Quality of the Mind

Life is mostly viewed through the intellect and as long as the tools developed by the intellect don’t fail, this view will most likely remain as it is with very little quality of the mind.

One may or may not become aware of how life is mostly viewed through the intellect, but if it does become known, it will be dependent on what tools are in place to cope with life. Some years ago I looked for another way because the tools I used for forty nine years no longer produced satisfying results. I was in a great deal of mind created pain and unfortunately I was only able to use the tools I had developed even though they failed. When one is at this so called crossroad there are many different available ways to go, but which way one heads is dictated by the conditioning in place. Some go inward, some remain entrapped to a downward spiral, some, although on the outside all appears to be well remain in bondage to “I” and some unfortunately die. One can only see what is seen, but that doesn’t mean what is seen is the most beneficial view.

It’s the quality of one’s mind that determines what is seen and the quality is related to the amount of stillness there is in one’s life. Noise takes away from the quality of the mind because it produces nothing but conditioned nonsense; that’s what noise is, conditioned nonsense. Story after story, concept after concept, belief after belief, there’s no stillness in any of these so there’s no quality. There’s plenty of quantity, but it’s all noise. Become mindful of this and watch how life becomes different, or not and remain with your stories, but understand this will limit the quality of your mind and thus it will limit the quality of your life.

Direct Experience

When the questioning stops it’s not because one has all the answers, it’s because answers are no longer necessary and what anyone else has to say only has value as it relates to your direct experience.

There is no substitution for the understanding of something from direct experience. You can read all the books, quote all the great mystics, sit for hours, go on retreat, belong to programs, and so on, but if you don’t have a direct experience where none of these things are needed, you will remain in the bondage of relying on what others say instead of a deep understanding of what it takes to be free. I notice a common theme in those who disagree with what I write and it usually comes from the way a third party sees things. I don’t agree or disagree with anyone because no one can see anything but what is revealed to them. What others say can resonate with you, but if it’s not directly experienced, it’s as if you are grasping for straws. I have been told numerous times that I’m wrong in a certain view, and I laugh because experience is neither right or wrong, it’s experience.

I don’t care who you quote, unless what you see comes from within, it’s superficial. People can only point and if there is to be freedom from the bondage of self, there will have to come a time when what you see is strictly your own. I know nothing about what resonates with someone else, but I do know what frees me and what holds me in captivity; this has nothing to do with what anyone else says. I read many books when I began this questioning of myself and they assisted in directing me inward, but the questioning has since ceased, not because I have all the answers, but because answers are no longer necessary. This is my direct experience and as far as I’m concern what anyone else has to say only has value as it relates to their and my direct experience.

Created Difficulty

Once one wants the moment to be different, the label difficult is instantly applied, and when this difficultly becomes too heavy just put it down and understand nothing truly needs to be different.

We can live the life we wish we had, we can live the life we think we should have, or we can live the life that we have. These are the three ways that we live everyday throughout our life. When the alarm rings and it’s time to get up for work, if we hit the snooze for more sleep and wish that we didn’t have to get up yet, we are wishing for life to be different. When we are envious of someone else and think that their life is better than ours, or if we think our life shouldn’t be the way it is, we our living a life that we think would be better if it was different.

When we are in a mind state of being with life exactly how it is, nothing has to be different, what this leads to is inner contentment. When we are content with what is, we are free because nothing is holding us back. Living this way, we live a life that isn’t based on conditions for contentment, this is true freedom. Not being content with the way things are creates the difficulty of wanting things different. And it’s a created difficulty because if you didn’t have the thoughts that you wanted things different and just accepted what is, the label difficulty would never be applied.

Our thoughts create our life, along with our labeled difficulties. If you want to believe those thoughts are who you are than those results fall on your shoulders, but it doesn’t have to be this way. Learn that no thought is you and no difficulty needs to be created. In stillness neither exist because neither are present. So if contentment is to be the consistent operating mode of the way your life is lived, than stillness must become the mind state more often then not. Use meditation to bring in stillness, use stillness to bring in peace. It’s the formula for a contented life, and with a contented life there will never be a need for one single moment to be different. Now wouldn’t that be different, but it will only be difficult when you tell yourself it is.

