I didn’t wake up because something from the outside shook me, I woke up because the love in my heart that I already possessed was revealed. I didn’t know the value of this at first, as a matter of fact I didn’t even know I had love in my possession. Even when some do become slightly aware of this, it very easily could be mistaken, and for me it was for many years. As I look back throughout my life, I had an inkling that love existed, but it was always dismissed, and because of this I kept looking for what I already possessed.

Nothing is given to us from the outside that the inside doesn’t already have in its possession, but because of the conditioning in place, there’s no awareness of this. Obviously we’re not talking about material possessions, I’m strictly talking about the heart of love that we all possess. This is worth more than anything in the world and it’s also the thing that’s most readily available to everyone, it’s just that the conditioning in place keeps one looking for love out there when all along it has always been in your heart…

A Welcomed Emptiness

The Conditioned Mind creates a lie that when there’s space it needs filling. The heart understands this space as emptiness and until it’s realized it doesn’t need filling, the lie will remain in place.

For many years I had this misunderstood emptiness (space) in me that was created from the lie that I lacked love and that’s why I constantly reached for stuff to fill it; this is no longer the case because this is now understood. This emptiness isn’t emptiness at all, its simply space which is the essence of life. It’s where life happens when one is busy making other plans. By not understanding this I spent most of my life trying to fill an empty space with whatever I could get my hands on. This filling is endless as to what can be used so each individual has to investigate for themselves what that is. It’s ironic because now most of my life is life is spent in the space that for so long I considered an unwelcomed emptiness. Understanding this and not needing to fill the space is the truth that has been revealed to me.

To fill this unwelcomed emptiness is the reason why anyone reaches for anything and it’s because they want the space to be different, hence the filling. If this space was understood for what it truly is, humanity would be much different because contentment would be the way of the world. The needing to fill this space is a lie the Conditioned Mind invents and it keeps one constantly needing the present moment different. This keeps one reaching as the needing to fill the emptiness remains in place. This will need to be understood if the reaching is to ever end. When it is, the space transforms to a welcomed emptiness because the present moment doesn’t have to be different, and when the present moment doesn’t have to be different, life reveals its true essence of space, which doesn’t need to be filled with anything because it’s not empty.

Dynamic Energy

When one isn’t controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your peace, but there isn’t peace because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s peace because your dynamic energy is focused on life as it is.

Dynamic energy controls your life and makes it what it is, but it doesn’t make it what it is because of what you do, it makes it what it is by where your energy is focused. If your focus doesn’t put you in harmony with life, then there won’t be any and hence your life will be the way that it is because it’s the way you are unconsciously making it. It’s actually a beautiful thing when one becomes aware of this because it puts your responses to life in your hands; to me that’s all a person could ask for. When one isn’t controlled by things from the outside, therein lies your peace, but there isn’t peace because life is the way that it’s wanted, there’s peace because your dynamic energy is focused on life as it is.

What happens with a mind that has dynamic energy that’s not based in love is it gets kidnapped by its own conditioning and then you are held hostage by your own mind. I know this sounds crazy, but this is exactly what’s happens with a mind that becomes conditioned, and it’s all because of the dynamic energy based to self serve. When the dynamic energy in place focuses on a me, me, me mind, crazy becomes the norm or so it seems, but it’s only because of the dynamic energy making it so. When the dynamic energy changes, the craziness subsides. So when you sit and see what the base of your energy is, you just may be able to change it by refocusing. It will take some time though because of the conditioning in place, but the alternative is to remain the way you are; being controlled by dynamic energy that holds you hostage to it.

Clinging to Being Human

Not only is to err human, it’s also inevitable. It’s the clinging to our humanness that causes attaching to wanting things different which in turn causes one to cling to their own suffering…

If you really want to know what humanities basic error is that keeps most clinging to their own suffering, it’s attaching to being human. It’s not that we aren’t human or that we’ll be able to transcend our humanness, it’s more so to find a way to embrace it, but not to cling to it; clinging to humanness in some way always causes suffering. It doesn’t have to be attached to, but it will take developing discipline for the mind to see this. It’s seems to be human to want things different and it’s always attaching to the story of being human that causes suffering. This is true regardless of what’s wanted different.

It’s always the human self that wants something different and it’s this charade of clinging to being human that pulls one into suffering. Last week I ordered a shirt on line and when it was delivered I tried it on and it didn’t fit. By my initial reaction you would have thought I was going to have to go shirtless; this was simply because I didn’t accept the fact the shirt didn’t fit. This is what clinging to being human does and when I saw how childish this wanting things different was it fell away and I was able to get an exchange for the shirt. You can substitute the shirt with anything and you’ll get the same childish results of suffering. This is all because not only is it human to err, but it’s also the clinging to our humanness that one attaches to wanting things different which in turn causes one to cling to their own suffering…

No Inherent Label

Nothing that arises inherently has a label, that comes from how the individual perceives the arisen moment and attaches a conditioned label of this or that to what arises...

Being in the space of what arises and not attaching a conditioned label to it determines if one truly lives life or if it’s lived in the conditioned realm of a created story of how you think the arisen moment should be. Nothing is inherently good or bad, but when it’s labeled as so it changes the entire dynamics of how the present moment is dealt with. And regardless if it’s labeled good or bad, it creates the same dynamic change of suffering because the labeling makes the moment need to be a certain way. Bad: push it away...Good: pull it in...either way the same discontent is created. Although there may not be awareness of this, the discontent is there nonetheless.

Recently I was on vacation in Florida and it was funny just watching the mind constantly trying to create labels to make the arisen moment into a story. When the sun was out the label was good, when it went in or if a thunder shower passed through, bad. There’s a small gym in the hotel that I went to: nobody in there, good, four people in there, bad. First day on vacation, good, last day, bad. These are but a few, the main thing is to just notice this and not attach, but don’t make not attaching into a story of good or bad. When you can really start to recognize this, the labeling process that gets so engrained in the subconscious because of the Conditioned Mind can start to be let go of; this letting go is as simple as just watching what arises and not attaching a label of good or bad.