Now Completeness

Cling to nothing and nothing will be needed. Imagine not needing to cling to anything to be happy, joyous, and free with the understanding your completeness is always Now…

Without the inner silence of Now you will not be mindful that you are creating stories. Even this writing is a story of how not to create stories, but being mindful of writing helps me to minimize the clinging to it and thus once it’s written it’s time to move on. If it’s the end of the story or not depends on how “I“ relates it to its identity. The more “I” needs it for an identity, the more “I” clings to it and the more a needed story is created. No clinging, no needed story, no needed story, no discontentment of what isn’t so all you are left with is what’s here Now, not the story of Now, but Nows actual reality.

Story after story. The story of how I feel, or the story of reading another book, or a life story, every life is an endless book of stories, that is until one becomes mindful that the story teller and the story are one in the same. Being here Now instead of a creating a story will be the most difficult thing you will ever do in life; just be in the silence of what’s here. Cling to nothing and nothing will be needed. Imagine that, not needing anything to be happy, joyous, and free with the understanding your completeness already is. It‘s right here within your grasp, but you will never truly be mindful of it until you realize it’s not a story that needs clinging to, it’s learning to simply be here Now…

Changing Your Conditioning

If anything is ever going to change in your life, the conditioning in place will have to change. This will only happen when there’s awareness the conditioning isn’t providing the most beneficial results…


When something is conditioned it will do certain things because it has to, whether it wants to or not; it has to do what it has been conditioned to do. Our mind becomes conditioned in this way and unless this is changed or at least noticed to some degree, it will remain conditioned. It’s imperative to understand this so first the conditioning in place can be identified and second so the conditioning that may not be serving you in the most beneficial way can be changed. The conditioning that ran my life for many years was a self serving one and after a long period of time (forty nine years to be exact), I realized the conditioning was not really benefitting me or anyone else for that matter. This realization was the beginning stages for the possibility of the conditioning to change. This will take some effort because of how ingrained the conditioning is, but the effort is more so about awareness than an actual exertion to get rid of it.


Once you become aware there may be other conditioning to live by, the process of changing it begins. This is difficult because part of the original conditioning is to hold onto the familiar even if it’s not providing much benefit. This is how the dog chasing its tail syndrome remains in place; to the point of its own destruction. The Conditioned Mind has many tools and influences it uses, some inner some outer, it’s just part of the conditioning. This is why when a person acts in a particular way they are accountable, but aren’t really responsible for what they do. If anything is ever going to change in your life, the conditioning in place will have to change which will only happen when there’s awareness the conditioning isn’t providing you with the most beneficial results…

Routinely Controlled

Without recognition of the routines that are formed, one is blindly controlled by them. They say it’s time to jump and the only thing you can do is jump and if you are really attached, you will blindly ask how high…

If you want to understand your mind you will need to sit and observe it. Whatever you think and ponder upon that is what becomes the base of your mind and hence this is what becomes your routine actions. If there is no sitting, there’s very little chance for the mind to settle so it won’t be observed. As a routine is formed it becomes second nature, there’s very little observation in this mind activated action. These routine actions are different for everyone, but they are common at their root. They all arise in some way from the desire to seek pleasure. It matters little what one uses to fulfill this pleasure seeking routine and because there’s very little awareness of this, it’s in control of you. There needs to be an understanding that your actions become a routine that become ingrained by what you think. This is what determines whether your actions are wholesome (loving) or unwholesome (selfish). Simply put, loving actions should be cultivated so they become routine.

