Desire to Reach

When the desire to reach for something arises it’s because the mind is in bondage to that particular desire. Until this is seen you will remain in bondage to the desired fulfillment of the next thing reached for…


You will never find the fulfillment you’re seeking if you’re in bondage to the desire of that fulfillment. Fulfillment is something that’s already within you, but because of the way your mind is conditioned, you get bound up in the desires that fulfillment is something outside of you. This bondage makes the desired fulfillment you’re seeking impossible to grasp. This is also the reason you constantly desire something from the outside. Until this is seen you will remain bound to the desired thought of fulfillment in the next thing reached for. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, social status, programs, therapy, self help books, god, and on and on, these are proof you’re in bondage. I can’t stress this enough as this bondage has to be seen if you are to experience true fulfillment in your life.


It’s impossible to think your way to fulfillment, what does have to happen if fulfillment is to be experienced is there has to be an understanding of why you’re not fulfilled; that you aren’t fulfilled is only because of the inability to just be. When the desire to reach for something arises, the bondage to the desire begins; this bondage is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break free from. Fulfillment isn’t something attained or achieved so it’s in doing less that you are fulfilled. To many people get lost in trying to attain fulfillment, but it’s something that’s already within; the binding desire about attaining fulfillment needs to be discarded so you can see this. This is not easy to grasp, but I write so the bondage of your desires can be seen for what they are; the reason why you aren’t fulfilled…

Beyond What You Think

To go beyond what you think is to truly be in harmony with life. Life’s energy will always be as it is, but you need to learn how to cooperate with it so your energy goes beyond the constant motion of thinking…

Visualize the ocean as the Universe and you swimming as your thoughts. You cannot swim without the ocean, but the ocean is not the swimming. It provides the place to swim, but not the swimming. You can swim forever, but it will always be a doing that’s using the ocean, and as the swimming becomes tiresome you will need something to hold onto or the ocean will engulf you.
So what can you do to stop this constant swimming, not as a temporarily solution, but one that will last and keep you from being engulfed? You will need to learn to cooperate with the oceans energy and be in harmony with it. You can hope to find something in the ocean to keep you afloat, or you can turn over and simply float on your back. You’re still in the ocean, but now you simply align your energy with the oceans energy. You’re not fighting, grasping or hoping for something to come along to hold onto, you’re just floating on your back, allowing yourself to be at one with the waves and thus you are using your energy to be in harmony with the oceans energy.

Our thinking can be viewed like this, simply as energy. Life is also energy, which doesn’t need our thinking, but our thinking is from the energy of life. You can think forever, but it never becomes life, although it’s never separate from life. It’s just that the thinking energy is always grasping for something and doesn’t align with Universal energy. It’s when you become aware of your thinking through quieting the mind that you are in cooperation with the energy of the Universe and thus life. This is where you will find the stillness that allows you to be in harmony with life and stops the need to grasp for something that doesn’t assist in any way in keeping you afloat. Hence you are then aligned with the energy with the Universe, floating along in cooperation with life…

Needing Answers Conditioning

There are many situations throughout the day which provide the triggers to reach for an answer, but if there’s awareness of this those triggers will not produce the distracted reaching of needing answers…

Noticing what’s reached for allows you to see what’s being used as an answer to fill whatever space is there that you think needs filling. If the thought that a space needs filling wasn’t there, the need to reach for remedied answers wouldn’t be there. There’s many so called answers, but there’s only one space and it will either be sought to be filled or it will be allowed to be. This is the difference between being at peace or constantly reaching for an answer which reinforces the mind agitations that tells you the space thats there needs to be filled. This space is the same for everyone, but the answers sought are different. This is an endless list of answers, the focus has to be inward if it’s going to be seen no answers are needed. This space will never be revealed if you’re blaming others for your mind agitations because they arise from within you and it has nothing to do with anyone else. This is so hard to understand because of the conditioning in place, but if it isn’t you’ll continue to blame others for your mind agitations and constantly need answers.

To me it’s heartbreaking to see the needing answers conditioning in place and how it unconsciously it causes suffering. This is one of the hardest things to see and it’s one of the reasons the mind can’t fix itself, but one of the most important things to learn about this is how not to get pulled into someone else’s conditioning that produces a reaction from you. There are many situations throughout the day that will provide the triggers for this, but if awareness is being developed, more and more those triggers will not produce reactions, which are unloving 99.99999 of the time. After all it’s only unloving reactions that cause suffering and it’s needing answers that keeps one entrapped in Conditioned Mind Patterns that control you.

