Delusions Function

Everything in life passes, delusions function is to make everything permanent. Only when the mind is settled will you see delusions function for what it is and only then will delusion stop functioning…


Holding on to your view even in the face of evidence to the contrary is the main function of every delusions. Basically delusion functions in stages, believing what is seen, the mental reactions of what is seen, and holding on to what is seen even though it’s proven not to be true. These first two are the functions of delusion that happen the most, and many people learn from these, but the third one is where delusion functions in the deeply embedded state of the subconscious. It grabs hold of you and makes you believe all kinds of nonsense. There are many ways that delusion manifest, just look at all the things that are reached for. The delusions function here is to make you believe a thing will bring satisfaction, but as soon as it’s reached for and grabbed it’s gone so the next thing function is needed. This is delusion functioning at its finest.


Here’s an example of how delusion functions: you think someone is following you, that’s the beginning; it starts with a thought. Now the mind takes over and the mental reaction occurs or as I say, the nonsense begins. If the person thought to be following you passes you the delusions function will simply fall away for this, but if you’re in the grip of the delusion, you will think the person passing you is just part of the plan. The function of the delusion will always have to run its course before subsiding. No matter what it is in life, it will pass away, that’s a fact, but delusions main function is to make everything permanent so it can remain functioning. Only when the mind is settled will you see the delusion for what it is and only when this is seen will the delusion stop functioning…

The Tease of Pleasure

The most important thing to understand about the tease of pleasure is the less you are attached to “I” the less you will be teased and it’s because without “I” there’s nothing for the teasing to attach to…


The tease of pleasure is so enticing because it actually feels good; this is why the draw is so powerful. There’s only issue with this because of the impermanent nature of pleasure, it simply will not last. Pleasure has no staying power so something else will be needed almost immediately following the attainment of each pleasure. Think about it, with all the pleasures that have been attained throughout your life regardless of what it was, it doesn’t t bring the pleasure now that it brought at that time, and most times even if the same exact pleasure is repeated, it’s usually not as pleasurable as the first experience. I used so many things as I was teased by my pleasure seeking conditioning, but it was never lasting, the tease of the next needed pleasure always arose. This went on all the time, attaining one pleasure after another and never being satisfied.


I’ve come to understand this tease of pleasure as the main reason people start using and become addicted to alcohol, drugs, gambling, sex, money, tobacco products and an array of other things. If pleasure wasn’t sought, nothing would be reached for so there would never be an addiction nor an issue, but unfortunately the tease of pleasure has its way with people. It’s deeply engrained in the subconscious and has been in place since our existence began. I know this tease of pleasure is what was controlling me for forty nine years and it was directly associated with “I”. Without “I” no one is there to be teased. Even with this understanding the tease of pleasure doesn’t just disappear, but it does subside somewhat. To me the most important thing to understand about this is, the less one is attached to “I” the less one will be teased and it’s because without “I” there’s nothing for the teasing to attach to…

Mind Nonsense

Sit often and watch your thoughts come and go. Eventually there will be more and more space between them and it’s in this space that you will see all the mind nonsense holding you in bondage…

With the development of the internet, there’s so much information available on the mind that it really needs to be investigated before considering what to use in its development. To see if the information you are using to develop discipline is authentic and truly beneficial, there can’t be anything associated with it that forms attachment. Methods, programs, guru’s, life coaches, teachers, or any other form of nonsense that is used to keep you attached just keeps you entrapped to the very thing you are trying to break free from. Just as there’s a lot of “fake news” out there today, there’s also a lot of fake information on the mind. Bondage is not something that’s truly understood by many people and so most of the information out there is nonsense and keeps you in bondage in some way. Those telling you to buy their book, pay for retreats run by paid speakers, or follow (instant bondage) a program, are clever to a fault, with the fault being keeping you in bondage.