If there isn’t any sitting to allow the mind to settle, an understanding of it will be difficult and so observing the routine patterns will not be recognized. Without recognition of these, you are blindly controlled by them. This is why things are done without hesitation that aren’t in our best interest. Without the ability to observe the thoughts that arise, one is like a puppet on a string. Sitting allows the mind to settle so there can be an observation of this and one by one the puppet strings can be cut. If nothing is in place to allow this settling, the Conditioned Mind puppeteer will continue to control and you will blindly and without hesitation do things routinely that aren’t in your best interest or what’s best for others…

Trapped in the Known

We repeat the same mistakes again and again as we constantly respond to the same triggers as we react out of the habit of what’s known; this is done without even realizing it…

Why is it so difficult to awaken? There are many reason for this, the one that sticks out the most is how the Conditioned Mind holds onto what’s known even if it causes extreme suffering. When I was twenty five my oldest brother passed away from an addiction related incident, this forced my parents to make me look at my alcohol and drug use. His death opened my eyes somewhat, but even though my life was a mess it didn’t mean I was willing to go into unknown territory without my pacifiers to cope with life, and this was with full knowledge that alcohol and drugs were the cause of all my problems. It took another two years before a decision was made that I had enough, but even though I was going into unknown territory I figured it had to be better than the way I was living.

The reason it took two years was because although I was in suffering, my conditioning led me to believe facing the unknown was to scary and the known was the way to go; the lies of the Conditioned Mind run deep. This is why we repeat the same mistakes and it’s also why we constantly react to the same triggers; we react out of habit without even realizing it. The conditioning in place dictates what is done and it’s obeyed without question, and here’s the real irony in all of this, people actually believe they have free will and have a choice. The only thing one can do is submit to what’s known because that’s what’s in place. Once there’s awareness of this, succumbing to the known can be stopped and the choice to live life freely becomes a possibility along with the free will to not give in to the Conditioned Mind…

Harmonic Energy

Although we are one consciousness, when your energy is out of harmony because of selfish desires it puts you not only at odds with yourself, but it also takes you out of harmony with the entire Universe…

We begin our existence in this form in perfect harmony with Universal energy. In the beginning stages of life we are basically one with it; there isn’t really much to block this harmonic energy. We live mostly fulfilling our instinctual needs, not much thought going on. As we get older we start the process of becoming conditioned by whatever environment and influences we are exposed to. In other words we start to form our story and this story is what changes our energy. This is why Jesus made many references in his teachings to children, because as a child without being trapped by the Conditioned Mind, your energy remains in harmony with the Universe, or as Jesus called this, Father.

No where is it written when you make up a story of becoming something that this is what allows you to remain in harmony with the Universe. Matter of fact anything that is put before your harmony changes your energy so you become out of sorts; to me this is how the Law of Attraction works. This change in energy puts you at a lower energy level and this is what you attract. Success is only a measurement of the standards that society endorses, not the Universe. There can be much success by worldly standards, but it doesn’t mean you’re a success by the standards of the Divine. True success is determined by the harmony of your energy with the Universe.

It’s written to become like little children, not become a doctor, lawyer, professional athlete, a writer or anything else, so if you have the heart of a little child, you can become anything that you please because you will be in harmony with the Universe. This harmony is your oneness and it’s what makes you complete regardless of anything else. You will attract the things of the energy you live by. You may fool people by being successful according to worldly standards, but the Universe will not nor can not be fooled as you only receive what your energy is in harmony with…

The Binding Past

The energy of the past is so binding because of the way the Conditioned Mind uses past experiences to process now and until this is realized the present moment will basically be a thing of the past…


Here’s the reason the present moment has so much value and why it’s so difficult to grasp. However old you may be, if you aren’t living in the present moment you are living from all your past experiences where nothing truly exist. In my case as far the past is concerned, there’s sixty one years of past. It’s no wonder the mind has a difficult time with this, there’s just so much information for it to process and it’s added to every moment of every day. Then there’s the future and although this dynamic is different than the past, things are still used from the past to process the future, case in point is the way the mind reaches for thing. Most of why something is reached for is to change the way you feel at that moment and also how you want to feel in the future. For me there are sixty one years of Conditioned Mind Patterns in place, this is why when a person stops using one thing another thing is substituted for it.