Unconscious Energy

Stand up for all your causes, do whatever it is you think you need to do, just don’t attach to it and watch how your triggers dissipate along with the unconscious thoughts that hold you in captivity…


You may think what happens in life is the cause of the emotions that arise, but what’s not understood is the emotions are already in place, they just get triggered by whatever’s occurring. There’s so much underlining conditioning in place that it keeps you from understanding your own mind, and if you don’t understand your own mind it will control you unconsciously. Most don’t think they’re unconscious and take offense to being called so, but this is the exact energy that’s being projected out without an inkling it’s being done; one is blind to their own unconsciousness. You may be unconsciously responding to this right now by thinking “who do I think I am to label you unconscious, and I should look at myself” but I do look at myself and that’s where it was first discovered just how unconscious all of humanity is, myself included. Anytime someone gets angry, they’re causing their own suffering, yet it’s done all the time, but that’s only part of it, what’s really unconscious is it isn’t truly known why anger arises. Stories are made up why it arises, but that doesn’t mean they’re true.


There are many justified causes for anger, but they’re all just part of the unconscious mind; that it’s not realized is why it’s unconscious. The list of attachments that are blindly held onto is endless and it keeps the unconsciousness in place. Very few will really get this, it’s easier to say the writer doesn’t know what he’s talking about then to truly look at this. The only way you will become conscious and your emotions not be triggered is if this is understood. Look around and see how attachment is the leading cause of all this unconsciousness. When you wake up you can pull away from this unconsciousness which will remain in control if waking up doesn’t occur. Stand up for all your causes, do whatever it is you think you need to do, just don’t attach to it and watch how your triggers dissipate along with the unconscious thoughts that tell you this unconsciousness doesn’t apply to you.

Inner Vision of Splendor

It’s the worldly view of satisfying your self (”I”) that keeps you from a vision of seeing your own splendor, and this vision will only be revealed when you begin to look within…


No one is more special than another in this existence, but there are those for whatever reason who do see things quite differently. I wouldn’t label anyone as chosen, but I would say some are more inclined to not attach to the worldly view of “I” which allows for a vision other than if you are in the grip of a mind based worldly view. I have lived two existences, one which was based in energy where there was much self created suffering and the other which is the one I’m living now, which is a vision of looking inward that has allowed my own splendor to be revealed. The only real differences in these two views is one created suffering and was done in blind ignorance and the other, the one today is lived in awareness of the ignorance (no longer blind). Today my view is as it is because the worldly distractions don’t control me as they once did, obviously I’m still in the world because I’m writing this, but its control has lessened.


The vision of my own splendor opened as a by product of awareness and as the worldly view is let go of, it allows space for wisdom and insights to arise. This opening is directly linked to the letting go of “I”, it’s the “I” that attaches and causes all suffering. Ever so slowing when you begin to look inward the distractions of the world lose their control. To me this is what was revealed to the great mystic’s, they weren’t special, all they did was look inward and discovered their own splendor. This ability to look inward is available to all, but the worldly view of”I” will have to be overcome. It’s the worldly view that keeps you from the vision of seeing your own splendor which will only be revealed when you truly begin to look within…

A Storied Crutch

A story is a crutch used to wish your life away as it keeps you from experiencing the present moment. It’s used as a crutch because what’s occurring right now is always what’s here as opposed to a story of needing the present moment different…

Many people think a story is something that’s needed, but it’s used strictly as a crutch by the Conditioned Mind and it keeps you from not understanding what it means to be in the present moment. It’s a direct cause of suffering as it makes you believe it’s something that’s needed by making you live life in the in the past or future. How the Conditioned Mind does this is by creating a story that the present moment isn’t good enough and it needs to be different if you want to be happy. It projects a lie that things would be better if they were in some other way and maybe on the surface they would be, but inward is where one derives the perception that makes life what it is; life will be of suffering or of contentment. Even if the story of what is created comes true, it won’t last especially when it’s on the surface. Inward there is a slight better chance for it to have a lasting affect, but this is only if you’re awake enough to not create a story.

