Life Happens

Living in a house and being stuck on the inside because of being unaware there’s an outside is like a person who thinks life is what goes on between your ears…

Someone mentioned to me in a post about being stuck in the rut of wanting life to be different. My reply was this: You’re only stuck when you live in the space between your ears. As the road to happy destiny is trudged, your conditioning slowly changes, but contentment shouldn’t be based on this change. I’ve come to an understanding of life that it’s perfect when it’s accepted as it is; it’s perfect in its imperfections. Until this was understood my searching for perfection remained in place. That’s what one’s search is really all about anyway; trying to have things how they are wanted.

For me my searching ended when I understood my conditioning is not me. I don’t try to be anything or achieve a certain state, I am what I am. This is my place of peace and the great thing about this is it’s not dependent on anything. Read your books, sit in meditation, go to the gym, do yoga and what not, but none of these things nor will anything else stop the searching, that’s until it’s realized what’s here right now is what you are searching for…

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Hidden Past

What occurs now happens now, but when it’s seen through the eyes of the past you’re not with what‘s actually occurring. You can’t be present for the present when the past is being used to live now…

Living from hidden past energy patterns isn’t something that jumps out at you, the patterns hide under cover waiting for the opportunity to be used. The patterns don’t have to be glaring nor does the hidden past always manifest as destructive actions. But it is destructive in the way it doesn’t allow you to be with what’s occurring right now; it takes you away from living life now. You end up living the same life over and over, doing the same thing, getting the same results, basically it’s as if you’re stuck in a rut which only gets deeper each time the hidden past is grabbed and brought into the present. You can’t be present for the present when the past is being used. Much quietness will be needed to see the hidden past and how it’s used.

Our hidden past energy patterns are very subtle and are deeply ingrained, noticing this is the first step in the liberation from this energy. This energy is so controlling because it’s brought into the present and blocks the ability to live right now; not many truly live in the moment of what’s actually occurring. Although what occurs now happens now it’s mostly seen through the eyes of the past. There’s so much hidden past energy and only in awareness of this can these patterns even begin to be broken. Watch the mind and how it constantly uses the past to live now. How you can tell that something is being used from the past is by the label being applied to it in the present moment. When it’s all said and done, the present moment needs no hidden past to be…

Being Human

Our walk of life is not one of a made up perfection where it has to be a certain way. Whatever arises has to be accepted exactly as it is with seeing the perfection in the desire of wanting things different…

Being human means having desires. Unless this is accepted exactly as it is without needing things different so one can get a better seat in heaven or move up on the angelic chain of command, life will seem to always have some kind of struggle associated with it. One of the common traits I notice when I talk to people about the Conditioned Mind is they don’t accept themselves exactly as they are; a self imposed label of imperfect is usually applied. There are so many conditioned desires ingrained in each of us and if they’re not accepted as they arise one will live a struggled existence needing those desires to be different than what they are.

Accept yourself and all your desires and just watch as they arise. This isn’t a right or wrong thing, it’s just part of being human and it has to be accepted if there’s to be peace. Today there is much opinionated energy all around which causes much suffering as there are desires for what’s wanted to play out the way one wants it. This wanting usually manifest as individual energy, but at times it will be both individual and collective energy. If results aren’t accepted as they are it’s because the opinionated desires are in control wanting different results. Anything that happens has to be accepted as it is if one is to be at peace. This is made difficult because nasty things occur and because one is human an attached label is applied to what arises as being unpleasant. This makes one want whatever arises to be different and as long as one’s energy doesn’t accept their human desires as they are there will never be peace…

Spirit Within

A person doesn’t wake up because something from the outside shakes them, it occurs because the spirit within awakens; everyone has this spirit within…

When a person has an awakening from within, they wake up from the spirit being asleep and unaware of what truth is. When this first occurs the implications of what has happened aren’t truly realized. In my own case I knew something happened because my view of life changed, but I didn’t know what it meant. I did know for the first time in my life that I was going to be okay. I likened this awakening as though I was dead spiritually, but I had the spirit in my heart that I wasn’t aware of. I didn’t wake up because something from the outside shook me, I woke up because I discovered the spirit within that I already possessed. I didn’t know the value of this at first, as a matter of fact I didn’t even know I had this spirit in my heart. Even when some do become slightly aware of it, it very easily could be mistaken for an ordinary event; for me life was this way for many many years. As I look back throughout my life, I had an inkling this spirit existed, but it was dismissed as just being nonsense. Because of this I kept looking for what was already in me.