The only thing needed is to look within so a millisecond of space is created between your thoughts. Once this occurs and there’s awareness of it, slowly there will be more and more space. It takes nothing but awareness to create this space. The nonsense out there that someone’s program, book, method or whatever has your answer will keep you in bondage to what you are trying to break free from. I know people defend their so called program, guru, or people they follow adamantly, but it’s only because there’s no awareness of the bondage you’re still in. Sit often and just watch the thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that you will see all the mind nonsense holding you in bondage…

Noticing the Moment

Your entire existence hinges on a single attached thought and noticing the next moment arises from here. Learning to skillfully see this so your attachments are at a minimum determines if you’ll notice the next moment or not…




The thoughts that you attach to make up your belief system. This is done because it’s thought the beliefs are beneficial, if this wasn’t so the thoughts wouldn’t be attached to. If these attached beliefs aren’t seen as non beneficial they will remain in place. The more you think your attached belief system is the right one, the harder it is to see beyond it. Noticing each moment through thought is delusional because there’s no solid foundation to a thought and everyone has different ones, that’s why everyone see things differently.




There’s only one truth (I don’t know what it is, but I do know what it isn’t) and until this is noticed each moments of life will remain delusional. To get to a point where life isn’t delusional, you have to get beyond the attached moment that holds your belief system (conditioning) in place. Notice each moment as one single thought; a person’s conditioning determines what happens next and how the next moment will play out. Attaching to it or not is the difference in how the next moment is noticed and if there’s going to be unity or separation with it. The truth is one is never separated from life, but it feels this way when there’s attachment to the thought that makes you think you are. Your entire life hinges on a single attached moment; noticing it arises from here. Learning to skillfully see this so your attachments are at a minimum determines if you’ll notice the next moment or not…

Difficulty of Being Still

Without awareness of the mind being agitated there’s the creation of story after story just because the mind doesn’t know how to be still. The base of these stories will be whatever conditioning you have in place…


I would say the most difficult thing I have done in my life is to learn how to be still in spite of the conditioning in place telling me to do something. To not give in to the mind agitations that tell you to do this, do that, reach for this or reach for that, is so difficult because of the lack of discipline to just be and also the lack of understanding of why being still is so difficult. Even with discipline and this understanding, it’s difficult because of all the influences and conditioning. To be still is not something many master, I’m not talking about sitting in meditation or taking a nap, I mean being wide awake without having to alter your state of being. This wasn’t noticeable to me until eleven years ago because I was never still long enough to be aware of any agitation. I like so many was a slave to the Conditioned Mind.


For some this doing doesn’t seem like much of an issue because the agitations aren’t noticeably destructive, but make no mistake an agitated mind is an agitated mind and one is a slave to it regardless of how productive you think your life is. Without awareness of the mind being agitated there’s the creation of story after story just because the mind doesn’t know how to be still. The base of these stories will be whatever conditioning you have in place. You will do what the conditioning in place dictates, without these agitations being noticed the conditioning is usually based in doing something to satisfy “I”. Even if you want to save the world, who says the world needs saving but “I”. Knowing how to be still allows you to truly be an instrument, but by not being aware of simply being you will not notice that you don’t have to do to be…

Consequences of Wanting

Don’t let the different consequences of wanting lull you into an unconsciousness sleep. All wanting leads to bondage (attachment) in one form or another regardless of what it is that’s wanted…


If there’s always something to want it’s because you don’t think what you have is enough. And if you don’t think you have enough, there will always be something that’s wanted. Wanting isn’t something that’s inherently a bad thing, why one wants is where issues arise and this is only because where there is want one mostly thinks something is missing. Want only matters to the degree in how the thing wanted affects your life. A want to drink alcohol in access and do drugs have consequences much different then wanting to go to a program to stop using those things, but wants core is the same and that’s what needs to be examined. Don’t let the different consequences of wanting lull you into the sleep of unconsciousness because all wanting leads to bondage in one form or another.