Let’s say you’re diagnosed with some kind of illness, the only thing a story does is it makes you wish the diagnoses was different, but it doesn’t change the fact of what is occurring right now. The illness remains regardless of what story is created. If your life isn’t storied to be different and it’s accepted as it is, you will experience the peace of the present moment and this is regardless of what’s occurring. By the way, the present is where all stories and wishes come true because it’s the only place that truly exists. So my story for all beings is that this is seen, not in the future, but right now because right now doesn’t need a story because it exist without one…

No Real Struggle

The only time there’s a struggle with life is when it’s made to be a struggle, this only occurs when the Conditioned Mind is in control. The mind will settle when the quality of acceptance is developed…


Your struggles are neither with life nor with people or circumstances so who does that leave you with but yourself, this is who the struggle is always with. I’m not saying that some of the things that happen are easy to accept, but the struggle is still within yourself. Sometimes it just doesn’t seem like life is fair, that it shouldn’t be so difficult, but again this struggle is only because of your view, not because of life. The view (conditioning) of how things are is what causes you to struggle as it’s simply what goes on between you ears, this is where any so called struggles manifest. There’s a need to allow the mind to be present so it can settle down and focus on what is actually occurring instead of creating a struggle.


At times it’s as if there’s one thing after another, but there really isn’t, it’s just the Conditioned Mind making up a story. Each moment is independent of itself so it has nothing to do with any other moment unless it’s made so. When this is understood tools can be developed so this happens less and less. Peace is directly linked to how much control your conditioning has over you. If there wasn’t conditioning you wouldn’t be controlled and there would be total peace. For me this is the path I must learn to stay on and head in the direction of peace. Peace is already there, but it’s needed to learn not to allow the Conditioned Mind to block it from your view. The more the view is in the present moment, the more peace there is because the view to peace isn’t being blocked. The only reason life is ever a struggle is because it’s allowed. It’s up to you to change the conditioning that blocks you from understanding you’re already at peace and the key to this is to see that life really isn’t the struggle that the Conditioned Mind makes it out to be…

Phenomenon of Memory

Understanding the phenomenon of memory and how it constantly uses pleasure is very important in breaking the chains of bondage; it’s the attachment to “I” that makes one only remember what’s pleasurable…


The phenomenon of memory and constantly using it to bring things of pleasure into the present is simply that, a phenomenon. Although this happens without it being realized, when it is realized it changes everything. Memory of how things truly are gets distorted in a way because they are seen through the conditioning that’s in place. This conditioning mostly manifest in constantly seeking pleasure. Think of this, when someone dies nobody says the person was an SOB. What’s usually said borders on making the individual a saint and that’s even if when the person was alive they were an SOB. This is the memory phenomenon that’s in place and until it’s realized, your life is spent constantly pulling in pleasurable memories. The mind doesn’t like unpleasant memories so it uses pleasurable ones, regardless if they really happened or not. This is also part of the survival instinct engrained in us. Even those who remember painful events, they’re still used to find pleasure, even if it’s to just push them away, hence this is why one reaches outside themselves for comfort.


Nobody reaches for anything for any other reason except to provide themselves comfort, but in this comfort seeking is so much unconscious suffering; comfort and pleasure go hand in hand. Understanding the phenomenon of memory is very important in breaking the chains of bondage because it’s the attachment to “I” that makes you only remember what’s pleasurable; even to the point of its own destruction “I” seeks pleasure. Just look in any rehab or detox, every drug or drink of alcohol that’s ever taken has the lure of pleasure associated with it or it wouldn’t have been reached for. This isn’t limited to just those substances, this goes for anything that’s reached for. The mind defaults to what’s familiar as it uses the memory of pleasure as its lure and until this is realized you will continue to pull in the memory of pleasure, even if it didn’t happen the way you remember it did…

Attachments Outcome

The more controlled you are by your thoughts the more severe the outcome will be, with the outcome being determined by how much of a hold the attached thoughts have over you…

Problems with attachment don’t occur when you’re busy, although thoughts still randomly arise non stop, but because of the busyness there isn’t much attachment to them. Attachment arises when you’re doing the daily mundane tasks that don’t take much focus, like sitting in traffic, shopping, watching tv, eating, doing yard work, lying on a beach, etc. In this state of semi idleness if you’re unaware when a thought arises, there’s nothing to distract you from becoming attached to it because the mind has no focus; this opens the door for attachment to occur.