No Purpose Needed

To have a purpose to help others would mean someone has to be suffering in order to fulfill that purpose, this created purpose creates bondage and wherever there is bondage there is suffering.

The noise of the Conditioned Mind arises in many different ways and one of these ways is to create a purpose to get a sense of well being. Let’s use an example I often refer to but is not well received. Years back I was drinking heavily as I was searching for I’m not even sure what I attended a 12 Step program. They have 12 Traditions in place to run the organization and one of them states: “Each group has but one primary purpose — to carry its message to the alcoholic who still suffers” so in order for the group to exist which is made up of individuals, someone has to be suffering; this then becomes the individuals purpose. To me in this created purpose is one’s created bondage, and wherever there is bondage there is suffering. This suffering is very subtle, but it’s not limited to creating a purpose. Whatever is needed to induce a sense of well being instead of having it well up naturally, to that extent will one suffer.

I’m not saying don’t assist people where it can possibly help alleviate suffering for them, but if there’s attachment to making it a purpose, it will cause your own suffering. This is because you will always need someone who is suffering to maintain your sense of well being, that is just crazy. Why this sense of well being isn’t real is because it’s being manufactured. The Conditioned Mind will tell you what I’m saying is BS, but I will tell you from my experience I don’t need anyone’s suffering to create a purpose for my sense of well being. As a matter of fact any purpose is strictly something created, so why fall prey to its inherent suffering. In stillness no purpose is needed for one’s sense of well being because it arises naturally, so a purpose doesn’t have to be manufactured, especially one that needs someone to be suffering so you can make up a story to appease yourself.

Supported Results

Life is a process and the results that manifest in it are directly linked to the support that is given to the process. The seeds used for support are the seeds that you live by.

What you use as support in life is what determines the results of it. Support of greed, hate, and delusion will produce those results as will support that results in kindness, compassion, and love. This is the way the Universe works and although the results aren’t always seen by others or right away, eventually the individual will experience the results of what is used for support. One cannot support hate without hate being returned, as one cannot support love without love being returned. Life is a process and the results that manifest in one’s life are a direct result of the support that is given to their process. It really can’t be any other way, the seeds that you support are the seeds that grow, there’s no way around this.

For many years my support base was self serving and my results were strictly from this base, it’s no surprise when looking back at my life, all I see is chaos and confusion. How could it not be? Today it’s much different because my support isn’t linked to self serve. I’m not a believer of anything in particular but my experience, and this has resulted in stillness which the Universe uses to decide what my results will be. There’s so much more peace with this support. I already had life exactly how I thought it needed to be and I was miserable. So for me the support that results in peace is what’s of value and minus the story of needing peace or anything else, my support results in all I was ever looking for.

Repeitive Thinking

Many of the same thoughts arise and wanting the moment different is the common energy of this repetitive thinking. When you’re with things just as they are, there’s little room for repetitive thinking to be in control.

Over and over the same thoughts seem to go in circles throughout the day, some engaged in because of certain situations and some for no apparent reason at all. What happens while one is caught in this repetitive thinking pattern is it takes away from what is actually going on. This repetitive thinking will only be let go of if there’s awareness it’s happening and even then it will take discipline to stop it. How many times on Sunday do you think about having to go to work on Monday (It’s Monday Only in Your Mind). Or if you see something your attracted to, how many times do you go to what is causing the repetitive thoughts of whatever you’re attracted to. This repetitive thinking can be associated with all different kinds of energy, it’s not limited to any one in particular, but pleasure is a big part of the core energy of repetitive thinking as it’s very enticing to get caught up in things that have the applied label of like attached to it. Even if it seems like a person has repetitive negative thoughts there’s a perverse pleasure still associated to them.

Repetitive thinking become detrimental to one’s well being because of how it takes you away from the present moment and into a created fantasy. A practice of learning to use the body or breath does assist in becoming aware of the repetitive nonsense that many get entrapped to. By all means if your repetitive thinking truly benefits you go for it, but for me I’ve found that it just tends to wrap me up in the bondage of self. Wanting things different is probably the one repetitive thought that causes the most problems and although this may arise disguised as different thoughts, wanting the moment different is the common energy that causes the repetitiveness. When one can be with things as they are there’s little room for repetitive thinking to be in control.