You might say that’s not true, wanting to better yourself is a good thing, but that would mean you need things to be different to accept yourself. Accepting life exactly as it is is the only place you will experience the peace of not wanting things different. I’m not saying don’t better yourself, but if it’s at the expense of your peace of mind there’s no benefit to it. I say go for the gold, just understand even if it’s attained you will find it’s not providing the benefits you thought it would; shortly afterwards another want will arise. Investigate this and see how wanting arises from needing, and needing causes bondage (attachment) which causes suffering. Break free from wanting things to be different and you will inevitably stop suffering…

Satisfied Now

An outside view uses distractions based on the attachment to the world of “I”. An inside view has no such attachment and is based on the eternal; there are no distractions because there’s satisfaction right now…


Have you ever thought I can’t wait until I go on vacation, or if only my boss was different, or if only I could change jobs, my spouse, my circumstances, retire, if only, if only, if only. This is the distraction of the if only mind; a mind conditioned to constantly look out there. This if only distraction tells you things need to be different and when they are you’ll be satisfied. This distraction only occurs because you don’t know how to be satisfied with yourself in the here and now. It’s truly mind boggling how it seems our entire struggle with life is to find satisfaction and we look in all the places except in the only place that it exist, now. When you’re satisfied with the way things are now, no distractions occur and there’s no need to look outside because you have what you were looking for; when you stop looking, you stop being distracted.


Please take the time to investigate this so you can understand the nature of your distractions. There would never be a need for the mind to be distracted if you were satisfied right now. This doesn’t mean you don’t do things that makes life more beneficial, but your sense of well-being shouldn’t be based on anything from the outside. An outside base uses distractions from the world of ”I”. An inside view is based in the eternal, in love, in Universal Energy, and it’s the inside view that doesn’t need to look outside because there’s satisfaction with life right now…

Listening to Silence

We are torn between wanting to listen to silence and wanting to attach to the surface sounds of the world. Sometimes just by being sensitive enough to the first part, it provides the energy necessary to prevent the second…

The selfish and destructive conditioned mind behavior that was in control of my life is now mostly in a place of neutrality. I would never say the conditioning is gone for good because just by labeling it that would give it the needed energy to return. It’s very important to see what’s in place as being the point where we connect with the world, but not making it into a story. We live in a world torn between wanting to listen to silence and wanting to attach to the surface sounds of the world. Sometimes just by being sensitive enough to the first part, the energy necessary to prevent the second is provided. In stillness all truth arises. The point of this is to show how you only need to focus on being mindful of yourself, not focusing on saving or trying to change the world. The more mindful you are of your own behavior and actions, the more things around you will change.

You will never stop the sounds of the world, but you can listen to your own heart and not be a part of the surface noise by keeping your own house in order instead of being overwhelmed trying to change everything else. When we are mindful of our own conditioning and we take care of the place where we connect with the world, we offer the world our true self. Not by trying to change it or by ignoring the surface sounds, but by simply listening to the silence that’s in place beneath the noise…

Judging Yourself

We are our own judge and those judgements are determined by the conditioning in place. An inner conflict occurs when things don’t line up with the story of the way they’re wanted and hence they are judged…

Inner conflicts usually happen when a decision is judged about something. The conflict can be likened to the pop up figures of the Devil and Angel in cartoons; the figures were always that of the individual. This is because that’s who the real struggle and conflict is always with. Nothing outside of you can harm you as much as your own judgements. A struggle mostly occurs when things aren’t lining up with a judgement of the way they’re wanted; this energy is something that’s real. You can make it like you’re this spiritual guru and behind closed doors be selfish and unloving, but you’re not fooling anyone because wherever you go you are there. The energy that you live by is a result of you. You’re your own judge and your verdicts are determined by your own mind. Your judgements shape your life.