Nothing is given to us from the outside that the inside doesn’t already have in its possession, but because of the conditioning in place, there’s no awareness of this. Obviously we’re not talking material possessions, I’m strictly talking about the spirit of love that we all possess. This is worth more than anything in the world and it is also the thing most readily available to everyone, it’s just that the conditioning in place keeps one looking for their answers out there when all along you already have what you’re looking for…

Mind Thirst

Although the pleasures of the world take on many forms, it’s the thirst of the mind that makes one seek them. This thirst can only be quenched in stillness, because when the mind is still there is no thirst…

One aspect of the Conditioned Mind is how it’s in a pleasure seeking mode most of the time. Even when we get down on ourselves, it’s a perverse form of pleasure. The mind wants to keep all the pleasure thoughts and discard the unpleasant ones; it spends most of its time doing this. Whether it’s weaving in and out of traffic, only to catch a red light and have all the cars that you just passed pull up to the same light, or doing something and asking yourself why you did it, the reason for the doing is strictly to seek some form of pleasure. That your own mind questions why you do what you do is how diabolical it is, but understand it’s only this way because of the way it has been conditioned.

The pleasure seeking mode is not one which is in our best interest, but the Conditioned Mind doesn’t really care about that; control is all it cares about. It makes you think seeking pleasure is a necessity, but when the mind starts to settle and it loses its grip on you, you will see the fallacy of this. True pleasure is in stillness not in things, but the pleasure of stillness is not the same pleasure that the world offers. The pleasure of the world is based in lies, the pleasure of stillness is based in truth. The parable in the bible speaks of quenching a thirst that only God (stillness) can satisfy. This thirst is the self seeking pleasure of the world, this is the thirst the world creates, but it cannot be quenched. It’s only in stillness that this thirst is satisfied, not because it’s given something to quench it, but because in stillness a thirst never materializes so there is no thirst to quench…

Inner Agitations

The inner agitations that keep you from your peace have nothing to do with life. They are a creation of your own mind and that’s what makes you believe you are not at peace…

There are practical ways to minimize the inner agitations that cause you to sabotage your own existence, but it has to be understood that the same mind creating the agitations cannot quiet them. You will have to find out why your own mind makes you think the agitations are needed to cope with life; a life that is controlled by the conditioning to create these agitations. Your own mind creates every agitation you have by choosing to attach to thoughts that allow them to arise; this unconscious conditioning is why one gets agitated. The Conditioned Mind develops this as you do things that are destructive to your own well being. Why this agitated mind set is developed I’m not sure, but I do know it can be described only as insane because you do this to yourself.

I know it was my own mind that created agitations which arose from within myself. Because of the shift that occurred some years ago, there is now awareness so the agitations don’t have to be created anymore. I sit for the sole purpose to develop discipline which allows the mind to settle. If there isn’t discipline the conditioning won’t be understood nor why agitations arise won’t be understood so you will be led around like a puppet on a string. Life does nothing to you, it’s your own mind that does it all. Why one lives in a agitated place as opposed to a place of peace will never change until the conditioning that makes it so is changed. All I ever wanted was to be at peace, but I wasn’t aware it was my own mind that created agitations which made me believe I wasn’t at peace…

The Idea of Self

The whole of anything is not the thing itself unless it’s labeled as so. This labeling is but an idea of an “I” that only exist to form the delusional concept of a self…

The idea of self has kept many wandering helplessly for possibly countless lifetimes. The idea has done this, the concept of self is not the self, nor does it truly have anything to do with you. It’s just an idea that keeps one trapped to a self story. It’s always the story itself that keeps one trapped and although it may seem as though what’s being used to create the story keeps you trapped, it’s not. It can’t be because there’s no substance to a story and this is because it’s of the mind and there’s nothing solid when it’s from the mind; it’s as fleeting as yesterday’s dream. If the story is about something that happened that means you are bringing the past into the present and this creates a delusional mindset. Or if you’re bringing the future into the present again you’re creating a delusional mindset by not being with what’s actually happening.