Let’s say you’re at home relaxing, all of a sudden a thought arises to have a beer, substitute the beer with something more suited to your conditioning. There’s not much of an outcome from one beer, but the outcome for six is different. The more controlled you are by a thought, the more the affected outcome. Because so much of the thought process is to provide pleasure, there’s nothing this pleasure seeking (which is the bondage of “I”) can’t make worse. Understanding this is priceless if you’re ever to be free from attaching to your thoughts. If it’s not understood, your own Conditioned Mind will continue to create attachments. Without the awareness of this and with no tools in place to prevent it, not much thought is a given to what the outcome of your attachments will be…

Emotions of "I"

Emotions aren’t created and can’t rule you if “I” isn’t the focus. This concept of “I” is the operating system behind emotions so when “I” isn’t reacting to the outside circumstances of life, there is peace…

Emotions are something that most people don’t give much thought to. The experts will say they’re needed, but if I followed the text book nonsense of the experts I would be dead. The turning point in learning about emotions was seeing how although they may manifest in different ways, they all arise from the core of “I”. What was revealed to me is that there’s a created “I” that gets tied into our emotions in many ways. The concept of this sense of “I” is the operating system behind our emotions. These emotions are tied into how we see ourselves. For instance guilt arises when something is done that “I” considers bad or wrong. Anger arises when “I” is hurt in some way. Fear arises when “I” is threatened. Sadness arises when “I” is disappointed, and on an on. All these emotions arise because of very different circumstances, but this is as far as most people get when it comes to understanding emotions.

The way I investigated emotions is not in how they were different, but what they all had in common, this was where my focus centered. What this led me to see was there’s one common source of every emotion and that source is the concept of “I”. Emotions can’t rule you if an “I” isn’t created. Please investigate this for yourself, don’t listen to anyone and their view, develop your own. I said earlier that my emotions would have killed me because there was a tendency when reacting to things emotionally to use things that were self destructive. It’s not this way today because I’ve learned somewhat (nobody’s perfect) not to attach to an “I” that gives my emotions life. When there’s not this “I” reacting to the outside circumstances of life, there’s much more balance to remain at peace and not act in ways that is self sabotaging.

Gauging Your Practice

Gauging and learning from a practice allows for those who were once lost to possibly now be found and those who were once blind to possibly now see, but only if there’s a practice in place that allows this…

If there’s not some kind of practice in place so your can gauge your behavior, it will be difficult to proceed in a direction where there will be any expansion in your life. The first thing to gauge is if you even have a practice in place that’s practical and beneficial. I don’t mean the practice of belonging to certain groups, although there’s nothing wrong with that, but if it’s in place to just keep you busy, it’s not really a beneficial practice. Although it is a practice, the gauge of how it is working to quiet the mind or how it keeps the mind agitations at bay is what one needs to be aware of to allow for the continuous expansion of life’s process. I’m sharing this because this is what has allowed me to be as I am today. There’s no magic to this, a beneficial practice has to be in place if one is to experience beneficial results, this is as simple as two times two equals four.

Gauge your behavior, reactions, attachments, annoyances, and whatnot and see what is the driving force behind them. This driving force is your block to expanding beyond the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind. Without a solid practice in place that allows this to be seen, you might as well not practice at all because it’s just a waste of time and energy. Either do it so it’s beneficial or don’t do it at all. You can only be free by being free and only a practice that puts you in harmony with life allows harmony with life, to me this makes sense. I practiced wrongly (unknowingly) for many years and it produced results that weren’t beneficial, but I’ve gauged and learned from this and because of it, where I was once lost, I’m now found and where I was once blind, I now see, but only because of having a practice in place that allows this…

The Comforty Story

Until you can be with life as it is without needing it comfortable, a comfort story disguised as truth will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of constantly needing to reach for comfort…


Just because you think something that doesn’t mean it’s necessarily associated with truth. It may be associated with what is thought to be truth, but upon further investigation it’s probably just a made up story providing you with a comfort of the way you think things should be. We use the story of helping others in this way, but it’s really in place to pat ourselves on the back because we make up the story that helping others is a good thing; we get comfort out of anything labeled as a good thing. We use God in this way to strictly provide comfort, nothing more; like there’s really something out there that cares about what you do. All these made up comfort stories block you from seeing the truth of what is really going on. If a story is being used to make up what truth is, I guarantee you it’s not truth, it’s only a story that’s providing comfort.