There’s nothing to prove in life. You can preach love and recite all the nonsense that fits into a so called spiritual box, but if your base isn’t loving kindness it’s all being done for one reason and that’s to satisfy your judgement of you. So many conditioned stories are made up about life and they keep you in your own prison. You can get in touch with this simply by seeing how much you judge yourself. Lip service means little here because it’s not only the world that gets hurt, it’s yourself. So many judgements arise daily as devil and angel conflicts, make sure the one you select allows for the loving kindness of yourself because that’s what energy you will live your life by…

Two Directions

There are basically two directions you can live from, one is you run away from life sand keep reaching outside yourself, and the other is you are willing to face yourself which is the direction that will bring you freedom…

Suffering in this existence is pretty much a given because of the direction of the Conditioned Mind, but it doesn’t have to be this way. There are many lessons to learn in this life, but until it’s realized there are two directions you can live from, you’re most likely to be stuck in the one that causes suffering. This is the dog chasing its tail suffering and it never ends because it can’t. It’s controlling energy embraces the attachment of “I” and as long as this is in place you can’t escape its grip. “I” keeps you going in this direction and since nothing satisfies the unquenchable thirst of “I” this is why you suffer; “I” is always thirsty. Even though this is the suffering that’s in place for most people, there is another direction you can live from that is beneficial to the well being and yourself and all humanity; this direction pushes you to a state where there is freedom.

This freedom is from the direction of “I” not from suffering because without “I” there’s no one to suffer. This other direction leads to freedom because as agitated energy arises, instead of attaching to it, you allow it to push you in a direction of new insights and revelations; you’re with whatever arises. There’s no reaching for anything here, there’s no running from it or using something as a distraction. What happens when you make a stand with what arises, the lies of “I” are exposed, and if there’s no direction from “I” there’s no direction of suffering. Read this very carefully and if the full meaning of this can be grasped, freedom from the direction of suffering will begin to expand, but understand this will only occur when there isn’t an “I” dictating your direction…

Constantly Adjusting Life

Because of the way the mind becomes conditioned, life is constantly adjusted as if there are answers that fit into certain spots, and because of this we are constantly making adjustments that we think will make life better…

The issue with having to make constant adjustments to life as if there were certain answers that will make it better is it’s all made up. Even if there’s some semblance of contentment with these answers, almost immediately the mind needs to make another adjustment. Life is continuous, it’s broken up needing to make adjustments by a mind that’s in a constant state of agitation. If this wasn’t true, you would see life as complete and wouldn’t constantly need to make adjustments to your liking. It isn’t because of anything right or wrong that makes you do this, it’s because the mind has been conditioned to do instead of be so it has to make adjustments because that’s what it’s conditioned to do.

The Conditioned Mind makes up just about everything. Sweets, drugs, alcohol, gambling, success, porn, the shortest line in the supermarket, God, religion, programs, diets, degrees, to do list, and so on, all this adjusting is strictly done to put another made up need in place; this makes one think life will be perfect with this adjustment. Let’s say everyday you make an adjustment, that would mean in my case I made up roughly 22,000 adjustments (365 x 60) all for the one reason, to constantly have life the way I thought it should be (my way). After all nobody purposely gets in the longest checkout line, but even if you did nothing would really change except for maybe not having to make an adjustment because you would already be in the longest line, unless now you needed to find the shortest line…

Understanding Why

Nothing is done or held onto without a reason why and if the why isn’t understood, you will unconsciously suffer the consequences of this conditioning as if you were on a leash…

When some feeling or emotion arises there’s a reason for it. Learn to see why an emotion arises and the feelings that go along with it. Whatever arises has a reason behind it, the reason why and the sensation of it needs to be understood if your aren’t to be blindly led around and controlled by it. Nothing is held onto without a reason why and if that’s not understood, you will unconsciously be led around by it as if you were on a leash. Because people don’t see this it holds them in captivity and why it’s so is because the things that are being held onto are used to make your identity. Also the holding is done because your conditioning tells you what you are holding onto is needed. When the reason why something arises is understood or at least noticed, there arises an awareness of your thoughts. When this occurs there’s the possibility it will fall away and in the process so will your made up stories.

