Silence Awareness

Without awareness of the mind becoming disturbed because of the absence of silence, the Conditioned Mind will create story after story just so it can fill the absence with noise…

One of the most difficult things to learn in life is to understand the absence of silence in spite of their conditioning telling you noise is needed. To not give in to the noisy mind (disturbed) that tells you to reach for this or that, is so difficult because of the lack of awareness of the absence of silence, and the lack of understanding this absence. Even with awareness and the understanding of the absence of silence, it’s still difficult because of all the outer noise and conditioning. Silence is not something many understand. I’m not talking about sitting in meditation or taking a nap, I mean being wide awake without listening to the noise. For forty nine years there was only noise in my life; there was never silence long enough to be aware of a disturbed mind . I like so many was a noise reactor; a slave to my Conditioned Mind.

For some this doesn’t seem like much of an issue because there isn’t any awareness of the noise, but make no mistake noise is noise and one is a slave to it regardless how productive or subtle it may seem. Without awareness of the mind becoming disturbed in the absence of silence, the Conditioned Mind creates story after story just so it can fill this space with noise. You can only do what the conditioning in place dictates so without awareness of a disturbed mind, life is based in noise. Not listening to noise allows for one to truly be an instrument, but this will only occur if you‘re aware of silence so you don’t have to listen to the noise…

False Self Label

The more attached you are to your name (label), the more a false self is created. When this is realized it leads not so much to knowing who you are, but more so to the truth of who you are not…

One day as I was sitting in silence, it was revealed to me that it took nearly forty nine years to develop a false label to a self along with all the tools I thought were needed to make me who I thought I was suppose to be. For the last sixteen years I have be undoing what my Conditioned Mind developed what it thought was the most beneficial way to live. This false label began at birth when my parents named me for the purpose of having a way to identify me. This label was then attached to by a self that was in the beginning stages of creating a false self.

Seventeen years ago the false label lie was exposed for me as it will be for everyone I gather one day; for most though it will remain in place until the time of death. For some death itself will be the time of this exposure of their false label, but for most they’ll never be aware of it. For those who do awaken to the lie of this false label, there’s a freedom that occurs which can only be known in the space of non attachment to this labeled false self. Bondage is in the belief that you are what you think you are, freedom is in the knowing that you are not. The more the lie of this false label is exposed, the more you’ll see the truth that the false self doesn’t really exist. In this truth there’s a knowing not of who you are, but of who you are not, and it’s in the exposure of this that sets you free because you are no longer in the prison of a false label…

Restricted Awareness

Going through life without an understanding of how the mind becomes conditioned, makes existence much more difficult because it restricts your awareness; restricted awareness, restricts understanding…

We discover the cause of all suffering when we’re truly able to see our conditioning for what it is, and understand how it creates feelings and emotions that aren’t real. They feel real because of the attachment to them, but their reality is only relative to our thinking and the association to our identity. When this is discovered and we disassociate with this kind of thinking, we become more aligned with the Creative Intelligence of the Universe which to me is love; love is what releases the restrictions of our awareness.

When one stops believing in the nonsense of thought, it’s learned how to allow love to be the guide. This is when one is able to see their thoughts for what they truly are, disassociate from them and separate the ones that cause suffering and restrict awareness; this is when suffering ceases to exist. This is not some belief, this is factual. I know this because it’s my direct experience. A thought cannot restrict unless it’s given the energy needed to do so. This is what determines if the thought is attached to or not. The more attachment there is, the more it restricts your awareness. In the awareness of this is one’s freedom. It’s your own ignorance that creates suffering. This suffering is caused by going through life without an understanding of how the mind works and how it restricts your awareness, With restricted awareness you have restricted understanding so you’re easily manipulated…

Life Moments

Your center of being is in your heart and what’s in your heart is determined by how life moments are used to either fulfill self satisfying desires or being an instrument of goodness…

When a life moment presents itself to help a person to possibly reduce some of the suffering that a Conditioned Mind produces, there’s an obligation to be a benefit to that person; that person has to take advantage in what’s presented if something is to awaken within them. If nothing happens nothing is lost, but what if something clicks and their view of life changes; their gain is the worlds gain.

Understand though you can not give away what you haven’t got, so get it and give it so this world becomes a better place. As long as people are kept in the dark, darkness rules, but with awareness you can be a light. There is no greater reward than to be an instrument for goodness, a light in a world that has shades pulled down. Those shades are what keeps people in their ignorance (darkness). To watch a person change right before your eyes is amazing.