A Conditioned Self

It may seem like one chooses what they do, but what is done is mostly controlled by the conditioned self. When this conditioned self is in control, there’s no choice because what is done is already chosen.

If you ever truly want to be free from your conditioned self, it has to be understood. Maybe not totally, but enough to understand it’s not or never was you. It’s mostly through ignorance that this conditioned self is given power so let’s look at some of the behavior of this conditioned self. We pout when things don’t go our way, we judge everyone including ourselves, when our mind becomes agitated we reach for a conditioned pacifier, we use and hold onto outer things to fill inner desires. We want, we want, we want.

This is so important to understand because it allows you to see there’s another way you can be; seeing this is the catalyst that urges one to look for something else. The something else turns out to be the bigger picture, so the more one is focused on that the less the voice of the conditioned self is heard, and the less that voice is heard, the less control it has and the more the bigger picture of creation is viewed.

The bigger picture is never about an individual. There’s very little control over anything in life and that’s okay because needing control locks one into the idea of a conditioned world. So if you ever want to be truly free, the conditioned self will have to take a backseat to the bigger picture, which has the possibility of infinite creativity that one’s conditioned self could never imagine. So don’t limit the unlimited by being controlled by a conditioned self that has nothing to do with life except in a conditioned world.

Two Frequencies

Life consist of a lower and higher frequency and the one that’s most prevalent in your life is dependent on how much I is in control. The more I controls, the more the lower frequency dominates.

There are two frequencies that one can live by, a lower one or a higher one. I know this now, but it wasn’t something I was always aware of. Nine years ago this changed because I become tired of being controlled by my lower frequency, which to me is to be controlled by the sense of I. This control keeps one in captivity to Conditioned Mind Patterns that lead one around as if they were a puppet on a string. The only way one’s higher frequency will be present is when these strings are cut. It’s very unfortunate because this isn’t understood nor is the fact of who the master puppeteer is, and this puppeteer controls just about every human being to some degree. The puppeteer is I and until this is realized the strings will never be cut and I will continue its onslaught of control.

To me this is why it matters little what you do if it’s controlled by I. It’s just the way it is, but this isn’t isolated to only the individual, if you look around and the mind gets settled enough, you will see this is the way of the world. It’s run by the frequency of I, the people in their assigned roles are just puppets and until more people wake up, the lower frequency will continue its dominance. At the lower frequency the core behavior is greed, hate, and delusion, and at the higher frequency it is love, kindness, and compassion; both of these can be added to accordingly. You can see the differences in the two frequencies and how one’s life would manifest outward depending on which frequency was lived by. This is a very practical way of looking at this so it should be easy to see which frequency is dominating your life. If it isn’t your higher frequency only you can change it by cutting the strings of the lower frequency of I, that is if it’s realized I is in control.

Controlled by Temptation

Temptations arise and seem like they are a part of being human, but giving into them is not human, it’s conditioning and as long as the conditioning is in place, acting upon an arisen temptation will be common place.


Each time one gives into a temptation, what causes giving into it not only gets reinforced, but it also gets engrained deeper in the subconscious. This is part of the reason it’s so hard to wake up from the sleep of unconsciousness. Without awareness of the temptation there’s no way not to give in. The temptation itself arises because of its trace energy that’s in place, to me one isn’t responsible for it arising, and if there isn’t awareness that it’s there, there’s really no responsibility for the reaction to the temptation. There are so many examples for this, one would be a person who cheats on their spouse. The temptation to satisfy a certain desire arises and because there’s no awareness of it, the reaction to the temptation has be acted upon. If there was an understanding of this, it wouldn’t prevent the temptation from arising, but it could prevent the reaction (acting upon) to the temptation.


This is but one example, how about the temptation to take drugs or reach for something else to alter your mind state. The desire to alter one’s current mind state simply arises and once it does because there’s no awareness of it, one will reach for and act upon the temptation with whatever they have developed to fulfill it. It could be cutting, alcohol, drugs, gambling, or a slew of other things, but regardless of what’s used the response to the temptation is in place because of the unawareness of it. Temptations will arise as it seems it’s just part of being human, but giving into it is not human, it’s conditioning, and as long as the conditioning is in place to act upon an arisen temptation, it will become that much more common place as it becomes unconsciously what is considered the norm.