It’s so difficult to see why you act as you do because you think what’s being held onto is bringing you pleasure of some kind, but it’s not true pleasure because no object has the capability of providing true pleasure; one is easily deluded by this. Regardless of what it is, when you think you need something to feel good (pleasure) it becomes your prison. If the reason why something arises and is held onto isn’t understood, you might as well keep the collar on because when your conditioning says it’s time for a walk you will have to go simply because you are under its spell and with no rhyme or reason as to understanding why…

A Vision of Stillness

A Conditioned Mind only makes decisions that are already determined. Only through a vision of stillness can true decisions be made because truth can only come from the stillness that is visual from the heart…

A vision of stillness can also be called a vision of love. When these are the visions that life is viewed through, what you see is so different than what an unconscious vision sees; by unconscious I mean a vision that blindly conforms to what the conditioned world offers. As life is experienced more and more through the vision of stillness, the observations are centered more in love and there are less decisions made based on your conditioning. This leads to an unconventional way of living because you are not affected by the decisions based in the world; having a vision of life in this way is so different than what people are accustomed to.

With a vision of stillness no individual decides what happens to you, the Universe decides. Whatever happens is a result of fully cooperating with the Universe as love is the most powerful force there is. With a stillness vision as your view, no one decides your fate. A stillness vision is not of this world, but the decisions made by most people are. You may think you’re making decisions, but you’re only doing what you’ve been conditioned to do. Look at the nonsense that goes on between your ears. It’s truly mind boggling how the mind is controlling ever decision made as if you were a puppet on a string. If you don’t think this is so try and sit still for half an hour. If you can’t don’t be discouraged, not many can and if you can’t control your mind when you’re consciously trying to do it, what makes you think you’re in control when you’re not. It’s so hard to do because the unconscious mind blindly conforms to the conditioning of the world and most people don’t have a vision of stillness to truly see…

You Are Here X

When the body is used to remain present you begin living your life in the only place that truly exist; where you are. In this space you find love, but this isn’t a story, it’s the love of just being where you are…

There is no reason whatsoever that a person has to suffer today because there is enough information available to remove the ignorance that causes it, but this is a truth that you must experience for yourself. No book, video, guru, religion, therapist, self proclaimed enlightened teacher, program: 12 step or otherwise, or anything else can show you truth, they can only point the way and that’s it. What I know today has always been there, but although I’ve been pointed in the same direction for years, it’s message did not click with me until I was ready to see it eleven years ago. It may not always be understood why I do what I do or say, but if you saw what I see, you would do what I do.

I see much needless suffering in the world around me (I say it’s needless because it doesn’t have to be) and that’s even with those who proclaim they’re awake. It doesn’t take much to know whether one is truly awake, all that needs to be seen is where the attachments are and suffering will not be far behind. If you want to stop suffering, stop using the mind and learn to use the body. The body is always where you are, it’s why the breath is used in meditation, you can’t take a past or future breath, you can only breathe now. When the body is used to place you where you are, the mind made suffering loses its energy and lo and behold you begin living your life in the only place it exist; where you are. In this space you find true love, not the story of love, but the love of where you are in the present moment where nothing else exist…

Projecting the Moment

Projecting how you think things should be and the reality of how it is are vastly different. Being with what’s actually happening is the only place where you can be at peace and not one single projection of how you think it should be will change that…

Each moment simply happens regardless of anything; a projection to make it how you think it should be takes you from how it is. I know people like to say you make life what it is or that most people are as happy as they make up their minds to be, but that can be very tiresome if you need to constantly make the present moment a certain way. Life simply happens regardless of anything, a projection to make it how you think it should be takes you from how it is. This energy doesn’t matter if it’s positive or negative because either way it’s a projection of the mind; very important to see this if there is to be true peace in your life. Sometimes things do go the way you think they should be, but that only matters to the Conditioned Mind because it will use it to create the story of how the arisen moment is pleasurable because it worked out your way. Most times the moment doesn’t go your way and hence when it’s not accepted this is when the nonsense of trying to arrange it so it is the way you think it should be begins.

Our projections of how we think the moment should be and the reality of how it is are vastly different; our projections are where most suffering arises from. If you don’t think this is so just watch how the mind gets agitated from something as simple as catching a red light; the projection that it should be green is our suffering. This is true with everything, being with what is actually happening is the only place where you can be at peace and not one single projection of how you think it should be will change that…