I was talking to a Doctor the other day about what transpired in my life, I could see it in her eyes that what we talked about made her think. She may or may not pursue looking at what happens as life moments are presented, but regardless the seed was planted. Whether it’s cultivated to grow will be determined by what’s within her. I did my part, and just maybe a little light was shed and the shade of ignorance was lifted just enough to allow a little light in. To be a seed planter of goodness is so rewarding, but you can only give it if it’s in your heart. You will only be of the heart when life becomes your teacher and you see the choice to let go of “I” as life moments are presented…

Inner Doubt

The inner doubt that keeps you from your peace has nothing to do with life. Inner doubt is a creation of your own mind that makes you believe you’re not at peace…

There are practical ways to minimize the inner doubt that causes one to sabotage their own existence, but it has to be understood that the mind creating the doubt can’t quiet itself. You’ll have to find out why your own mind is telling you doubt is needed to cope with life; a life that is controlled by the conditioning to create inner doubt. Your own mind creates all the inner doubt you have by choosing to attach to thoughts that give the doubt energy. This unconscious conditioning is why doubt arises. The Conditioned Mind creates this as you do things that are destructive to your own well being. Why this doubtful mind set is developed I’m not sure, but I do know it can be described only as insane because your own mind creates it.

I know now it was my own mind that created doubt which arose from within myself. Because of the shift that occurred some years ago there‘s now awareness so inner doubt doesn’t have to be created anymore. I sit for the sole purpose to develop discipline which allows the mind to settle. If there isn’t discipline, your conditioning won’t be understood nor will the reason why doubt arises. This will lead you to being led around like a puppet on a string. Life does nothing to you, it’s your own mind that creates life. Living in a place of doubt as opposed to a place of peace will never be different until the conditioning that makes it so is different. All I ever wanted was to be at peace, but it was always elusive because I wasn’t aware it was my own mind that created the inner doubt that made peace elusive…

Harmonic Actions

When actions are in harmony with love, the heart opens and loving all beings becomes the norm. Not because it’s wanted, but because that’s the way love rolls when actions are in harmony with love…

Loving actions are worth more than all the books combined on what it means to be spiritual. And why this is so is because your harmonic actions are yours and the content of any book is someone else’s. Someone else’s idea of you will never be you, no matter if their way is copied exactly. This is why many remain in their life struggle because they’re trying to be someone else’s idea of who they should be. You can use books, methods, and whatnot as a tool, but the harmonic actions of why you do what you do will need to be reflected upon to see if the results of your efforts are in harmony with love. Not the story of love, but the love that arises not from effort, but from being in harmony with your own heart. This is where effort is meaningless if it’s not in harmony with love. Only loving actions from your own heart result in true meaning.

There are as many books about awakening as there are people practicing, but not everyone who reads a book and practices wakes up. This is because their actions aren’t of the necessary energy that allows harmony with a loving heart. Loving actions need to be understood if there’s to be harmony with all beings. This doesn’t mean a person won’t harm you or animals and insects won’t bite you, but it’s less likely you’ll put yourself in that type of situations being in harmony with a loving heart. In the space of stillness one learns to see their true actions and in the process have those actions in harmony with love. When this occurs you will love all beings, not because it’s wanted, but because that’s the way love rolls when your actions are in harmony with love…

Love Portal

The Conditioned Mind is grounded in selfishness, this is why many people don’t see the love portal. The love portal is always there, but it needs to be noticed so one can turn towards it and allow it to transform…

Love is a portal with transforming properties, that’s why when one sees the love portal, they’re transformed. Look at people, all begin as an infant. All have the potential to love, but it’s still only an infant. You put them in an environment, nurture them and give them all kinds of tools to cope with life, but without the source of a love portal, the transformation to a loving person will not occur. This transforming love portal is the source of life. Go into a room filled with selfish energy and show the love portal, there’s an instant transformation of the room. The rooms energy comes alive with color, the entire room is transformed. Without the love portal people still exist, but their vibrance is hidden.

When one wakes up to experience this hidden vibrance, it’s the love portal that transforms. You can be selfish your entire life, but once the love portal is seen, for the most part selfishness goes away. It will return somewhat because of one’s conditioning, but one will never be as selfish as they once were. They can’t because there will always awareness of love. This love portal reveals truth; it’s impossible to completely turn away from it. As stated before selfishness resurfaces because of one’s unconscious conditioning, but this love portal is always on beneath the conditioning because love is the source of our existence and the true essence of who we are. The Conditioned Mind is grounded in selfishness and the world is the way it is because not enough people see the love portal. The love portal is always there, it just needs to be noticed so one can turn towards it and allow it to transform…

Closed Mind

There’s nothing beneficial when someone has a closed mind. What happens is free flowing energy is cut off by a closed mind which causes suffering…

A closed mind is what causes you to get locked into only seeing things from the side of suffering. It matters little what the closed mind is; it’s the rigidness of being unmovable that doesn’t allow free flowing energy. This is what happens when a story is created and it becomes the closed mind of what life is about in any particular moment. This view becomes deeply embedded as you become emotionally tied into whatever it is that’s being focused on. It’s very difficult to not attach to something that is held dear to our hearts, such as our children, spouse, parents, relatives, friends and so on. You can have compassion and genuine love for something without attaching to it or being closed minded.