Peace Isn't Accidental

Peace isn’t something that just happens accidentally to a person. Even if it isn’t realized, peace is the result of being aligned with the energy that allows for it to be.

Those who are at peace with themselves are at peace with the world, but this isn’t because everything is as wanted nor is it accidental, no it’s because whether it’s realized or not, one is aligning themselves to the energy that provides peace. You cannot be at peace if you’re using tools that don’t provide peaceful results from being experienced. If the mind is agitated and it’s not understood that it is, peace will be difficult because the tools needed to provide it won’t be used; it won’t even be known that they’re needed. Forty nine years of using tools that didn’t provide peace caused me and those around me many years of suffering. It wasn’t because of a lack of looking for peace, but because I didn’t understand about using tools that provided the peace I was seeking, there were no results of peace. Although today the mind still gets agitated, at least I understand what’s happening so there’s a lot less suffering because the agitations just don’t remain in place for long periods of time. There’s also a lot less time spent in reinforcing the mind agitations that arise because of the understanding.

Prior to the understanding of my own mind, my mind was in a constant state of agitation, but it’s not the peace that results in the mind settling that I understand, what I understand is why there wasn’t peace. That there’s awareness of an arising agitation is all that has to be noticed for the mind agitation to loosen its hold and as one becomes more aware of this, the hold becomes less. Don’t delve to deeply into trying to understand this because it then becomes just another agitation. Just see it for what it is, don’t try to change it nor want it different, just notice the awareness aware of awareness, that’s it. This will result in peace and not because it’s happening accidentally, but because of being aligned with energy that allows the mind to settle enough for one to be at peace.

Roll of the Dice

Truth builds a foundation for life that is not easily swayed by the circumstances that occur. An erratic existence is what happens when a roll of the dice conditioning is relied upon to build a foundation for life.

Many people say they aren’t sure how they would react if a certain situation occurred in their life, with this lack of understanding of oneself what happens is life becomes like a roll of the dice. The only reason this occurs is because there isn’t a solid foundation of truth, so basically life is left to chance. When truth is the foundation no matter what happens, one stays the course because the foundation is solid. When things aren’t contingent on outside circumstances being a certain way, when they change (and they will change because such is the nature of life) you can remain on firm ground and not allow the circumstances to control your reactions. You may feel a certain way because of it, but it doesn’t have to affect the way you respond and allow your emotions to control you.

If you don’t know yourself which makes for an unstable foundation, you will definitely be controlled by whatever happens in life, but when you are firmly planted in truth, it will be difficult to be swayed by your own emotions. After all that is what makes for a roll of the dice foundation, emotional immaturity. Not having a solid foundation in truth is the cause of this. An example would be, if the truth of impermanence were understood and you were told you had six months to live, your reaction wouldn’t be so dramatic; our reactions are dependent on our emotional maturity. I’m not saying you will be able to say it is what it is initially, but by knowing truth you will eventually say it, and how long this takes depends on how deeply engrained truth is in you and how emotional immature one is. So when truth is known and you are free from the roll of the dice conditioning, what you are set free of is you being controlled by your own immature emotions. Learn truth of who you are and you will remain firmly planted on the ground no matter what numbers come up when the dice is rolled.

Worldly Shallowness

Look beyond the shallowness of what the world presents and how it’s adhered to. It will be beyond this adherence that one’s true self emerges. If not, one will remain confined to their own shallowness.

The world encourages shallowness and attachment to this results in one’s own shallowness because it’s what’s adhered to. Is there truly a way to go beyond this for everyone, or is this just reserved for a select few? There are many who are living proof that anyone can go beyond the shallowness of what the world projects. One just needs to take a step back from the trappings that are in place. All of these trappings are based in selfishness, with most centered on the greed of power. This has become what the value of existence is measured by. This value is really valueless.

Look at our entertainment industry, it can be called our distraction industry, because that is all it does. It distracts one from noticing what is truly going on in their own life, and the world presents these distractions daily. Why is this shallowness allowed when it is in everyone’s power to stop it? Where are we headed with this shallowness having a foot hold on our throat? Please use whatever power that can be utilized, to get this message out to as many people as possible. I don’t mean preach it, or post it, I mean use one’s power to go beyond the shallowness to live by a message of love. One can only change their own shallowness, but by that changing just think of all the people that one comes in contact with each and everyday and how many can be touched.