People only gain weight when they stop reaching for cigarettes because they turn the reaching attention to using food in response to a mind agitation. When the mind settles and more time is spent in the present moment, the reaching to quiet a mind agitation lessens and so do the substitutions. The older a person is the more ingrained their conditioning is. It has been proven those who start a sitting practice at an early age have much more stability in their life than someone who doesn’t; to me it makes sense because they don’t have the past binding them up. Don’t make this anymore complicated than it needs to be, live in the present where life truly exist or live in the past and future where the only thing that exist is past and future binding which only occurs because of the conditioning in place…

Mind Seeking Hunger

Although the pleasures of the world take on many forms, it’s the hunger of the mind that makes you seek. This hunger can only be satisfied in stillness because when the mind is still there is no hunger…


One aspect of our conditioning is how the mind is in pleasure seeking mode 99.9% of the time. Even when we seemingly get down on ourselves, it’s a perverse form of pleasure. The mind wants to keep all the pleasure thoughts and discard the non pleasurable ones; it spends most of its time doing this. Whether it’s weaving in and out of traffic, only to catch a red light and have all the cars that you just passed pull up next to you, or doing something and asking yourself why did you do it; the reason for the doing is strictly of the mind to seek some form of pleasure. That your own mind questions why you do whatever it is that you do is how diabolical it is, but understand it’s only this way because of the way its been conditioned.


The pleasure seeking mind is not something that has our best interest at heart, but the Conditioned Mind doesn’t really care about that; that it’s in control is all it cares about. It makes you think pleasure is a necessity, but when the mind starts to settle and it loses its hold, you will see the fallacy of this. True pleasure is in stillness, not in things, and the pleasure of the heart is not the same as the pleasure of the mind. The pleasure of the mind is based in lies, the pleasure of the heart is based in truth. There are many parables that speak of satisfying the hunger of the mind; this hunger is the self seeking pleasure of “I”. This is the hunger that’s mind created and it cannot ever be satisfied. It’s only in the stillness of the heart that this hunger will be satisfied, not because it’s fed, but because in the heart hunger never materializes so there’s never a hunger to satisfy…

Beneficial Answers

You already have all your answers; they’re latently within. You just need to make sure the tools that are being used are heading you in a direction which provides the most beneficial answers…

Looking back I can see I had a definite plan that allowed my life to go in a certain direction when I began the study of my own mind. There weren’t any lofty goals to achieve nor did I want some great state of mind to make my life about something in particular. All I really wanted was to find the peace that eluded me for most of my life. This is still the plan today, but be careful because if you think you’re on a so called spiritual path, it doesn’t mean what you’re doing is truly beneficial to you. I did things for years that I thought was beneficial and it turned out not to be so for me. I won’t go into details, but what I do today is beneficial and I know this because there’s a peace that was never there and I don’t have a real desire for anything else. I have a passion for some things, but not an aching. By not looking for anything, that’s how you will know if what you’re doing is beneficial for you.

You may want to be the most spiritual person on your block, you may be reading all the books, quoting all the right people and putting all your energy into your practice, but the question is can you stop it all and still be at peace. If not what you’re doing is only being used as a distraction. I was distracted for forty nine years, so I know what I’m talking about. Try another book, a program, therapy, another pill, working out, meditation, and whatnot, but when the tasks is complete and you are living your daily life, if you’re not at peace, what you’re doing isn’t working. All things are pointers, but where the misdirection is in thinking the pointers are the answer. The answers are always within, you just need to make sure the tools you’re using head you in a direction which provides the most benefits…

Open Heart Possibilities

There are so many possibilities in life when there aren’t past labels associated with what’s occurring in front of you. This allows endless possibilities because you’re in harmony with life and not living in the past…

An open heart is your greatest asset because without being open nothing arises or at least nothing that’s beneficial. An open heart leads to possibilities never experienced before, but when the heart is closed and the mind is in control the doors to possibilities are also closed. Whatever arise in life can be seen as it is with an openness only if it’s not labeled. In this way life can be experienced anew as the Universe opens up more and more possibilities. Even if some past behavior arises, without the judgment of an associated label it allows the heart to remain open and the possibility to go beyond thelabel to experience something new.