To me, a closed mind is the constant view of most people and it’s why many suffer unnecessarily. I’ve noticed this occurring in so many lives and I can see the suffering it’s causing. Unfortunately those in the midst of a closed mind cannot see it, nor can one pull themselves out of it until it’s seen as the cause of their suffering. A closed mind doesn’t allow the openness needed to be free of attachment, and since attachment is the root of suffering, suffering follows. The tighter the grip of something the more closed it becomes and the less free flowing energy there is in your life. There’s not much life in something that’s unmovable and this is exactly what happens when your free flowing energy is cut off; the closed mind controls life and causes suffering…

Spiritual Light

Spiritual light is of love and is the only thing that sustains the spiritual dimension. It’s not a possession, it’s given freely by doing less and becoming a channel to emit love to others…

The spiritual light is the exact opposite of the material world. In the material world, the more you accomplish as an individual the more successful you’re considered to be by others. Also the more you possess, the more material success becomes the guiding light of your life. Spiritual light doesn’t require individual accomplishments as they don’t assist in being more spiritual; you can’t possess spirituality. Unlike the material world, spiritual light is not a doing. The more you think you need to do something to be attain spiritual light, the less spiritual you will be. Spirituality is not something to possess, it can never be attained. In the material world the more you have, the more you are held in esteem. In the spiritual light the less you have, the more you are held in esteem. Not because of you, it’s because of the light of Universal Love that is emitted to others. You are held in esteem because of the light within, not because of anything possessed.

Those conditioned by the material world are attracted to possessions. Spiritual people are attracted to light. The light of Universal Love is the only thing that sustains the spiritual light. It’s not a possession, it’s given freely by doing less and becoming a channel to emit light to others. It isn’t a doing, actually the more you try to do to possess light, the less it shines. It’s in stillness that the spiritual light shines and becomes what your life is guided by. The quieter you become, the brighter the spiritual light shines and the more attracted others will be to it, but you can only be guided by spiritual light when you stop trying to attain it and learn to Just Be…

Predictable Results

When the energy of life is based to self-serve you reap those predictable results. You cannot be but what you are, so love and produce those predictable results…

Everyone has their own inner journey to discover the things that will make life beneficial to ourselves and others. We all use different things for this and there is no one way to accomplish this; though some ways are more beneficial than others. Obviously when something is done and it brings harm to another person there will be harsher predictable results than if the action was based in love; even if you don’t get caught. I’m not one to say “God is always watching so God knows” I don’t truly know that, but I do know I cannot hide from predictable results, and that is the one I have to answer to. I can lie to you, I can even lie to me, but that doesn’t mean there won’t be predictable results.

Understanding ourselves is our journey. When we do things that are of a self-serving nature, we along with others pay the predictable price for that. Even if the predictable results aren’t seen from self-serving actions, they are there. So many diseases are linked to self-serving results, they just aren’t labeled in that way. Suffering predictable results from diabetes, cancer, depression, stress, anxiety, just to name a few can be linked to self-serving behavior in some way. This is not a belief, this is a medical fact. When one is of love, the predictable results of suffering are at a minimum. It’s very important to develop awareness of this so there’s the possibility of going beyond the self-serving predictable results…

Consciously Aware

Everyone who is alive is at least semi conscious; this is basically true for all beings. Where humans differ from other species is in the ability to be consciously aware…

A friend shared a story about a ferret he has as a pet. It seemed the ferret actually liked this person. He would hold the ferret and it would fall asleep in his arms. It would lick his hand and take food from him. One day as the ferret was eating out of a bowl, this person took the food away before the ferret was finished. The ferret bit and scratched his hand, so much for liking the individual. The ferret knew his food was being taken away, but it ended there. There was no awareness of who was actually taking the food, his food was being taken away and the ferret didn’t like it. This is how many humans react to situations, they like people as long as they don’t take away what they like.

To go beyond this mindset there must be awareness of it. This is where we as humans differ. Other species don’t have this ability to be consciously aware. If you look around it would seem most humans don’t have this ability either. What will have to transpire at some point in your life for this to change is truly being conscious of being aware; noticing what arises when what is liked is taken away or just when something naturally changes. This is key if you’re not going to be drawn into the unconsciousness of what’s changing. Suffering comes from not being consciously aware of being controlled by what’s liked. When there’s awareness of this, one can be conscious of it, but not attach to it, thus one is free. What you like will still be taken away at times, but hopefully you are consciously aware of this and you won’t bite or scratch when it happens…

Old Habit Reality

For many, old habits have way too much control over what is done today. Until this is identified and old habits are let go of, you will continue to be controlled by them as if you were a puppet on a string…

Understanding that living life today in the present as opposed to living it from old habits, is the difference in being at peace or being controlled by conditioning. When you’re living in the present you’re with true reality, not an old habit reality. When there isn’t the present reality, there’s the delusional state of old habits which makes for very little if any peace in your life.