This is what happens when the idea of self is the driving energy behind how one lives. If everything done is derived from self than life will be delusional because the self is delusional. Self is an idea, it’s made up. It’s not that there isn’t existence, but unless you can truly see where this self is it has to cause problems if it’s attached to you. What I mean by this is if you take the idea away of what you think your self is, nothing remains. You’ve been labeled (named) for identification purposes and all the other labels just fall in line, son, daughter, brother, sister, and so on. Without an applied label where is the self? You have a body, but you are not the body. The whole of anything is not the thing itself unless it’s labeled as so and this labeling is but an idea of an “I” that only exist to form the delusional concept of a self…

Baited Energy

What the unawareness of unconscious bait does is it keeps the exact energy that one is standing up against in place; in the process nothing really changes…

The bait of lies are in place to grab you and pull you deeper into an unconscious state. Not many break free once the bait is taken, but if you know the bait is there it’s less likely to grab you; not being aware of the bait is why one gets lured by it. Not many investigate where the bait is so they’re led unconsciously. By the time this is noticed it’s usually to late and you become a prisoner to the bait. This has been going on since humanity began. Today’s world is full of lies just as thousands of years ago, there’s just more news coverage and social media to spread the lies and make no mistake that’s what’s being done. This cause, that cause, I don’t like this or that, all the unconscious energy being put out. I have been unfriended by many because they have chosen not to look at this. The lies in place cannot be seen by one who believes them; strong language but true.

Get baited into the story of the injustices that appear to be going on, but understand this is nothing new. It has been and will continue to occur because of the energy in place. This isn’t to say that the injustices aren’t there, but taking a stand against them feeds them with energy to allow them to continue. If you don’t think this is true what has changed in the last two years or even the last two thousand years in the way humanity reacts to things? This article isn’t about the last two years because this energy has been in place for many many years. This is what the unawareness of the unconscious bait does, it keeps the exact energy that one is standing up against in place. In the process although this energy makes one think they have to stand up for what they believe, it doesn’t really change much…

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Truth Revelation

What occurs when one awakens is there’s a revelation from the head to the heart; this is truth revealed. With this revelation you no longer have a surface view, it’s now from the inside out…

People think they change when they learn something new, but the essence of what is truly happening is what’s revealed has always been there. It’s not really a change that occurs, it’s a revelation from a delusional surface view, with the revelation being the innerstanding of the true nature of life; looking inward at your own mind. You cannot know truth if you do not know yourself and you cannot know yourself if you do not know your own mind. The reason why it’s so difficult this truth revelation to occur is because the mind will not settle down without a struggle. Your mind will tell you looking through a surface view is needed to get by in life; as long as it’s thought to be pleasurable…

Self investigation is not pleasurable especially when it’s first started, that’s why so many are hesitant to do it. It’s much easier and pleasurable not to investigate and do wha familiar, but there are only benefits when an honest self appraisal is done. A step into the unfamiliar will need to be taken so you can get to know the truth of who you aren’t.