Newness doesn’t always have to be an aha moment, it can be a simple act of just not judging what’s in front of you and experiencing that and moving on. Once something is labeled, the heart closes and so do all the possibilities along with it. To experience all the possibilities that life offers is to not allow the past to be a part of what is being done right now. If it is, obviously it remains as something old not something new. But even though it may be from a past habitual mind pattern that’s in place, it’s only old because it’s labeled as such. Without associating a label to something the heart remains open and the possibilities this allows are beyond anything a limited mind can conjure up…

A Useful Map

Providing a map to show a direction so others can find their way is important, but when the map is used to only provide one specific direction, it loses its usefulness…


There’s no such thing as only one map to wake up from the sleep of unconsciousness. It’s just about impossible to see exactly what another person experiences because no one uses the same exact map in the waking up process. I find it quite amusing the way some people project their waking up map as being the only direction. This is not to say this isn’t the map for that person, but that’s their experience and it’s very unlikely that two people let alone many use the same map to waking up. I know for me I just try to direct people with a map to look inward so the can come to their own conclusion to finding their map to peace. I seriously doubt that anyone went through exactly what I did to get to the place I’m in now, so why would I expect anyone to see my map as I do.


One site in particular always talks about there not being a self map as if this is the only direction one can experience peace. Many others use religion as the map to peace. I’ve found there are as many maps to peace as there are people traveling and none of them are wrong. I don’t know and don’t really care what map one uses, it’s not my place to judge. Although I understand the Conditioned Mind, I really find it funny when someone goes against what someone says it’s ”out there” so it’s fair game. To me the bottom line is to use a map that shows love and respect to everyone, even if their direction isn’t something I’ve experienced. The only reason someone shares anything is because they’re using the map that’s in place. It’s not up to me to judge it because it’s “out there” but it is up to me to watch my own map and make sure it provides a direction that others may see as being useful…

The Pleasure Story

Until you can be with life as it is without needing it pleasurable, a pleasure story disguised as truth will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of reaching for the next pleasure…


Just because you think it that doesn’t make it true. It may be what you think to be truth, but upon further investigation it’s probably just a made up story providing you with a pleasurable way of how you want things. We use the story of love in this way, but it’s really only to pat ourselves on the back because we make up the story that love is a good thing; we get pleasure out of anything labeled as a good thing. We use God in this way to strictly provide pleasure, nothing more; like there’s really something out there that cares about what you do. All these made up pleasure stories block you from seeing the truth of what’s really going on. If a story is being used to make up what truth is, I guarantee you it’s not truth, it’s only a story that’s providing pleasure.


Truth is not something to know. It can’t be defined with words because it’s only seen when the mind is settled. When you judge regardless of what it is, you are applying a story (your version of truth) of how you think things should be. This is the same with every situation, the judgements are only there to provide yourself with the pleasure of the way you think things should be. Life is always as it is and until you can just be with it instead of always wanting it in a way that provides pleasure, truth will never be experienced. Thus your story of pleasure (a made up version of truth) will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of constantly needing the next pleasure story…

Chasing the Lie

Whatever is used that you think is needed to be happy will become the lie that you chase . It’s not right or wrong, but the key is to understand if the chase truly provides what you think it will…

The most misunderstood part of my writings is that the view of life I have today is the view was always there. To me whoever is looked upon for inspiration, it should be noted that most likely they didn’t always see things as they do. I’m fortunate to have experienced two totally different ways of viewing life, it’s where my insights arise from and the reason why I share what I do. Having lived unconsciously for so many years has actually become my greatest asset. When I write about something it’s always from a lesson that I learned, it’s never about being smarter or knowing more than anyone else. What’s there is simply what’s there and it’s what’s shared. When I talk about quietness or stillness it’s because I lived a life full of noise. When there’s talk of attachment, it’s because attachment was my master.