Indwelling Love

A created lack is why one reaches outward for something. Inward is one’s indwelling completeness based on one’s own indwelling love. Any lack is strictly created by having a view that something’s missing.

Nothing is ever missing in one’s life, it’s only the Conditioned Mind that makes one think there is. There’s never a true lack, it always comes from what one’s own mind creates. Fulfillment always comes from one’s own indwelling love, which is provided by the Universe. It’s the indwelling self of creation, it’s what one is made of. All the other nonsense that goes on is just the story that’s made up between the ears. One’s indwelling love is truth, it’s the place where peace passes all understanding. The outward nonsense that something is missing is the cause of suffering.

To go inward, is to go where there is nothing but love. To go outward is to go where there is nothing but a void that needs filling. This void (lack) is what creates suffering, because there’s nothing outward that can satisfy it, ever; only one’s indwelling love can satisfy this. One’s indwelling love is always there, that’s why there is never anything truly missing in one’s life, but with an undisciplined mind there isn’t awareness of this indwelling love so the only alternative is to look and reach for it outwardly. The need to look outward for anything would never be if there was the understanding nothing is missing. One only seeks because there is a lack and there is lack because of the unawareness of truth. When truth is known, the seeking ends because when one knows the indwelling self one is in touch with their indwelling love, and when one loves, there will be the understanding that there is no void to fill nor any lack because nothing is missing.

Noisy or Quiet Mind

It seems as though there’s a choice between a mind that’s noisy and a mind that’s quiet, but when there’s no awareness between the two, the noisy mind rules so there is no choice.

There are two kinds of minds that a person lives by. One is to live life through a mind that’s noisy. This doesn’t need much explanation because anything that’s done through this type of mind is only a benefit to self. The other is to live life through a quiet mind. This one is so much more beneficial because its effects are so much more lasting and wide spread.

The noisy mind only exist to satisfy self, this is pretty cut and dry. Whatever is used in this mindset is used to benefit only yourself. There isn’t much unity or love here. Now granted most people aren’t under the spell of a noisy mind all the time, there’s usually some quietness, both minds can’t be in place at the same time so at any given time, the mind will either be one or the other and the more the mind is noisy, the more time one will spend thinking about and doing things only for themselves.

Now look at a quiet mind and how this mindset benefits all humanity. It touches the entire Universe because that’s its source. This mindset isn’t self created or sustained by doing, it’s a direct result of being aligned with Universal Love. The quiet mind is of the Universe where there’s unity and joy. It has to be this way because love arises from quietness. A quiet mind sustains itself, serves many, and is a benefit to all. So the mind in place is what determines what one brings to humanity and it will either be the noisy mind that creates chaos or the quiet mind where all humanity will be served.

Natural Love

Living from a place of love is better for everyone involved, just understand it’s not special, it’s natural and many in the world just do it so don’t make it about what it isn’t.

It’s easy to get caught up in the so called spiritual way of life and think it’s something special, but the bottom line is there are many people who emanate loving behavior (natural love) without being conscious of it, it’s just natural to them. An example of this occurred yesterday as I was at the beach. There was a west wind which has a tendency to increase the biting fly population on the beach. As soon as I sat down they started biting me, a women came up to me and offered me a natural fly repellent. I used it and the biting fly issue was no more. When I first sat down I was determined to not focus on the flies so as not to miss the beautiful day that was being offered, and with a little outside assistance the flies did not win. The flies are just one of the things my Conditioned Mind wanted to use, there were children screaming and limited swimming, plus some other things going on, but all I had to do was remain with what was occurring in that moment and lo and behold none of those things mattered. They were still happening all around me, but there was no attachment to them.

I may have to practice this to be free, but I observed many people on the beach and throughout life who naturally live the so called spiritual life. It’s not special to live from a place of love, it’s natural, to not love is unnatural. It’s why it causes suffering because it’s doesn’t allow a natural flow with life. There’s no harmony when living in an unnatural way. To many, this unnatural way causes much suffering and becomes the driving force to living differently, but don’t make it more than what it is. Living from a place of love is better for everyone and everything associated with it, just understand it’s not special, it’s natural and many in the world just do it so don’t make it about what it isn’t.