The mind defaults naturally to what’s familiar because it’s what’s on the surface, but an honest self appraisal allows for truth to be revealed and rise to the surface; this is how truth becomes familiar. When the revelation of truth is what’s on the surface what happens is the veil of ignorance is removed and where you were once blind you can now see. It’s not a change, it’s a revelation that allows the truth that has always been there to be seen…

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InnerTension

Although it seems what occurs in life is the cause of one’s inner tension, this is not the case. The inner tension that arises is already in place, if it wasn’t there’s no way it would be there…

One can only react to life with what‘s in place. Something like anger arises because its been learned, this also goes for fear, greed, hate, and so on. I constantly reacted like this for many many years without this understanding and it kept me locked into my inner tension without an inkling that the only reason it was occurring was because it was in place. Simply put, when something occurred that I didn’t like whether it was what someone said or did, or something that happened, my inner tension arose without my permission or knowledge as to why I reacted as I did. What arose was whatever my conditioning deemed appropriate. The only reason this happened is because it was already there laying in wait: like a lion waiting to pounce on its unsuspecting prey.

Understanding this is where there is power in knowledge. If why inner tension arises isn’t understood, there will be very little true periods where tension is not in control. Through awareness of what’s arising one has something tangible to use to get beyond it. Why most people remain as they are and repeat the same reactions over and over is because of the total unawareness of why it happens. To me this knowledge has immense value because when it’s seen one can truly decipher whether what’s in place is beneficial or not. That’s when a course of action can be developed to change whatever’s in place that’s causing the inner tension to rear its ugly head…

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No True Lack

There is nothing lacking that isn't created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of oneself. Until this is seen your lack will remain intact…

Think of this, every time someone goes to a program designed for a specific issue because they believe they are this or that, or a person goes to see a therapist, or they reach for another self help book, or if any other type of outside help is sought, because of the applied label of having a certain problem, all one is doing is reinforcing the attachment to that label and hence they're keeping themselves in bondage to a label that exist only because they themselves have applied it. Read this very carefully because why this label is being applied will be the difference in breaking free from your created lack or remaining entrapped to it. It's not that some of the things mentioned don't have value if needed at certain times in one's life, but if they're being held onto as an end to a means, they lose their value as the needing morphs into lack.

Not many will see exactly what I'm talking about here, but I'm writing it because it's what I experienced after many many years of trying to fix an internal lack which was self created. I have found the very things that I was using to fill this lack is what kept me lacking; this was regardless of what was being used. Why I created this lack is what I needed to find out because it didn't truly exist and since it didn't truly exist why was it there. To me if something from the outside is needed to live life, something inside isn't right. If I can't just be with myself without the reliance on something outside of me I have to ask myself why this so. There is never a lack that isn't created so there is never a true need to rely on anything from the outside of oneself. Until this is seen one's lack will remain intact…

An Unchecked View

There's not much life in something that has no flow. This is exactly what happens when one has an unchecked view, free flowing energy is cut off which unfortunately causes suffering…

A unchecked view is what causes a person to get locked into only seeing things from one side. It matters little what the it is, as it's the rigidness of being unchecked that doesn't allow one’s energy to be free flowing. This is what happens when a story is created and it becomes the unchecked view of what life is about in any particular moment. The unchecked view becomes deeply ingrained as one becomes more and more emotionally tied into whatever it is that's being focused on. It's very difficult to not attach to something that’s made up by the mind but has a story of it being dear to your heart. Such as children, spouse, parents, relatives, friends and so on. You can have compassion, passion, and genuine love for something without attaching to it.

To me this unchecked view is the normal view of most people and it's why many suffer unnecessarily. I've noticed this occurring in so many lives and I can see the suffering it causes. Unfortunately those in the midst of this unchecked view can’t see it, nor can they pull themselves out of it until it’s seen as the cause of their suffering. The unchecked view doesn't allow the openness needed to be free from attachment and since attachment is the root of suffering, suffering is inevitable. The tighter the grip the more there’s living with an unchecked view and the less free flowing energy there is in one's life. There's not much life in something that has no flow and this is exactly what happens when one's free flowing energy is cut off as the unchecked view controls life and inevitably causes suffering...