Everyone who is alive experiences life, what’s done with the experience determines what’s chased. An example is if you think you need to have money to be happy, that will be what’s chased. It’s not right or wrong, but the key is to understand if the chasing provides what you think it will. Deep down inside having money doesn’t change you; substitute money with anything. For me I went through a life of much suffering, always chasing what my Conditioned Mind made me believe was happiness; today I see this for the lie that it is. When I write something, it’s because I can see the self serving prison I was stuck in; today I have been provided a view of true liberation. I know I’m very direct in my approach, but I’m not insensitive to anyone else’s view, it’s just that I’ve chased what most people are chasing and I can see the lies that far too many remain chasing…

Courage to Look at Yourself

It’s the outer view of satisfying “I” that keeps you from the vision of seeing your inner light. This vision of light only occurs when you have the courage to strictly look at yourself…

Although no one is more special than another in this existence, there are some who do see things a little differently; this happens by having the courage to look at yourself. No one is chosen, but some are just more inclined to not attach to an outer view which allows for a clearer vision than if you are in the grip of a mind based “I” view. There are two existences to experience in this life and they are vastly different. One is in the direction (outward) where there‘s much self created suffering. The other is a view in the direction (inward) of non attachment. The differences in the two views is the outer view creates suffering and is done in unconscious ignorance, the inner one is lived in awareness of ignorance.

The vision of your inner light is a by product of awareness and as the selfish view is let go of, it opens up space to allow wisdom and insight to occur. This opening is directly linked to having the courage to let go of “I”; it’s the “I” that attaches and causes suffering. Ever so slowing when you have the courage to look inward the distractions of “I” fall away. This is what happened to the great mystic’s that people considered special, all they did was have the courage to look inward. This courage to look inward is available to everyone, but you will need to overcome the selfish view of “I” that keeps you distracted from the vision of your inner light which can only be seen when you have the courage look at yourself…

One Sided View

There’s not much free flowing energy in something that’s one sided. What happens when your free flowing energy is cut off by a one sided view is there’s a limitation that causes suffering…

A one sided view on something is what causes you to get locked into only seeing things from the side of suffering. It matters little what the one sided view is as it’s the rigidness of being in a limited mode that doesn’t allow free flowing energy; this is what happens when a story is created and it becomes one sided. It becomes deeply ingrained and hence deeply fixed as one becomes more and more emotionally tied into whatever it is that’s being focused on. It’s very difficult to not attach to something that is held dear to our hearts, such as our children, spouse, parents, relatives, friends and so on, but you can have compassion, passion, and genuine love for something without holding onto it from one side.

To me this one sided view is the normal view of most people and it’s why many suffer unnecessarily. I’ve noticed this occurring in so many lives and I can see the suffering it causes. Unfortunately those in the midst of a one sided view cannot see it, nor can they pull themselves out of it until the one sided view is seen as the cause of their suffering. A one sided viewed doesn’t allow the openness needed to be free from attachment and since attachment is the root of suffering, suffering is inevitable. The more one sided the grip of something is, the more one becomes fixated on it and the less free flowing energy there is in one’s life. There’s not much free flowing energy in something that’s one sided and because of this the free flowing energy is cut off and the one sided view controls life and causes you to suffer…

Each Moments Gift

Today there may be a change in the year, but this day is like every other day simply because life is one continuous journey and each moment should be treated as if it’s a new beginning…


Life is precious and every moment is a gift, not because of what you have, but simply because one day life in this form will not be so.


Happy New Year to all my family and friends who supported me throughout the year and may 2019 be a reflection of the love that has been shown to me by others and the entire Universe. Whether people agree with me or not, I will stay the course for 2020 by continuing to send as much love into the world as possible and by doing my part in assisting others in the process of awaking up so more hearts turn to love in 2020. It will be in our unity of love that 2020 will be a prosperous year for our entire Universe. 


Take control of your life by learning to discipline an undisciplined mind and you won’t have to rely on wishing for 2020 to be a great year. It will be a great year if each day a decision is made that’s how it will be. If you want to rely on the chance of circumstances being a certain way to consider life as great that’s up to you, but life will always be what it is and what one does with it is the choice to be made, but choose wisely because this choice will determine your life. Happy 2020 and may your life be a blessing to all beings…