The reality of what’s occurring in the present means if you’re reading this post, that’s reality. There’s nothing else going on beyond what’s happening right now. There may be something going on between your ears, but that’s the created delusional state of old habits (what isn’t). The bottom line is, your old habits are not the reality of what’s occurring in the present.

The mind has been conditioned to think it has to use old habits to create a life that’s better than the one that’s occurring presently; this is what keeps you from truly living life. I’m not sure why this is, but I do know it has to do with influences beyond one’s control. To me what matters is to develop a disciplined method of sitting which allows you to break free of the control of these old habit influences. Control is control so the more you’re controlled by old habits, the less reality there will be. Unless you live in the present reality, and learn how to identify old habits influences, it will be impossible to ever be free because you’ll remain under the spell of your old habits…

Mind Created Lies

There are many lies to what an awakening is, for those awake there’s awareness of these lies. Remember this, the mind that creates lies is the same mind that reinforces the lies…

All lies are a creation of the mind, until there’s awareness of this the lies remain. One of the most important things to realize when it comes to lessening the mind lies is, the mind that creates lies is the same mind that reinforces the lies. Think about how it’s your own mind creating lies, so you’re basically lying to yourself. What’s crazy about this is it’s like there are two minds with different views. This goes on in most lives every single day without realizing it, but don’t be fooled by the lies because even the view that isn’t a lie can create lies; to be awake is to be aware of this.

An awakening isn’t a mystical mind state, it’s simply about becoming aware of the thoughts that are lies, that’s basically it. It’s in this awareness that one naturally stops attaching to the lying thoughts. Being awake doesn’t stop them from arising, but there’s awareness they’re there; the attachment to the lies is seen. Until there’s awareness of this, the mind will continue to create lies and reinforce them. It does this to distract you from the truth. And as long as there are lies without awareness, you’ll continue to be controlled by a mind that holds you in captivity to its lies…

Wanting More

While you’re busy making plans, life happens. If you’re not careful most of what happens will be missed because you’ll be too busy convincing yourself more is wanted…

The only thing that makes a person think something more is wanted to enhance life is their own conditioning. Until this is realized, this conditioning will keep you in the state of wanting more. This state of wanting more is a constant for most, this means most are missing what life truly offers. If a person is alive life will be experienced, but ask yourself is your life being fully lived or are you under the spell of your own Conditioned Mind that makes you want more. Wanting more is the default setting of most minds; unfortunately so much of life is missed because of this. This is a mind agitation that keeps wanting more in place which doesn’t allow any contentment with what’s actually taking place.

Grab more of whatever you think you want, but except for a few brief moments contentment will be fleeting. Sit and visualize having all the riches of the world and see how this really changes your life. It will only be a matter of time before something more is wanted. This is because regardless of what one has or what’s going on, if there isn’t some level of contentment with the way things are, you will constantly convince yourself you want more, and wanting more will always be…

Sense Reliance

Sense reliance creates a prison to a self that blocks love from being the guiding energy of daily living, and although you may be alive, reliance on the senses doesn’t allow you to truly live…

Sense reliance creates a prison to the material world of self. How controlling this is determines the degree that the senses have a hold on you; make no mistake, sense reliance is self-serving reliance regardless of what is used. Alcohol or drugs are only different than soda because of their devastating consequences. No matter what’s used sense reliance keeps you in prison. I’d like to address something much more subtle than some substance or object and that is the reliance on your own mind is the real prison.

A substance or object can hold you in captivity, but it’s the mind that puts you in the place of sense reliance. Without the mind telling you sense reliance is needed, it would be non existent. The subtleness of this sense reliance is literally mind boggling. Take an alarm clock as an example, as soon as the alarm rings, if the snooze button is hit, instantly the mind makes the self want the moment to be in some other way. If this mind set isn’t altered to bring about awareness, it’s off to the races of being controlled by a mind that’s been conditioned to satisfy a sense reliance self.

This takes on many forms: talking about others, eating habits, pouting or sulking, social status, being miserly (cheap), trying to control situations and people, judging, lust, greed, envy, self righteousness, false pride, and the list goes on, but what all these have in common is they are all sense reliance solutions of the Conditioned Mind to fix an internal problem of lack. Until something is done to allow the mind to settle, this will probably go on to the day that you’re near death. If this happens, you will see how most of your life was never truly experienced in the way that it could have been. This may not seem as devastating as say using alcohol or drugs, but it’s because either way life is experienced from a sense reliance perspective and is never truly lived…