Chapters of Life

The difference between learning from each chapter of life and living it to its highest quality or being stuck in a chapter where life is the same old same old is breaking free from the lie of "I" or remaining its prisoner…

Life can be seen as chapters in a book, at least this has been my experience and one will have to go through these different chapters if you're not to get stuck in the one that's in place. Not everyone goes beyond a chapter that's in place, some remain stuck for years, even a life time. Although to a point, the chapters themselves happen naturally, learning and going to the next chapter does not; the quality of life will be determined by what is learned in a previous and current chapter. Life is something that happens on its own, but there is a certain responsibility one has in making it of the highest quality. A simple example of this would be when you were in the chapter of your life when it was time to read, if you didn't take responsibility to learn this, to say that life would be difficult today would be an understatement, so at this stage of your life, you did what was necessary to make it of a higher quality.

As I've grown up over the years, I've noticed there were many chapters in my life, but not all provided the highest quality of living because of the things I did which didn't allow it. The chapters of life will happen, but what's learned is where maturity comes from. To me the biggest lesson was learning to expose the lie of "I" because that's what I found was the biggest hurdle in living the highest quality of life possible. It's not that I'm now all about helping others, but what I learned was life is not all about me or what I think and therein lies the difference between learning from each chapter, moving forward, and being able to live life to its highest quality or being stuck in a chapter where life is the same old same old…

Seduced by Desire

The most important thing to understand about being seduced by desire is the less one is attached to "I" the less one will be seduced because without "I" there's no one desiring...

Being seduced by desire is so enticing because it actually feels good and this is why desire is so powerful. The only real issue with this is because of the impermanent nature of desire. It simply will not last no matter what; it has no staying power so something else will be needed almost immediately following the attainment of the desire. Think about it, with all the desires that have been attained throughout your life regardless of what it was, it doesn’t bring the fulfillment now that it brought at that time. Most times even if the same exact desired fulfillment is physically repeated it's usually not as satisfying as the first experience. I used so many things as I was seduced by my desired seeking conditioning, but it was never lasting. The seduction of the next needed desire always arose. This went on all the time, attaining one desire after another and never being satisfied. 

I've come to understand being seduced by desire as the main reason people reach for things. If your desires didn’t need fulfillment nothing would be reached for so there would never be a need for anything hence there wouldn’t be any issue. But unfortunately the seduction of desire has its way with people as it's deeply ingrained in the subconscious and has been in place before your existence began. I know being seduced by desire is what was controlling me for forty nine years and it was directly associated with "I". Without "I" no one is there to be seduced. Even with this understanding, being seduced by desire doesn't just disappear, but it does subside somewhat. To me the most important thing to understand about this is, the less one is attached to "I" the less one will be seduced and it's because without "I" there's no one who needs to fulfill the next desire...

Intuitiveness Guidance

There's no suffering in the space of intuitiveness because there’s no attachment so being aware of your "I" attachment and not holding onto it allows intuitiveness to be what guides your life…

The struggle one has with life is strictly mind based and it's because there's no structure to the mind. Being led by the mind is equivalent to building a house on sand; we all know what happens when the first storm comes. Often mind based information is held onto which keeps you trapped to the mind. I know how deeply ingrained the conditioning is and I know sometimes I may come on strong, but it's only because what‘s seen can't be ignored. 

There are basically two forces that guide the mind. One is suffering, the other is intuitiveness (non suffering). These forces manifest in many way. The core of suffering is attachment to "I" (selfishness). This force leads as greed, envy, anger, pride, desire, doubt, restlessness, regret and so on. You can see how these will cause suffering. If this is the direction that guides your mind, you will suffer. The other force is intuitiveness, which leads as kindness, generosity, compassion, empathy, understanding, stillness, and so on. I'm sure you can see how these don’t cause suffering. Make no mistake though you will still encounter the possibility of suffering even with being led by intuitiveness because of how ingrained the conditioning is. But if attachment to "I" isn't in place the suffering force won't be in place. To me the key is being aware of "I" attachment and not holding onto it. Without it the force that guides your life will be from intuitiveness and there's no suffering in this space because intuitiveness simply has no attachment…