Truth is not something to know. It can’t be defined adequately with words because it’s only seen when the mind is settled. When you judge someone regardless of what they do, you are applying a story (your version of truth) of how you think they should be. This is the same with life situations, and these judgements are only there to provide yourself with the comfort of the way you think things should be. Life is always as it is and until you can just be with it instead of always wanting it in a way that provides comfort, truth will never be experienced. Thus your story of comfort (a made up version of truth) will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of constantly needing to make up a comfort story…

Reacting Accordingly

When you are under the spell of the Conditioned Mind you react to life accordingly, but it’s not in the way you want to be, you react to life in the way you have to be.


It was the lack of understanding of my own mind that caused me to remain in bondage to it, and the bondage was created strictly to self serve. The problem with this type of conditioning is it causes your own destruction because the destructiveness is disguised as pleasure; this pleasure is pursued by many to their death. It was pursued by me in this way and I was in bondage to it’s beckoned call. It said to me to use drugs, alcohol, gamble, womanize, lie, cheat, steal and so on and I obeyed without question; this is how my Conditioned Mind was developed. There are those who are fortunate enough to see this at a young age and can stop the conditioning; this is why I share.


The way I was conditioned wasn’t the fault of anyone in particular, it occurred indirectly by the inner and outer influences in my life which molded me to behave in the ways my conditioning dictated, not because this was the way I wanted to be, no this was the way I had to be. You cannot behave in any way except in the way you have been conditioned. When the conditioning becomes different your entire existence becomes different. The value of knowing my own mind was in the understanding eleven years ago that there was nowhere else to turn; not to God, support groups, therapy, self help books, positive thinking, and so on. What I learned is when the Conditioned Mind is truly understood its control slowly dissipates as discipline is developed; this is when the mind actually slows down. Once this slowing occurs, the possibilities are endless because there are no longer the distractions that keep you in bondage to your conditioning. With a thorough understanding of what you are truly up against, you are able to develop the necessary awareness so the conditioning eventually falls away…

Remaining Content

Don’t allow anyone to take you from your contentment, let them think they’ve gotten the better of you. As the “I” goes their satisfaction will be short lived, but a solid foundation of contentment can last a lifetime…

Humans are all created equal. It’s not that some know more than others, but some are more aware of themselves and this makes it seem that some have insights that others don’t have. The more unaware you are of yourself, the more you are dragged around by what happens in life. This awareness is what one awakens to, it’s not the great secrets of the Universe, but more so what pulls you from your contentment. I would say in my own case one area where I’ve become more aware is in not allowing other people to pull me from my contentment. At times my initial reaction is to get annoyed, but it’s usually realized very quickly that most people know not what they do so to allow another’s actions to control me is on me. Because all humans come into the world basically the same (unconditioned) it’s the level of conditioning that makes a person as they are; some are just more aware of their conditioning than others.

Let the other person think that they’ve gotten the better of you, except to “I” it means nothing; this is how unconscious energy is squashed. This doesn’t change the other person, but it does change you. It stops all the stories which festers as unconsciousness. I’m going to say this to them, or they are wrong, or don’t they know who I am, this is all the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind and it is energy that nothing beneficial arises from. Let the other person think whatever they want, but you will know in your heart the truth because by remaining content and not giving in to the Conditioned Mind nonsense, form is not in control. After all you can only be taken from your contentment when it’s allowed and it only occurs when “I” is in control…

Happy 2019

Today like everyday should be treated as if it’s new unto itself. Life is precious and every moment is a gift, not because of what one has, but because one day life in this form will simply not be…

Happy 2019 to everyone who has supported me throughout the year and may 2019 be a reflection of the love that has been shown to me, others, and the entire Universe. Whether people agree with my view or not I will stay the course and do my part to assist others so more hearts may open by looking inward in 2019. It will be in this love of your heart opening that 2019 will be a prosperous year for our entire Universe.

By looking inward you take control of your life by becoming aware of how to discipline an undisciplined mind. By doing this you won’t have to rely on someone wishing you a Happy New Year in 2019 for it to be a great year. It will be a great year if that’s how you decide it will be. If you want to rely on happenstance that’s up to you, but understand life can only be what it is, how it is viewed is up to you… Happy 2019…